Romance of the Playboy

CHAPTER 16

CHELLERINE

"Is my offense are that huge and illegal why you want me to do that f*cking punishment of yours?" Wala sa loob kong tanong. Hindi niya ako hinayaan na makaalis sa higaan ko, he even carried me and just put here in my bed.

"That was not me. It was my trickster, that double-dealer" Someone pretends to be him? It couldn't be possible. He is smart how can someone just easily deceives him and do that fraud trick.

That person may be hang his or her crooks upon me. It could be Roy, he is only I know have an intention to do that unpleasant things. Hindi ko siya pinapansin, wala rin naman akong ginawang masama sa kaniya. He can't just throw back his deed as if he is returning back what I've did to him.

"Jiara" Ang natatandaan ko lang ay noong tinanong niya kung bakit kasama ako sa kanila noong ipinahatid ako ni Kailer. I'm with Jedd back then, that's only.

"Why?" Hindi ako naiinis. I should know what her reason, why did she do that. And what's on her mind while doing that.

After all, she still Kailer's secretary. She is in not convenient position. Now it's in danger, I'm being pensive again.

"You want to talk to her?"

That's the thing I'm not capable of. Makausap man lang siya ng kahit ilang minuto at pagsabi langng kumustahan ay hindi ko magawa. How can I face the girl I am forerunner of Kailer's currently deals?

"Where's the boys?" Magpapabili ako ng pagkain. Alam nila kung ano gusto ko, sila lagi ang bumibili ng sa akin.

Kabisado nila, wala nang magiging problema. Pati sa bahay nila Mama hindi ako naka-diretso. Dito ako kaagad na idinala ni Kailer.

Hindi siya pumasok, nakahiga lang sa tabi. If that is the only problem I can't restrain him, He know what he is doing. And this should now be solved, paano kung lagi akong nakakulong at halos buong oras, maghapon ko nararamdaman ang kaniyang mga nagbabantay sa mga tingin.

"Digging for their burial" Seryoso ba siya?

Too lame. That pun won't buy on me. I prefer scrutinizing at his alluring face than hearing him saying that jokes from nowhere.

The awareness of mine are in particularly working so widely. Even the murky premises I include due of exposing his forbid deeds out.

"Can you hand me my phone?" Tanong ko.

Hinihintay ko siyang ibigay sa akin iyong pinapakuha ko habang nakatingin sa kisame. I will call Zyron or maybe Styno. Sa kanila ako magpapabili.

I heard him blare, but too low. A mellow tone again, he is fond at that. Hindi ko na ito pinansin at hinyaan siya sa ginagawa niya.

"Bilisan mo" naiinis na ako. Ang bagal niya, hindi niya iyo kinukuha hindi man lang bibalingan ang phone na katabi lang.

Inabot ko ito. I pursue myself from catching it just to take it. Calling Liores will be prompt, they won't resist me.

"Zy, Can you buy me a food?" I want to eat. Baka hindi pa nakakagluto ang katabi ko, nandito na siya mula pa sa umpisa.

"Nasaan kaba? Wala ka kina Tita? Ang sabi ni Sty hinatid ka niya kanina, doon pa nga daw nakitulog sa inyo" I did loud the speaker. I am not usually fond at focusing at the screen. Hanging from the bedsheet while the call are in still.

"Apartment" This sh*tty man ruling the bed.

Dinaganan ako nito kaya nailayo ko ang phone at nahiwalay sa pagkakahawak ko. Inis kong tinulak ang katawan niya upang mapunta sa kabila. Nasa ilalim nito ang phone, naririnig ko ang pagsasalita ni Zyron ngunit hindi ko maintindihan.

"F*ck you Kailer, umayos ka kung ayaw mong ikaw ang ilibing ko" Mariin kong sabi. I'm indulging for being his dealer along his playful but not on me deeds. Mamamatay yata ako sa inis.

"I love you too Kadyne ko" Tiresome, this will be a long infringement for him. Ang hirap niyang intindihin, maayos akong nakikipag-usap. Alam naman niya, he should respect it. Presidente pa naman ang ugok.

I snob and get the phone from pinning by his hefty body. I need more energy just to pull his body and freely get my phone from that jeopardy never been in an arrant relief.

"Are you with your partner?" This is not true Zyron. You're just hallucinating.

Secretly feel the exult by how he behave his frisky body. It may effect to Zyron hearing those sh*t fought of us.

I have no partner if you misunderstood. He is such a grim feral animal been lost and chose to hang here for his nonsense reason I could never have a care. I am into thoughts of asking him why he is doing this? Why on me? And why he keep doing this even he is already have another?

That makes my mind more messed up, a cacophony thoughts I scarcely lay on, but couldn't bear on as for forever.

By just dragging into this certain situation I never see myself. Eventually, the quest of seeking upon the reason of I can't anymore pushing Kailer away. And that f*cking reason will be my death. I am not me anymore. But he made me.

"Faster Zyron. Nagugutom na ako" Ibinaba ko ang tawag kahit alam kong iniiwasan kong sagutin ang tanong niya. Wala dapat akong sagutin, walang kasiguraduhan.

Perceptible I only can see that seems to be real. And that one is being in this circle won't be permanent. Everyone have a life span, while me it's a time.

"Alam mong nandito ako pero mas pinili mong magtawag ng iba. Bakit mas gusto mong pahirapan ang sarili ng iba?" Huwag ako ang tanungin mo. It must be you, why you wanted me to inflict with that sin of yours?

Honestly. I want to push you away..

"Dahil kaya nila" hindi ko rin alam kung bakit. Parang nasanay na lang ako na sa kanila tumawag at sumandal sa tuwing kailangan at sa kahit na anong oras. I am not using them, but I am just being ably for their presence near to me. They are closed to me for a long time.

I will lose if I let this. That word and meaning behind that are not so meaningful to me. I am at an arrant aim of mine. Achieving my dreams is my happiness, and being with this intrude mess is not fun anymore.

Parang ako lang ang gumagawa.ng kasalanan. Dapat tinataboy ko siya ngayon. Hindi ko siya hinahayaan na makalapit sa akin, sa buhay ko.

"Kung hindi mo pa sinusubok ang isang tao, hindi mo talaga malalaman kung kaya ba nila o hindi" and that's my point also.

Gugustuhin ko bang makilala ka? Ang hindi sinasadiyang pagsabak ng landas nating dalawa ay naging hudyat ng hindi basta-bastang problema. Marami ang sangkot, pati na ang nararamdaman ay nakabilang.

I am the prey, and I won't let the conquerors vanquish my entire feelings. It will bring me into a lethal yet in a subconscious state.

Nilamon ko ang mga inisip at mga tutuparin na sinabi.

Hindi ko siya ganoon na kilala para pagkatiwalaan at ibaling na lang sa kaniya ang atensiyon ko. Maganap man ang bagay na iyon, ay wala pa ring kasiguraduhan ang ginagawa niya. Maaaring maging panandalian.

Magkaiba ang bumubuo ang aking isipan ng bagay na maaari at posibleng mangyari kesa sa totoong nangyayari. I don't even control my mind, and what the actual happening and happening for future.

I want to protect myself. He can do it too.. for his self. I am proclaiming not to be open on my reasons, but for my sake. And my dreams needs to achieve in a right time.

"Can we talk about what's happening?" Kung matagal ko na sanang binuksan itong usapin na ito, magiging maloko nanaman ang makukuha kong sagot. I want to be true, I want him too.

"It's well okay, I am not doing this to benefits you but making you with me, kung maaari lang na sa akin ka agad kasabay rin nito at pagsasawalang bahala sa mga tong iyon" I found this out much lame. Why all of his answer myself treats it as lame but not just lame much than much wrench. I'm irritated but not in agitated.

In this state I should be mature and grow to know many things are prohibited to do and some aren't. I know what's right, and I'm gloatingly respect and obeying it with my all over me. Without the judgement of the perceptible outsider nor even have, still my care will be out of pace but in only my aim.

"Nasa tagong lugar kapa" Rather being in our house is not my favorite. I want to be responsible and wholly liable to hang in any place just to find the tranquility, the quietness, the silent things I've been with to. Hindi ako namimili ng lugar, pero ang mga taong sa tingin ko pa lang wala na talaga.

An opted precise that trig person I only can put my trust.

"Mga tago at sariling balak, nabunyag" I said in a mellow tone.

"That's only the possible plan, I have main plan, second, third and so on. Just let me handle the situation, okay?" It's like he is having a contract I need to agree.

"You can't because we can't" To notify him, I need to say that. To remind him that he should not forget Jiara.

While having a lunch together. I think without bicker to each other is as this silent occupied by the good serenity.

Tumayo ako upang buksan ang pinto, kukunin ko ang pinabili kong pagkain kay Zyron. Wala isa sa amin ang may inaasahang dadalaw. But my heartbeat isn't normally working thud.

"Chellerine" Bigla niya akong hinila sa braso at hinagkan ng yakap. Ang paggawa niya sa wala sa oras ay nananatiling tanong sa isip ko. Hindi naman niya ito normal na ginagawa, at isa pa hindi kami ganoon na malapit sa isa't isa.

I show my strained smile as if I'm welcoming her as she too. I am not into this matter, this maybe ritual of her or their family. Hinayaan ko na lang siya.

"Where's Kailer? May nakapagsabi kasi sa akin na dito rin daw siya nakatira" I'm not well informed. But to that person behind that, once I met you I will surely execute you're head and display it to your house while hanging.

My mood aren't joining the situation, parang ako lang ang napipilitan na pakisamahan ang babaeng ito. She is Kailer's girlfriend no matter the situation won't interfere with me.

I proceed inside and thoughting it was Zyron bringing my food. We ate lunch together with Kailer, mas gusto ko pa rin ang pinabili ko sa kaniya.

Narinig kong sinara niya ang pinto, wala akong magagawa kung magsisinungaling ako na wala dito ang hinahanap niya ay wala ring saysay. May karapatan siya, sabit lang ako.

"Kailer" I called him by his name. I am still in my soul to do reckless things in front of him. Ayaw ko lang na nagpapanggap, tinawag ko siya upang kunin ang atensiyon niyang nakaharap sa TV.

"Babe! Shallen is right, you're here" masayang sabi ni Jiara. Nakita ko itong naglakad papalapit sa kinaroroonan ni Kailer. Saktong kakatapos lang namin na kumain pero hindi pa nahuhugasan ang mga pinagkainan ay doon rin ang hindi inaasahang pagdating ni Jiara sa apartment.

Tumalikod ako upang pumunta sa pinto at pagbuksan nanaman ang taong nasa likod ng pagpindot ng bell na iyon. I'm hoping this time Zyron nor Styno will be here. Sana siya na iyon.

Kaagad na bumungad sa akin ang harap-harapang paper bag na halatang puno ang laman. Fried Chicken will also added here. Sneaking even a bit of peek what inside the bag. Obviously it contained so many food, I like this. This is why I love them so much.

"Thank you, come in we'll eat this kung ayaw mo walang pipilit sa iyo" Hinila ko siya, wala man itong sinabi o nag-signal na hindi o puwede ay ako naman ang susundin niya. Zyron will be under for now.

"Get the saucer, and the bowl. I will cut these whole chicken into fine pieces" kumuha ako ng sangkalan at kutsilyo na naka-ayos sa tabi ng mga baso.

Narinig ko ang mga pagyapak niya at ang tunog ng pagkuha niya ng gamit sa organizer ng mga plato. Siya naang bahalang maglatag at mag-ayos ng mga pagkain. Ako ang nagpabili, ako ang nagpapunta, ako ang humila, sa akin rin siya nakatalaga. Hawak ko ang oras niya, ibabalik ko siya bago pa man sumapit ang dilim. Sa ngayon, kakainin na muna namin ang mga pinamili niya.

Wala akong sinabi na hindi ko siya bibigyan. Basa kung gusto nila lalapit sila ng kusa at magpapaalam.

"Put the sauce over there. Then, pour the vinegar on the separated another saucer. Para hindi maghalo. Those chips will be open and mix, we need to open them all it will gonna be tasty. Nakakatakam na" Kinuha ko agad ang isang chippy at binuksan. Kumain ako habang binitawan ko na muna ang hinihiwa kong manok.

Kumuha ako ng isa pang bowl upang doon ilagay ang kinakain kong junk food. Kumuha rin ito ng isa, he know I am not fond at sharing the items already been owned.

"That's why I love you-" Matamis akong nakangiti habang kumukuha ng chippy na nasa bowl na habang itinutuloy ang paghiwa sa manok.

"Let's talk" That authoritative voice come out that sudden in our place. Just because of these foods I forgot they are still here. I wonder if Zyron will notice Jiara.

Hindi sila magkasundo, hindi ko rin sila nakitang nagkausap. Maldita daw si Jiara ayon sa dalawa. Although, hindi ko naman nakikita iyon kay Jiara. But I am not into that, it won't have any effect on me.

"It's you Ms. Tiamzon" back to my surname.

Napatingin ako kay Zyron na napatigil din sa kaniyang ginagawa. Hindi niya pa masyadong nabubuhos ang suka ay ibinalik ulit niya ito sa container nito.

I sign to Zyron I'm going after Kailer. I heave sight I let to come out before my feet starts to move and taken the pace I'm going through.

"What now Mr. Ortega?" An embarrassing moment filled me. He beastly look at me, portend to do something. Hoping it's just a small talk. Iniwan ko ang pagkain ko para lang sa sinasabi niyang usap.

"And who's that f*cking guy? You just let him in without my f*cking permission?" hindi iyon malaking bagay at problema para ngayon siya magreklamo. Kung ayaw niya ay kami ang aalis at punpunta na muna sa unit nila.

"Sa pagkakaalam ko ay wala akong dapat na ipagpaalam at humingi pa ng permiso sa iyo, may karapatan ako dito" this ambitious yet nocuous of his are voraciously swallowed the entire of his other order part.

"Gusto ko siyang patayin. You know I already have many plans for many mean guys detaching around you, samantalang ako pinaghihirapan ka pang makuha" I am not things you can get that easily Kailer. I am here for my dream, and that dream will be my power.

"He is not. Kapag ginalaw mo siya, ikaw mismo ang huhukay para sa libing mo" Hindi ko gusto ang usapan namin. Ayaw kong magtagal pa ito.

"Mas lalo kong babantayan ang mga galaw ng ugok na iyon, My property might be secured and always on guard" He is over, over on everything. Usually, he never do this, that's not even important to me.

"He is my cousin for f*cking sake Kailer!" I exclaimed in much agitated running after me.

Naramdaman ko ang bigla nitong paghawak sa braso ko at iniharap sa kaniya. With the infuriating boiling blood I furiously face him without dodging his glares now indulgenting me.

"While you're not becoming mine, I won't hesitate to smoothly dig in with lashing flogged.."

Knowing him, his words can be aptest to happen to circumstance. Also relevant to my image, hindi man ito nagdalawang isip na gawin ang balak niya.

"You'll eat with me" Not now. I'm with Zyron sharing with that food and Kailer desiring to eat with me, how about Jiara and Zyron. I can't just simply leave Zyron behind.

Let him be counted and Jiara on food we're preparing but his wants only I can't capable to do and provide. I stay on the place where I served next to Zyron starting to bestow what he reached.

"Sit here Kad" Walang hiya niyang utos.

Zyron know nothing about this person commanding his order given to me. Only that option I can do to not let this abstract be huge, might the eavesdrop will escape turn it down to rife and not anymore safe but full of toxic society.

"You must be Kailer right?" pambasag tanong ni Zyron na kasalukuyang ginagalaw ang kaniyang hawak na piraso ng chichiriya.

"I'm into Kadyne" lie.

I'm not even into any of you.

An opted can portend to start the conversation. My will can able to look at Jiara. Thus, Kailer's phrase are not even approved, wala akong alam, wala siyang sinabi, hindi niya pinaalam. At hindi ko alam kung maniniwala ba ako sa mga sinasabi niya.

Kinakabahan na ako ngayon palang.

"Jiara, why are you here?" Just a little thank to Zyron for the intended change his sight and put it on Jiara.

"She's just an acquaintance" He just reversed the position in his life as what are we.