Where Your Secrets Hide

CHAPTER 90

"Sir are you alright?" The nurse asks me. "Yeah, I am.. I just had a little dizzy." I said. "We're sorry about the lights. It starts flickering when the system is so low. Just becareful enxt time sir." He said. I bowed and smile.

Thanking him for the care towards me.

After I reached the outside of the room of the person I will be visiting too, I gulp and sigh and opens the door.

There, I could see Austin getting interrogated by the three police officer inside.

"Thank you for your cooperation." One of the police officer said. And when they turned around, they were shocked as they saw me inside. I bowed to them, giving a greetings and respect towards them. They smiled back at me and walks away from Austin. "Thank you for the tip." One of the officer whispered to me.

After the closes the door I look to Austin.

"What was that?" I asks him. "They were asking me iff I could take the court tomorrow for my trial about the raping case." HE honestly answered me. I lok down as I felt guilty again when I know I should not be. "You don't have to apologize since it was not your fault, it is mine." He said when I was going to open my mouth to apologize.

He really changed into new person.

This isn't the Austin I know.

But I am glad that there is this Austin that is existing.

"What has gotten into and you've changed?" I asks him. "I don't know. I guess being in the edge of death felt so changing. If you know the feeling, you will know what it felts like. It is scary to be dead, but also relieving that oyu are. Just liek the pleasure that we man can received. We are scared wwe can impregnant this woman but also relieving that we did that because it felt so much better." He gave me an example that makes me laugh so hard.

He looks at me with his confuse face.

"Something funny?" He asks. "I did not know that you can joke." I said. "Do I look like I am joking? I am serious here Jackson!" He said and we both laughed.

I look at him and there I could see his happy eyes.

This is the first time I saw him smile.

Like evrything just disappeared, all the problem that he is ahving.

I felt like, bad aand good things can take place in one time.

"look Austin, I may not know the reasons why you changed, but I like it more than you are so tough who hates me for no reason." I said. "I hate you but with a reason Jakcosn. I do." He said. "you have this perfect life you culd ever have even though your parents are gone. You have a bestfriend who supported you, you have freedom. You maybe a loner 2 years ago, but your life is the life that I wanted when both of my parents leave me." He said. "And the fact that , the time you become Chasse tutor, my best friend, he could not stop talking about you. Liek evry time we talk, he is always trying to make an excuse to see you, trying to make an excuse for you to be our topic. It's like he is more excited to see you than his own best friend, that is why I hate you so much..." HE explained.

Chase is talking about me all the time?

Then why was the time he died, he looks like he hate me so much?

"That is why when Chase went missing, I look at you everyday and you look like you didn't care about CAhse being missing. When I know for a facct that there is something between you two." He said.

I took a deep sigh and face him.

"Then why did you raped him?" I asks him that makes his eyes larger. I could tell that there is something he doesnt want to talk about, and that he want to keep it as a secret.

When the door opened aggressively.

I look back and there, I saw Sarah Wood look so pale.

She looks at me.

"I'll give you two a time to speak." I said and walk away from the room.

When I got outside the room, the door closes, shut in front of me.

I was shock when it ahpened, but I guess something happened to Sarah that makes ehr react to that.

"What did you do?!" I heard her voice screaming from inside the room.

I don't know whats gotten into me, but I laid myears on the door and start listening.

"They kow the truth Austin! And it is becasue of your idioms!" Sarah Shouted. "Idioms or stupidity?" I heard Austins voice speaks. "Whatever! Everyone knows now that the child that I have, is not frm Cahse, that it was from you! They were even thinking that you raped me, and that raped casues me to have a child with you! Dad will kill me Austin! And if he do that, I will make sure that you will be dead first not me." She said when someone walk passes on the hallway that makes me seperate my ear on the door and walk away from the room like I heard nothing.

So I am right?

The baby that Sarah have, is not from Cahse, but it was from Austin!

And so not all video that was uploaded there, at his secrets... That was not all raped? Sarah's video were there, but that wasn't a raped video, it was a scandal video.

"Jackson?" I look up as I saw Jake CArter walking towards me. I smiled and he did smile too. "I am sorry about earlier."

"I am sorry about earlier."

We both stop as we said the same thing at the same time together.

"Look dude, I should be the one who should be apologize to you. Everything seems so hard to me. Knowing the revelations about my family, knowing that everyone is... I don't know Jake. I felt like you are Chase every time I see you and it makes me uncomfortable..." I said to him. "I know. It is my fault trying to fit it. I like to be Chase you know. Every one hates me, every one hates Jake, that is why I treid to be Chase and... I should be more of myself." He said.

I smiled to him.

"Look, I know you and Chase are together... If you are uncomfortable when you are looking at me, you just have to say it." He said. "Me and your brother aren't together." I answered to him, lied to him.

He smiled and I could see that he is disappointed.

"Well, I hope you two are together, since I felt like you ar emuch better than her girlfriend Sarah who just knows in life is to be famous and cheat." Jake said.

Well, I don't know if Chase wants the same like what JAke wants, but I want that too, but too bad, I killed him. I may not be the person whi literally killed him, ut I know, I am the reaosn why he is dead.

"Where are you going by the way?" I asks him. "Will visit Austin." He answered. "How about you?" He asks back. "Just came in to Austin's room." I answered. "Sarah is there." I added.

I could see that JAke's face changes from a happy expression of his face to being mad and irritated face.

"That b***h really want Ausitn isn't it?" He said. "After he cheated with my brotehr? After she became pregnant with that asshole's baby? How about my brother? Chase is better than Austin, I just didn't get whay she still choses him over Chase." He added.

He looks to me and get my hand out of my pocket on my pants and drag me away form that hallway.

"I don't want to see that b***h face. And I don't want to waste my time." He said and we keep walking. I don't know where he is going to drag me, but I just let him do whatever he wants to do with me. I just let him drag me wherever he wants us to be.

"Where are we going?" I asks him. "Out. Out of this hospital for us to be away from both of them. You hate Austin and I hate Sarah and Austin, we both hate that couple so why should wwe waste time spending time with them when the hours that we spent together is much more fun wasting that something I can waste." He said and I did not get what he was trying to say. We walked inside the elevator and he click the ground floor where we can exit this hospital.

I don't know what's wrong with me, but my heart beats fast, like I am with Chase before.

And I never felt it again, even with Katharina.

I look up since he is more tall few inches from me, not like Cahse who has the same height with me.

I could smell the perfume of his body since the only person in this elevator is just the two of us.

I don't know what is wrong with me, but it is starting for me to thik that this JAke, is Chase. I don't know why, I just knew that when I woke up this morning, all I could ever think and feel about is Chase...

And when we are doing what we are doing yesterday, with me and KAtahrina, all I was thinking about was Chase...

I could see Katharina's face, but I could feel Chase presence.

I don't know what is wrong with me, maybe becasue it's been a year since I did that...

The elevator door opens and we walk away from insde the elevator.

"Where do you want to go?" HE ask. "Anywher, it depends on you. Wherever you are, I'll follow you." I said and he just smiled. "Okay. Then, let's go to mall." HE said and he grab my wrist and he drag me with him.

I don't know what's gotten into him, but I am glad that me and Jake can be close. Because before, even though he smiles, I could still feel the pain and his anger in him. But now, it's like he is free.

I could feel that he is sappy.

I can tell whenever people wants to be with me just by looking at them. I studied psychology before.

In youtube.

Lol.

But no really, my Aunt is a psychology before, but when my mom get pregnant she stops working. It might be weird but I think studying human's behaviour, called as psychology came from my aunt. I mean, the only thing I got from my mom is her facial structure. But nothing when it comes on attitude and self.

We wlak towards his car and opened the door for me and I just smiled.

"I could open the door myself, you don't jvae to be gentlemen."I said, sarcastically. "then hold my hand next time for you to let me know too stop." HE said. "Sure do." I said and went inside his car, the driver's sides seat and I thank him after.

After he got into his car, he staarts driving.

The travel is awkwardly weird since no one is talking, and the only noise isnide the car is from his radio music. The last time I had a car ride with Chase, was when the night he died.

And up until now, I could still remember how I hit his head on the dashboard of the car.

"So tell me Jackson, how could be my brother fall in love to you when he already has a girlfriedn that time?" He break the silence into an awkward question. "I don't know. Maybe he was just play8ng to fool me you know? To play me." I said. "My brother is not like that." HE take a defense towards his brother. "You're not even with him for 3 years. I remember him complaining how strict you are towards him, he even said that he wishes that you should stop giving a nonsense advise to him since you didn't even know what he was dealing with. I don't know. You seem close but not so close at the same time. Is that what it felts like to have a siblings?" I asks him.

I heard him chuckles while driving.

"What? Smething funny about what I just saud?" I asks him. "Nothing funny. But yes, that is what it's like to have a sibling." HE said. "I wish I had a sibling. I mean, I should be having one. But when mom got pregnant and when he gave birth to my supposedly big brother, mom woke up from giving birth to him, with a bad news that my brother is dead." I answered him. "So when that happened, mom and dad decided to make another one, and this time, they had me. But too sad, dad left for another girl and mom took her life."

He looks at me and he took a deep sigh. "I am very sorry to hear about your story." HE said and I just smiled. "Yeah, sure, it is alright. I mean, it is part of my past, and it should be talked about you know? So people will know what makes me who I am today. It will be beneficial for my story and life." I said. "You really are a deep person you know." He said.

After minutes, we just talked about a lot of things, on how was his life after the incident, what his life after he become bedridden for years. What is his life in Thailand, and what is his life today.

After talking, after minutes of talking, we now arrived the mall, hundred miles away from our town, away from thee WestHood towm.

"Were here." HEs aid aand I got out of his car and looked up to see the mall in front of me.

The Starxenia Mall.

Its been a year ever since I've been here in this mall. Actually, I am not a person who always go out, soo mall is not reallly my type, but I guess Jake is since he was in Thailand for how many years? I don't know.

"Come." HE said and we walk towards the entrance of the gate. After our check in, the cold air from the aircon of the mall touchhes my skin that makes it shivers into cold. Damn, I don't even turn the AC in my hotel rooom since it is November and winter is coming up.

Well, there is no really snow here, just a cold blaze of air, but still, the air id so cold that could literally freeze you to death.

"Where do you want to go?" He asks me. "It depends on you, since you are the one who wants to be at the mall. Ive never really been to a mall for almost 2 years or a year now. He last time I went to mall is when Henry is still alive." I said. He looks at me with the face telling me that he could not believe what he just heard.

"Okay, you can judge me, but I am not that type of person who goes out you know? I've never really been outside the town except for when my house was burnt down and I was moved in this luxurious hotel that my girlfriend's family owned." I said. "I won't judge, I won't. I just couldn't believe it you know." He said. "Well you can now." I said and smile.

I took a deep sigh and look around. I could tell that a lot of people are having fun just by going out to the mall. I've never really understand the joy that the mall brings.

"Okay, so ow about we start by making orders for our dinner?" He asks. "That sounds great... If you treat me." I said and laughed. "Okay."

"Wait what? You are going to treat me?" I asks him after hearing his reponse since I couldn't believe what I just heard. "Yes, you heard me right. I mean, I drag you into this, so I have to treat you, but just this once." He said.

I nodded and I smile.

"Fine by me." I answered. "But I hope there will be a next time." I whispered to myself. "What?" He asks and I look aat him. "Nothing. Come one, lets eat." I said and I started walking, leaving him behind me.

We just walk and walk until we found the right restaurant where we want to eat.

We went inside and he went on to the customers line. I told him what I want and told him that I'll be going to find us a seat.

I did not believe that Jake is this kind of person. Everything that Cahse told me about him, is so far away from who he really is. He was describing him as a controlled bother, he wants him to do what Jake wants him to do. HE even said that he maybe a person who always give, but he always complain, like he wasn't a person who has a heart to give without soomeone forcing him.

But look! He is different.

But maybe it is because he lost his brother that makes him changed. Becasue people can change.

Like Austin.

He is a pain in the ass, but now, he changed.

I don't kow why, but maybe becasue of his near death experience, like every bad omen in him was wiped out.

I don't know if I am going to be happy towards him, or not.

I am not really sure about it.

As soon as I found a seat for the both of us, I sat there and wait. I look up to my phone to just kill the time.

I have never received another message from C, the last message that I've got from him was when the bomb exploded from the cake in the hospital. I cannot believe that Georgina is the reason why it exploded. I mean, as far as I heard from Detective POrtman, Sarah keeps telling them that Georgina is the one who gave the cake to her and requested to be in my room since she knows that Sarah is going too.

I don't know if I will be going to feel bad at her, that I blamed her for the cake, but she threatens mme, that if I didn't give her the position that I have in our school, she is going to kill me.

I mean, how could you not make her as a suspect right? And then what? Right after she left the room, the cake exploded.

Until my eyes widened as I rmeember something.

Katharina said to me that she saw the weird kid in our school that has a red hair, she was talking about Vanessa, the girl that I just met earleir at the bathroom.

I did not know that she was a person at the time, I thought she is a ghost trying to warn me that an accident is going to happened.

That is the reason why I knnow that there is a bomb or that somehting is going to happen, when Katharina told me that...

But, she was a person and not a ghost.

Then how could she be there?

Is that a coincidence or...

"Here is your food." I lost my concentration of thinking when Jake put the food tray on the table. He started to sperate the food that he order, and the food that I requested for him to order.

"Thanks." I answered and smile. "What were you thinking?" HE asks and I look at him. "What I was thinking? What do you mean about that?" I asks him. "I just noticed when I went here that you are so out of your mind that you actually werent thinking that I was coming." He said. "Oh that? That was nothing. I was just thinking about KAtharina on how is she, did she already ate? Why did she not told me that is leaving for chicago to take her exam?" I lied.

I mean, I am thinking that, but not was. Becasue obviously, I can't tell him that I can see the ghost of the witch, I mean, Lucy.

Or not?

I don't know, my head is a mess right now.

"You don't have to think about that, because the next thing you will be thinking if the chicken is tasty or not." he said and I just smiled. "I think I don't have to think if the chicken is tasty or not, since chicken is my favorite." I said and started eating the chicken that he ordered for me.

After minutess, we finshed eating our plates and we just started to talk about random stuff.

Like, a usual buddy would do after eating their food.

"Can I ask a question to you Jackson?" He said and I smiled as my way of response. "The first time that we saw each other, why do I felt like you feel threaten or something? Like you saw my face and then you just, you did become distracted." He asks. "You're Jake. And Chase is Chase. I think it would be a normal reaction for a person to see someone, a person who has the same face with their friends who died." I answer to him. "Well, yes, you are right. No doubt for that, it's just, I felt like you are hiding somehting." He said. "Our relationship I guess? I thought you didin't know that. So when I first saw you, every memories that we had together just came back to me, like it is taunting me, haunting me." I lied.

Becasue I am pretty sure that I have something to hide, a reason why I reacted to that.

BEcasue...

"How about you? I felt like you are pushing me to my limits. Like you are trying to get smething out of me, you're waiting for me to fall... I studied psychology in Youtube, Chase taught me that..." I said as for my payback to him.

I don't want for the both of us to fight, I just want a clarifications between the two of us. I wanted to hear his answer, becasue these past few months, I have a feeling that he has a suspicion towards me about his brother, the reason why he is doing that.

He took a deep sigh and smile.

"I thought you killed my brother... I mean... You have the best and lot of reasons to do that... And one time, it convinced me that you did it. When I asks you about your relationship with him, I could see that you tried to avoid answering that question, you even said that you two doesnt have any relationship because I- Chase doesn't want to show it and tell it to everyone. I even asks you if you know something about your death, and I could feel that you become tensed about it... Convincing me that you did it..." He answered. "I learned psychology too... From my therapist and I taught that too Chase, and I guess he taught you the same thing I taught him, showing how much he loves you." He answered.

Love me?

Well, I hope he did, becasue all I could ever feel that time is pleasure... I think the only thing he gaves me is a pleasure and not a love... I don't know...

Maybe becasue that time I don't know what love supposed to mean?

"I hope he did love me. Because I did love him..." I answer. "Was." I added.

I mean, I loved him and it might sound cringey but yes, I did.

At frist, I thought it will all going to end up like there will be no tomorrow for the both of us. Especially when he did that to our first meeting, my first session of tutoring him...