CHAPTER 93
999 Words
AUSTIN'S POINT OF VIEW
Living as a child with parents love you and hate you is such a tragic. They love me because of my looks, but hate me becasue I am their son.
I don't really understand the circle of life. Everyone is living their life perfect and normal, while here, my parents? They raised me like a pig, raised me as their source of income.
I was born with this condition on heart, mom said that when I was born, my heart failed that they have to perfect a surgery when I was an infant, a reason why I have this huge scar on my chest.
At first, everything seems fine, but then, this happened.
"Wake up honey, we arrived to our new home."
It was the day we moved here in this stupid messy town.
I was so excited you know, new home, new friends, new neighbours.
But that perfect imagination of my perfect life in the future change when my parents started to act like an i***t. They started to forget that they ahve a son and I don't know the reason why. They acted like they don't want me anymore, they gave me no attention at all and I have no idea.
So they decided to get me nanny, I never wanted a nanny, becasue all I ever wanted is my parents, I want their attention, I want their love. But, they never gave it to me again.
My nanny is the only family that I had, she is the very first woman who loves me again, my darker life had a light after that moment when I was left alone and she their preparing me a noddle which becomes my favorite. And after that, I started to call hre Auntie and I told her that if someone asks who she is and what is ehr connection to me, she will answer that she is my auntie and not a maid, nor a nanny.
Until one day, dad lose the bussiness and we were bankrupt. WE had no money that my mom and dad are always fighting becasue of the money.
Until one day, it changed me.
I woke up sindie a car and there I saw my dad driving me.
I asks him where are we going and he smiled at me, saying that I should sleep again because we are going to a vacation.
And I become happy that time.
So happy that I followed him, until I suddenly woke up when I felt that the car stopped. From a distance, I saw dad wtalking to this man and they look like hey have a deal because they had a hand shake and dad took a briefcase from the other man, it was two briefcase.
I pretended to eb asleep when they wlak back towards the car and dad woke me up.
He said that I'll be saying to his friend for atleast a few days until his business are back. And that he promised to me that he will be visiting me everyday and he will be back.
"i love you Austin, and no matter what you discover, no matter what you will be going through, I love you and I am deeply sorry. For what I did, what we did."
The last words of him to me.
And up until now, I don't know what does that supposed to mean.
That was the day I become who I am today, no, tomorrow. Because I changed, I am trying to change.
They get me out of the car and followed dad's friend inside this house while I am waving my hands towards him for me to say goodbye.
And I thought that satying with him will be much better, but it just ebcome worsen.
He and this four men and two woman are inside a room, they all surrounds me and they force me to take off my cover, my clothes and that if I didn't follow them, obey them, they will kill my family.
So I did follow them. They started recording and there, that time, that moment it happened.
I was raped....
And I was 13.
What a cruel world right?
I just cried and cried and I couldn't move since I have bruises everywhere.
I waitedfoor my dad to come and get me, until I heard the man talking to someone on the phone.
Saying if it is done and if they have the money.
And weeks goes on but no sign of dad are happening, and inside that two weeks, its either I was locked inside a room, or I was being played everyday.
Until police officer came and they arrested everyone.
I Was saved from those bad guy.
He was charged of child abuse, murde,r and invasion of private protperty and illegal drugs and weapons.
Until...
They told me that hte day my dad leaves me with him, that was the day he breathed.
BEcasue his car exploded...
My mom is so depressed that she always takes on me her madness.
UNtil one day, I woke up seeing her the evry first morning, the very first opening eyes of mine and there she was, hanging.
And ther, I was left alone again.
And then there he is
My neighbour.
Chase Carter who befreinded me even in my darkest time.
I jsut wanted to feel loved, wanted to feel that I am important even in just a day or in just a second.
But how?
When I treated people around me, poeple that is surrounding me the way how poeple treated me?
Especially towards JAckson Hall.
Who has the same story like me.
Father elf them, mother suicide.
But atleast...
At least, his life is much ebtter than mine...
Everyhting about my life, is a tragedy.
And here I am , in front of everybody, here I am being in the custody with a case of rape.
So now?
What should I do?
"Order in the court!"
- Writer
