Romance of the Playboy

CHAPTER 12

CHELLERINE

I am still at the place where my comfort are unerring to not to sought the soft yet too perfect for me to relax and remain my body calm. It may be sluggish but atleast some energy been plugged in to me.

Iniunat ko ang mga kamay ko pataas at isinandal ang aking likod sa board ng kama. Idinilat ko ang aking mga mata pagkatapos kusutin, I smear my face to make sure there is not hitch and dirt can give my face an additional nasty.

I'm on other room!

Mabilis na luminga linga ako sa paligid upang tignan kung totoo nga at hindi nagmamalik-mata lang.

"F*ck you Kailer, why I'm here?" mas lalo akong napasakmal sa kumot na nakabalot sa akin. Hindi ko ito aalisin, it's cold and too cool to not to bend my knees and get out off this place.

"Let's f*ck then" that's not my point. You bastard!

"F*ck your insanity!" kaagad kong tinungo ang air conditioner para patayin ito.

I bump him before to about go out. He got the opportunity of making me turn on him. I face him and while looking at him with full of curiosity he approach me by putting his arm to my shoulder. Wow, a good timer.

"Put that down, I'm going to cut into pieces your f*cking arm" naiinis ako. Doon niya ako pinatulog and he was beside me as my mind cope up with what's with something beside me.

This creature is not good. Isinabay niya akong maglakad sa kaniya. He again cooked, madalas ko nang madatnan ang mga pagkaing luto. This will be good if this always will welcome me every morning. Hindi na ako magluluto, kakain na lang.

"Your phone is ringing, and it's bothering me" naiinis niyang sabi.

Kinuha ko ito sa lamesa at sinagot. This will be a twist, a twist that Styno and his brother Zyron will gonna go under that conundrum.

"The girl with you, you're companion. She wants you to go here, mag-uusap daw kayo" Yish. They know her but they don't know her name.

"I can't, maybe after class" I hang it up. Pagtingin ko sa katabi ko ay taka naman itong nakatingin.

That's my business, he know where he should place his curiosity. That dumb*ss. Hinila ko siya upang ayain na itong kumain. This will be my first time grabbing his arm with no force because he maybe waiting for me to do that. His advanced mind are functioning.

"For about a month, I'll stay at my parent's house for the mean time.." Why did you do, why I'm giving you this information. This is not that delicate to not to be share.

For that time, I only can do is to help and be with my parents whole day. I would keep that matter and enhance my ability upon that task.

I remain silent. I persistent to walk beside him and just don't think about earlier. He act like he did not heard it, he become so cling. He never did this kind of things. It's not his things as I how I saw from him. It's also not my way to let him be cling and just not letting to be away even a meter from him.

"You have no plan of explaining, huh. Let's just see, you're keeping yourself away but not now" He is scuffle now.

Anong dapat ko pang idagdag kung iyon lang ang gusto kong sabihin. And that was an accident I did not intended to slip out any words on my tongue. This sh*t is now my problem.

Naghihintay lang pala itong ako ang maunang magsalita. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang balak niya, at kung ano ang gusto niyang palabasin dahil sa gusto niyang magpaliwanag pa ako.

"Kadyne!" Napayuko ng sumigaw siya. Katabi ko lang siya pero kung makasigaw parang ang layo layo ko sa kaniya.

He did yelled in beside me, he frustrately face me and keep his hand be in touch on my back. This rife feeling are on me, this is not my part, partly need to be away. I know me, and where I should place myself.

I eligibly accept that this state will come and come. Yet this day I am not sure if this are also part of that expecting events.

"Don't shout please" I almost begged in front of him.

"Kad.." hindi ko pa nakakasanayan ang pagtawag niya sa akin sa ganoon pangalan. My last name he always used when he is on a trip to intrude my mood.

Melodious but I am not freak to be amazed. He is calling me but in a low yet too smooth. Hindi ako sanay.

If you want to go, go with me.

Tumalikod ako sa kaniya at muling humakbang. Hindi ako papasok ngayon, I am going to buy some things will be necessary to be bring on. I slightly look at the other stall to scrutinize and know if that will be fit or be fit as my second thoughts.

"Stop doing this malicious things" Pilit kong saad.

"Ikaw ang ayaw akong umalis ng hindi ka kasama kaya huwag kang gaganiyan sa harap ko" Hinila ko siya papunta sa kung saan walang masyadong mga tao ang nakakapansin sa amin.

Masyadong agaw atensiyon ang itsura ng kasama ko, hindi ko tuloy alam kung saan ako lulugar sa tuwing hawak niya ako.

Nakauwi kami ng maaga, nakauwi kami ng hindi man masyadong nilibot ang lugar na iyon. Puro lahat na mga gamit ang nagbabakasakali kong ipampalit na muna pansamantala. This while are my time to spend to take a rest. My body feel sluggish. Although, we just walk and repeatedly going back where I am thinking twice if I should go purchased that certain tool.

"We finally go back after that hell experienced unexisted in your sight"

He is the hell here. Sumama pa siya kung kanina pa pala atat na maka-uwi. Wala ako masyadong nabiling mga gamit. But Mom already said someone will fetch me from here.

Papasok ako sa mga susunod na araw pero sa bahay ang diretso ko. Our driver will wait for me from outside. At hindi ko na muna pagtutuonan ng pansin ang lalaking ito. It's not required for me especially I'm going to be busy for a month.

"Hindi ka papasok?" Wala na siyang ginagawa. Wala naman siyang matinong naitulong sa akin. Maluwag naman ang oras niya, he should go to school.

He can do half day, hindi ba siya tinatawagan ng girlfriend niya para paalalahanan siya? I am not in the place to ask that, I still have no rights even this guy are keep from my side.

It's like I renounce on my pride, buwisit kase ang lalaking ito. I can curse but.. he is hitch.

"Papasok ka ba?" Oh that's not an answer.

"I'm asking you"

"I did asked you too"

I want to burn you!

"I did it first!" I fiercely said in peeved.

"Why you'll asked if it's on you the giving answer?" not an even. Nakakabaliw siyang kasama. Hindi matino.

Wala sa oras kong nakuha ang katabi niyang unan at inis na binato sa kaniya bago ako tumalikod at pumasok sa aking silid.

I packed the entire things, I ready the important yet too necessary to be use. I need to ready myself too, dahil anumang oras ay darating na iyong sundo ko.

I don't have long tempered to not feel irritated towards him. I can expand but I can't stand.

"Ihahatid kita" again. This dumbass things of him won't stop bothering me until he'll catch up on it.

The f*ck that I am letting him but I want to refuse just because this are really not right. This is not my plan and my first step to stop this.

"Mommy sent someone to fetch me, just stay and sit there all day if you don't want to go school Mr. Ortega" ayaw ko na muna siyang makita kahit na mga ilang minuto lang sa ngayon. But those days until a month will occur I'll often missed his d*mn face for f*cking sake!

"I still work on what my mind saying, baby" Aalis na nga ako, ganito pa rin siya umakto.

"Bahala ka sa buhay mo" I gasp as I turn my back to get my things inside my room.

Hindi naman iyon kasinglaki ng maleta, its just a usual bag I'm bringing like having a vacation somewhere far.

Pagkalabas ko nadatnan ko pa siyang naka-upo ngunit malamyang mukha ang bumungad sa akin. Napatingin ako sa hawak ng bahagya niyang naigalaw ang kaniyang ulo upang lumingon sa direksiyon ko.

He stand up, with full of ambitious he get my bag in my hand and he, himself indeed bring it. He deliberately pull me over him and roll his arm to my waist which make my breath lessen. Every step we made I feel my breath slowly taking away from me. Hindi ako makahinga ng maayos hangga't nananatili ang kaniyang brasong nakapulupot sa aking bewang.

"Asahan mong naroon ako" he muttered but I did not clearly heard it. Para siyang baliw na nagsasabi sa kawalan.

"Wala kang kausap, huwag kang mag-sabi sabi" Ngunit mas lalo lang niya akong inilapit pa sa kaniya.

Hanggang sa may makita na kaming sasakyan na nakaparada sa parking lot. This is it, the car are on my parent's who held. Pinasundo nga.

I pointed the car where parked near to ours, my car now been stuck, hindi ko na alam kung magagamit ko pa ba iyon.

Interlace how I feel his arm. Parang sinakop nito ang buo kong pag-iisip at doon na lang nadako at nanatili.

He open the door from back seat. Ihahakbang ko na sana ang binti ko upang makapasok at makaalis na. His intrude arm abruptly took an advantage why he take even my whole body. He settle his bare face near to mine. That was fast!

Mas lalo akong nailang at naging kabado. He is smart but he never recognize the place and the many if we are with some acquaintance around.

I push him as I am willing give all my force. But his lure breath tempting me and distracting me. That opportunity why he carry me. Due to the fear from falling I settle my leg apart to hold on to his waist more.

Kailer..

"I will miss you" that words strike me inside. Gusto kong iwan siya, gusto ko rin na hindi na muna siya makita but this time his movements baffled in my mind makes messed scene and expected events.

How can I think well and utter words when he much close me to his. I feel his breath overtaking and passing to my skin which is not typically I'm wishing to be happened.

Then, I heard his foot steps and put my body over the couch. I'm now inside the car sitting but my legs are still on his waist. I feel embarrass when he step close more and attempting to catch me.

I am now drowning by the thought of what he possible can do here. Controlling is not his part, but pushing over his aim is his wanted.

"Look at me" I gaze but not directly to his eyes. Nakakailang!

"I said look at me, Kad.." Alluring, so alluring. I need to be firm and fight what he is pertaining and wants me to know.

Hindi ako sigurado kung may idadagdag pa ito sa mga sinabi niya dahil sa pagkakalapit nito. I unconsciously look at him. He intended to make my face look at his eyes directly as he touch my jaw and relatively move it until he achieved what he want from me to do.

That's a nag! Sumilay sa kaniyang mukha ang ngising hindi ko inaasahan. He made sure I can't escape to go away and keep running far from him dahil sa pagkakahawak niya sa mga binti ko.

The access of him touching my leg upper is odd. It feels something I am now actually can't control but to be flow on him.

"Kail.." he move his lips and form a wee before he again continue. The van where we are now are giving me a cold ambiance due to the air conditioner are switched on.

"Paulit-ulit kong gagawin ito hangga't hindi ka na makalayo pa, you'll going to search for my touch for any minute. I am sure" I grasp on his nape when he seized my neck and lick it.

He made it! Once again!

Hanggang sa makarating kami, hindi ko pa rin magawang magsalita. Nangangamba ako na baka nakita kami ni Kuyang driver. But he understand because of Kailer saying that I'm his wife to our driver. Walang alam sila Mama.

Nakarating kami agad dahil wala masyadong mga sasakyan ang mga nakasalubong namin. No traffic happened. Kaagad kong naramdaman ang pagkabigat ng katawan ko pagkapasok ko pa lang mula sa pintuan.

"Its nice to see you now here, Sweetheart" She welcome me with her warm hug. I feel so welcome, she granted what my thoughts it would be once I get here.

Kaya mas gusto ko ang manirahan dito kesa sa apartment kasama ko si Kailer. That scene again. What an awful I am!

Bumalot ng matinding pagkahiya sa sarili ang aking naramdaman. I can still feel his touch. I can feel his breath on my neck!

I inform her to go on my room to take a rest for a while. My heavy eyes are getting down. I need to lay down my body so soon.

Mamaya ko na siguro kakausapin si Papa kapag nakapag-pahinga na ako. Pagkapasok ko ay narito na rin ang mga gamit na dala ko. Maybe one of my family's auxiliary maybe.

I'm longing on my bed now. Mabilis ko itong hinigaan at mas yinakap pa ang katabing unan. Ang kumot naman na nakabalandra at nakaayos na, hindi ito ang itsura mula nang umalis ako upang sa apartment na tumira. This is a new and I like smelling it. Parang nakakatagal at hindi maiwan dahil sa sobrang bango at hindi ganoon ka-bangis ang amoy. Too soft and exact to smell.

"Paulit-ulit kong gagawin ito hangga't hindi ka na makalayo pa, you'll going to search for my touch for any minute. I am sure"

F*ck you Kailer! I still can heard what he said. I can feel what he did earlier. Ang lalaking iyon, makasalanan na. My body are burning hot because of that thoughts.

Paano ako makakatulog ng maayos kung iyon ang bubungad sa akin pagpikit ko pa lamang ng aking mga mata? Mas lalo akong nainis sa kaniya. He made me feel this, he made me more hated him, he made me more feel how his alluring breath passing to my skin.

I need to attach my mind into something. I need to distract myself. I need to make a way to let go and be away upon that sin thoughts.

Kinapa ko ang katabi kong lamesa upang kunin ang tumutunog kong phone. It's maybe Yish. Baka isa sa mga Liores.

"You're longing for my touches right? Because I already miss you, baby. I miss touching you.." paano niya nalaman ang number ko? It must not be Yish who'll gave him my number.

Wala na akong kakilalang may magbibigay sa kaniya ng number ko. Then now he have his guts high to tell me that.

It was not wrong though. I can feel it, his enticing voice made a certain strike to my belly like it is having a party even not in actually.

"Who gave you my number?" Hindi ko pinansin ang mga sinabi niya na talagang tumama sa akin. He really made sure, that clearance make me more feel his touches. And I am now f*cking up because of that slue perception.

"How are you? Did you already ate or just eating?" Hindi rin nito pinansin ang tanong ko bagaman taliwas ang tanong na ibinigay niya.

He is doing what I am doing unfortunately. Bakit ba ganito ang lalaking ito? Hindi ako makapagtanong ng maayos. Hindi rin siya sumasagot ng maayos. I want to dodge those question because the brave me are fading away.

"I still not" Mahina kong sabi habang nakahiga at inaayos ang pagkakahawak ng phone sa kamay ko dahil dumudulas ito.

I'm questing for something. I need to finalize this. I want a clear and an understanding each of us here.

"You want some porridge? What do you want for heavy meal?" He knows how I like eating tinola for evening but he is not here. He eventually asked for my wants for this evening. It's not that gloaming to treat it as a night.

Takipsilim pa at hindi pa ganoon kalalim ang gabi. Hindi ganoon na kalayo ang binyahe namin ni Kuyang driver.

"I will eat later Kailer. You should not call me for this time" mababang tonong sabi ko. I am now sleepy at tumigil na rin kakaisip ang isip ko tungkol sa kanina.

"Why not? It's my responsibility to know what my future's state" No. This will never be your responsibility Kailer because I am just a mere intruder who been attached by your moves and now having an imagination and plan how can I stop it, to get rid of it too.

"I'm still sleepy.." I feel my voice did not join a bit strength to make him know I am still here.

I heard his breath out before he bid bye to me. His melodious tone making me miss that more. It's so rare to hear him be like that. Gusto kong makita ang itsura niya sa tuwing ganoon ang akto niya.