Where Your Secrets Hide

SECRET 24

They say that when you're dead, you go to the other side, where problems are less. Where you will live the paradise...

If you are a good person.

But what if you're not? What if you are a sinner?

Then you'll suffer even you're dead.

That is just a rumor.

You see, no one really knows what's waiting for us out there after we died, what will come after our breath will be taken away. No one really knows, the exact things, the exact even when you died. Is there another side? Is there Heaven or Hell? Is there a paradise?

No one knows.

We don't know if where our soul will go.

Just looking to Chase body gives me a question of where he is that time.

But I know... He is with me, not because he wanted to stay with me, but because he is haunting me.

How did I know?

Because while looking to his coffin, he is beside me, looking at his own dead body.

The Funeral

"Let's us all remember Chase great memory with us." The priest said. I don't understand why there is a priest to a funeral, this isn't even a burial, and they even giving their best memories with Chase. Is this how rich people do their funeral? Like they are making it like a burial?

When my mom died, almost no one came, no priest, just some neighbor that probably all wanted is food, and some classmates and of course Henry and his family.

Mom's funeral is not like this.

Ugh, why do I even have to remember that worst day? It's not like it's gonna change.

I am just sitting in the back, listening to those people who are sharing their memories with Chase to us.

I am really sorry Chase, if I have the guts to tell this, I will tell it that I am the reason why Chase is dead, if I didn't start killing him, maybe he won't end up dead.

No, if I am not selfish, maybe he is still alive.

Sitting there, listening to everyone's story makes me sick.

Do you know this guilty feeling? The guilty feeling that wants you dead? That is what I am experiencing that day. All I ever do is to listen to Chase precious memory with everyone, and I ruined it.

Chase is so good, so generous and so kind.

So how could someone murder him?

Well, If I can murder him because of selfishness, maybe the reason wasn't so far at all why the murderer did it to Chase.

I can remember Chase face that day, I can remmeber his smile, his eyes, I can smell his scent, but all I can see is darkness and the blood from Chase...

The scene of the crime.

After everyone shared their memories with Chase, they started praying.

Everyone closes their eyes for respect, except for me.

I don't know why, but I got this feeling that something is wrong.

I look behind me to glance a stare to Henry when I saw a figurative shadow on my perspective view.

A shadow, but I can assure that the shadows has its eye on me. Like it is looking right back at me.

I had a goosebumps after seeing it so I chooses to close my eyes and forget it. I don't want to make any scene right now, I don't want to be embarrassed.

After praying, Chase family thanks everyone from coming to his son funeral and the burial will be held next week.

"We don;;t care how long and how many days or weeks before the truth will come out, but we will make sure, that whoever did this to our son, will pay, no matter what." Chase mother said and look at me.

People may not notice it, but I am sure to the end of my life that she looked at me, like the message she gave is for me. I was looking back at her and she look back at me, that's how I know.

Everyone say their condolences and goodbye, while I am just standing there like a useless man that doesn't know what to do next.

"You coming?" Henry asks and I smiled as an answer. "Can we eat first before we go back home?" I ask him and he just nodded.

We walk out of their house when I saw Austin drove away from their house in an opposite direction to their house.

Why I said it? Because I know where Austin's house is, Austin and Chase are neighbors, and you might think that I am being paranoid or a stalker, but I just have this feeling that something is wrong, so I stop walking.

"I-I have some amends to do Henry, i—Just see you latyer, sorry." I said and immediately went inside my car and followed him.

I am not a spy or a stalker, but if you wanted to know the truth then you have to uncover it. I have to make sure that Austin is the C, that my guts is right, that I am not wrong about him.

Because if he is not, then something's bad is going to happen.

I followed him until his cae stopped at this old abandoned building with a thirdfloor on it.

He went inside so I followed him, and thank God that he still cannot see me or he didn't notice that I followed him.

I saw him went through the rooftop so I followed him there, just to look what is going on or what is happening.

"What do you mean you didn't do it?" I heard him ask. He is on a phone call, talking to somebody. "I told you to kill him! You are just making my day worse! Be thankful that Chase is dead because if he is not, he will totally lost it and he is the one killing him." He said.

What does he mean by killing?

Is he....

Is he really C? I mean, it all make sense, he wants me dead! But who is he talking about? Who is his accomplice? What is he trying to do?

After he hung up the call, I can see that he is very annoyed and that he felt so uncomfortable because of the call he made.

"Damn it." He whispered and that's when I got out of my hiding spot and clap my hands that makes him froze to death.

"Jackson? Are you stalking me?" He asks. "No, I mean, just today I guess." I answered and I stop clapping my hands because there's nothing fun about it. "I knew you are C. Trying to kill me? Or are you trying to kill someone beside Chase? Did you kill him? Did you kill him and blame it on to me?" I shouted at him and he looks like he doesn't have any idea what I am talking about. "What do you mean?" He asks.

I giggled sarcastically and look at him. "Drop the act Austin, I know you did it. I know you kill Chase! SO How dare you!" I shouted and grab his collar and push trough the distance. "How dare ypou to blame it on me! How dare you to threaten me? How dare you to pass your crime to me when you are really the bad guy!" I shouted until we reach the edge of the rooftop.

Austin tried to get out from my hands but I am more stronger than im today, because I am furious, I am mad.

"Jackson! What the hell is wrong with you! Is this your revenge for me?" He asks so I just smiled as an answer. "No, this is just interrogation, because my revenge to you and to your gang is way more bloodier than this!" I said and force him to stand few inches away before he totally fall form the rooftop. "I will save your life if you just confess that you are C! That you are the one whgo is doing all these!" I shouted. "What the f**k Jackosn! I am not C or whoever that is! Are you insane?!" He shouted back at me. "Yes I am! So tell me! Or I will drop you till you fall dead." I warned him but instead of answering me he just spit his disgusting saliva on my face. "That's my answer! If someone's threatening you that yiiu killed Chase, then maybe he is right, maybe you killed Chase." He said. "If you're not C, then who are you trying to kill? Huh?" I shoutred. "That is none of your business!" He shouted. "Yeah, it's none of my business if you die too, right?" I said and grin to him.

But just before I drop him someone called my name and pulled me away form Austin that makes me let go of his collar.

"Ausrtin!" Someone shouted and ran towards Austin to save him from falling down, to prevent him from dying.

It was Detective Portman.

Detective Portman put Austin on the ground and asks if he is alright. "This asshole tried to f*****g kill me!" Austin shouted and point his finger at me. The person who is wrapping his arms to me walk away from me, the one who pulled me away from Austin.

I look up to see who that person is, and to my surprise it is Henry.