Not your normal wolf

Understanding

Jackson POV

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I had always been a playboy. Going through woman after woman hoping one would eventually fill my void. Onyx begged me to stop saying he felt his mate was near and fearing she felt what we were doing. I didn’t really believe in mates. My father had left his true mate for my mother and she was everything a true Luna should be and more. She was strong and tough. His true mate was an omega and she would’ve tarnished this pact.

When things became too much in the pact I would wander out here in the woods and reflect on everything. Jessica would be a perfect Luna. She was gorgeous, witty and intelligent. She was a little weak for a Luna but I would be her strength. Something seemed to always hold me back from actually giving her the title however

‘That’s because the title doesn’t belong to her. She’s somewhere. Somewhere here- if you just would look we could find her’ Onyx was adamant that his mate was near but I scented no one and we couldn’t have a wolfless mate.

‘I wouldn’t care what she was. She would be perfect for us and us for her’ Onyx grumbled. I was about to argue further when I sensed we weren’t alone.

I whipped around to see a girl. She looked to be a child in a woman’s body. Her body pale and ghastly and her face disfigured. I was in shock that she found me, I hid myself well.

What is it omega? You shouldn’t be out here. Your Luna will punish you if I tell” I sneered at her ‘God have we ever met? No we can’t have. I’d remember that face” I laughed to myself. She was just a little too hideous to miss.

I expected her to break out in tears or scamper off but she just stared at me. My skin felt a little too tight under her scrutinizing gaze.

“My name is Cathy Flint. And no you probably don’t know me. But we’re mates. We’ve been mates for a long time now” she stared into my eyes and i felt truth but I couldn’t believe it.

“The moon goddess would never burden me with a hideous omega mate.” I argued. Onyx Was having a frenzy in my head over this. Thrilled over meeting his mate and ready to tear me to pieces for what I was about to say.

“Look I’m sorry but we don’t need any burdens in this pact and I can’t even scent you. You probably don’t even have a wolf.” I paused. Onyx truly was ready to kill me over this and could I really do this? Live without a mate. I would be broken…but no Jessica will be perfect and she’ll heal me. I hope this woman doesn’t die from this rejection.

“I alpha Jackson Winter, reject you omega Catherine Flint as my mate and banish you from the winter pack” I fell like a sack of bricks to the ground in agony. Onyx was nearly feral. I could barely breathe. Could barely see.

I felt her hand pull my face towards her. How was she standing? She looked absolutely fine. I watched as she casually took off her clothes. She looked like a child underneath her dress and I felt momentarily relieved about the rejection. Until she threw off that ugly necklace.

I watched as she transformed before me. The malnourished, disfigured, and mousy girl turn into a blonde bombshell. Her body was perfection, her face from her button nose to her emerald eyes to her rosy cheeks was utter perfection. I could see the magic fizzing around her. The pain intensified 10x now fully sensing and feeling her. I knew what was coming and I had to stop this.

“I rescind my rejection” I sucked in a breathe as the pain winded down. I looked down at her shock filled face. She seemed to be having an internal battle with her wolf. Confusion was evident on her face.

I stood as quickly as I could and faced her. I was still wobbly but I could feel her tensing as if I would fight her.

“Please just give me a chance. Give us a chance” I whispered. Onyx was peering through my eyes and I could see her wolf peering through hers. I felt their bond seal. But then like lightening the look was gone and her cold eyes stared at me. I deserved all the hate she was giving but I had never felt this full in my life. Even next to a woman who despised me.

She seemed at a loss for words as she snapped back into reality. Muttering something to herself she spun around and began to pace. I didn’t want to interrupt but it was impossible to not notice that she was completely n***d still and hadn’t realized.

‘Don’t be a perv. You don’t even deserve to witness our mate like that with what you’ve done’ Onyx snapped at me. I don’t think he’s ever truly been this livid with me. I’m sure if he had the option to be with any other human he would choose them right now. ‘No s***t Sherlock’ he growled out.

“Uh Cathy you’re uh… not wearing clothes” at this she paused and looked down. She turned beet red and then practically pounced on her clothes.

“DON’T JUST DON’T LOOK” she practically screamed at me and almost by command my hands flew to my eyes.

I knew at that moment why she was so cautious of us and hid her true identity. She seemingly was unaware that she used magic. I imagined her parents didn’t tell her about what she was. I sure wouldn’t. She would know she could command me to let her go.

“You uh… you can look now” she stood seemingly perplexed at me rescinding my rejection. She turned her big green eyes on me and I melted a little. Onyx was purring in my head at her even sparing us a glance. We stood at an awkward stand off neither of us knowing what to do or say next.

“Well I-“

“Uh so-“

We both started. We both awkwardly went back and forth about one of us going first until she blurted out

“So I think I’ll just go. This…this can be solved later” she seemed to be talking to herself more than I and she wouldn’t meet my eyes. I felt my heart break and onyx whined. Our mate wanted to leave here. She wanted to leave us.

“You can’t go.” My alpha voice slipped out and I regretted it when I saw her eyes turn into slits. Not only did it seem to not affect her- it seriously p*****d her off.

“Excuse me. You rescinded your rejection but you can’t rescind a banishment on your own.” I felt like slapping myself. I would have to go to my father and mother and beg them to help me fix this. Currently she was rogue and had no attachment to this pack. She could freely go… in fact she had no choice but to go. Our pack didn’t mingle with rogues.

“I’ll make this right, Cathy. I will find a way to get my family to rescind the rejection.” At this she laughed. Well and truly erupted into a fit of giggles. I was slightly worried she may have gone mad.

She then turned and looked me in the eye. I felt my blood freeze at the look in her eyes

“I don’t want you to. The freedom I feel no longer being attached to this pack is euphoric. I won’t be back” she stared at me for a brief moment before snatching her amulet and switching into wolf form.

She was just as magnificent in this form as in her human form. Pure white and she seemed to glow. I saw her wolf stare at me one more time longingly before she darted into the woods. I stood frozen to the ground knowing I couldn’t chase after her as a rogue. It would incite others to go after her and I couldn’t risk it.

So I had to wait.