hearts at war , bound by fate.

CRUCIFIXION

LENORA

I feel so weak, I feel like I'm drifting in and out of consciousness, I feel like I can breath then next it's like I'm falling into a pit of darkness and in that pit of darkness I keep hearing a lamenting voice begging to be forgiven , begging for someone to hold on a little longer . I try to open my eyes each time I hear that voice to see who it is but each time I try my eyes feel so heavy and I can't even lift my head up without running short of breaths and then i will myself to be taken back to my greenland of tranquil . I tried again today and I could tell that there was an IV drip on my arm and I could not seem to have clear vision to be able to see far. I stopped trying and let sleep overtake me.

CHRISELDA

I woke up this morning and stood in front of the bathroom mirror as I looked at the exhausted refection of me and I could not recognize myself , I quickly brushed my teeth and went to shower so I could go and attend the 05:30 am prayer at the west wing chapel to go and worship and pray with the other women who also have their children admitted at this hospital . as we walked to the chapel one old woman came out of nowhere and said I have a word for you, I was so surprised because I have not been to church in a month now.

Jeremiah 17:14: Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed; Save me, and I shall be saved, For You are my praise.

MAY the GOD of HOPE, COMFORT, GRACE, MERCY, and LOVE bless your daughter with grace and peace, power and protection, health, and healing, holiness and godliness. May He sustain her as you cast all your cares upon Him. May He fulfill the plans He has for her--plans to prosper her and not to harm her, plans to give her hope and a future.

May the Almighty's perfect love cast out all fear and strengthen and encourage you with the spirit of power, love, and a sound mind. May no evil befall you, nor any plague come near your dwelling. May GOD encamp His angels around you and give His angels charge over you, may he establish you and guard you from the evil one, in the NAME of JESUS, I bind SICKNESS, INFIRMITY, and DISEASE, and I release HEALTH, HEALING, DELIVERANCE, BREAKTHROUGH and PEACE over you .NOW, may you RECEIVE, BELIEVE, and CLAIM this WORK in you PAID IN FULL and ALREADY DONE.GOD SAID IT, SO TRUST HIM, and BELIEVE IT.

In JESUS name, Amen.

And she walked away, she left me feeling like a load was taken off of my shoulders and left me feeling a bit lighter. I knew prayer has a way of making you feel that way, like you have just defeated the Goilath of your time. I continued going to the chapel now with my head held up high for I knew that God has me in his mind.

As the time to take Lenora back home with us approached I worried how she was going to be allowed in the flight back home to a governmental hospital little did I know that God had other plans in store for my child. As we were wheeling her bed out of the Hospital I told myself that I was not going to weep for her today because God has heard my prayers.

Here comes this boy again running looking like headless chicken , for a moment I got to see the redness under his eyes , he looked like he had not had sleep for some time now and I wondered what must be troubling him so much , he had eyes that looked like the sea in its deepest and vast form but they had a certain coldness in them , one could not look at him twice . His aura was very heavy and overwhelming , it had a sense of an overpowering danger upon it and as he stood blocking the way by Lenoras bed begging us not to take her away with us and that her bill is taken care of , I wanted to cry and thank him but I did not understand why he felt the need to do that , was this a way of keeping her sister from going to jail? Was he bribing us? Only God knows but for now I need to do all I can for my daughter to get the best medical attention she can get. I stood and watched as they wheeled her back into a different ward .

Chance : Mom you are honestly letting him take my sister back , do you even trust this man mom? I know its been hard ma but I do not have a good feeling about this man , my stomach ties itself in knots at the thought of him .

Chriselda : God is with us my boy , he will never let Lenora be in danger

I do not know much about the Christian faith so speaking on it would be like pouring water on a broken bucket . Growing up i watched my father pouring libations , burning incense and sage , offering prayers to our ancestors. We'd beat drums and sing songs of praises unto those who lived before us and life would continue after . Those were our tribal ways , our tradition. When I got married off and moved to a whole different country, a whole different world , that's where I got to learn about other people's faiths and leaving them be without judgment. And as years went by and my loveless marriage and its troubles took its toll on me ; my neighbors taught me how to pray . I always knew there was a higher power somewhere " being the creator " I just found it easier letting my ancestors do half the work for me , you know taking my lamentations to God .

Chance : Ma where was this God you speak so highly of when my sister got hit by that lunatic of a girl ?

Chriselda: Chance mind your tongue my boy , do not speak like that where God is involved !

Chance : no mom no! you keep telling us to never question God , what kind of father is never questioned ? you tell us he is a faithful , kind and loving father and a friend , how can I not question my friend ?

Chriselda : my boy if you want to continue being here with your sister you will go kneel down and pray and ask God to forgive you for what you have just uttered with your filthy mouth , now Chance now !

Chance : no Ma I am not about to do that , I am tired of this God who kills yet he is a God ,No !

And as Chance turned his back and walked away I felt a wave of pain and tears wash over me and I could not contain it all , I broke down and cried