CHAPTER 94
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JACKNSON'S POINT OF VIEW
The rang bell and everyone fix their things for them to get out of the class.
Because the class ended.
"Hey, have you heard about what happened to Ausitn?" I look to my left where Vick is there, fixing his things and putting it inside his bag and I just smile as a response. "You already know isn't it?" He added and I nodded. "I mean, he knida deserves it. He raped people, including you, no wonder why you hated him so much and there is a lot much tense between you two every time you meet each other." He said.
I stop fixing my things and lok at him.
He stops too and his eyes looks confuse, I could tell.
"Is there something wrong about what I said?" He asks. "No... What do you mean deserves it? Did he lost in his trial?" I asks him. "Wait did he lost?" He asks me back. "No, I mena, I don't know. I thought you knew the answer since you said he deserves it." I said and he loks at me like he is trying to asks my personality right now. "No, that is not what I meant. What I meant by that is that he deserves to be in court right now, becasue I am pretty sure he will be going to jail any time soon since the evidence are right there, lying beneath their eyes. Evidence is evidence." ehs aid and he smiled.
Yeah
"But theer is still a question remains in my mind." I look at him before continuing what I am doing earlier before I got interrupted. "It is impossible for Georgina to publish his secrets when she forgot her phone isnde the house. HEr phone was found inside the house, and I know her, she is a b***h but she is God Damn smart. She wouldn't just post it if she did not kill her. Except if she wasn't the one who posted it." He stops and he slowly put his look into me and stared at me.
I look away, tried to avoid his eye contact, but I can't. I know that he is still staring at mee, waiting for my answer so I look at him and I nodded.
"I was confused on what I have been feeling that time. But I wanted him to teach a lesson, so when I saw that it is ready to be posted, I didni't think twice when I click the button where it says post." I answered. "So yes. Georgina wasn't the one who posted his secrets, it was me. It's just I want him to learn a lesson so he wouldn't have a next victim. And, the reason why Georgina is going to kill him, is becasue she was raped by Austin. And I don't want any victims of his to get revange to him." I said and continued my work.
I heard him sigh.
"i mean, you are right. Thatw as brave of you. I just don't understand why are you visiting him every day on the hospital when you two have aconflict with eahc other." HE asks me. "Are you stalking me?" I asks him and he smiled. "No. I have someone who is confined on that hosital and I go there everyday and I am seeing you going into his room." HE answered.
Damn, then why isn't he calling me every time that he sees me?
"it was bussiness. I just asks him if he was alright." I said. "Why was that?"
"It is because I felt guilty." I said. He looks at me and he raises his eyebrow to show his confusion on what he just heard. "You felt guilty? Guilty for what exactly Jackson?" He said and we started walking out of the classroom for us to get out of
here in this campus. "Guilty because.... Because... I don't really knnow why I am guilty." I ansered to him. "Jesus Jackson, aren't you even thinking about yourself? Why are you so good that even though they are bad to you, you keep forgiving them? Is he even feeling guilty that he raped you/ That he tried to destroy you? That he tried to kill you? Aren't you thinking about that?" He said. "He changed alright." I said. "it doesn't matter if he changed personality or not. What matter is that, you are being soft to him just because he becomes a better person! You should never forget those bad things that he did to you." He said. "Well, I moved on. And sometimes you just have to forget the past you know. You don't jave to bring up all thos ebad things he did to you becasue what matters is the good things he is doing ot you. For you."
"Then if you're moved on. Then why did you uploaded that secret of his?"
I shut my mouth after he asks me that question, because he is right. If I moved on, then what am I doing to myself? Why am I bringing myself up to my past?
If I moved on, then why can't I let go the past? Why can't I forget the things that had happened to me 2 years ago?
Then, maybe I moved on, but...
I just feel guilty.
"i felt guilty that I didn't get the justice that I deserves. That... I was the only one who could stand up against him, becasue I know... When you are a victim of rape, especially if you are a man, a boy.... You felt like you have no voice at all. And I don't want to be guilty about that too. I have a lot of guilty that I've been carrying around... I want it ot be enough..." I answered.
I felt his arms on my shoulder like he is trying to comfort me.
"You don't have to worry and felt guilty dude. You just have to show to everyone, that you are not a victim, but you are a hero for them. And if you really want to open up their minds about man raped, then open them... Share your thoughts instead of keeping it all by yourself." HE said and I smiled at him becasue, even though it is just a small advice, it gave me a peace in me, I had a peace in mind.
"By the way, what guilty are you carrying on?" He asks. "I felt guilty becasue of what I did 2 years ago."
My eyes widend and stop as soon as I realized what I just said.
Shit.
Now he knows.
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