Oppressed wolf

Anna's POV I'm not usual 25 year old woman who have university degree and perfect career. I'm already married and with 2 kids. Edward is my oldest, he just turned 5, Stephanie is only 2 years old, she's completely mommy's girl, but Eddie is very serious and independent little man. I love my kids and I would do anything for them, I have never regretted to have them. I got married very young and it wasn't for love, atleast not from my side. My parents were very religious and they arranged my marriage with pastors son from their church. I was young and very naive, we went for few dates, he was never prince charming, but Robert was polite and very nice in the start. He is older than me, when we married I was only 19 and he was 25. My parents truly believed he was best choice I could make. They died in car crash few weeks after we married and I believe they are watching from there and are truly dissapointed about the way everything went in this comitment. Suddenly my thoughts about past and where I am in my life now was interrupted. "Mommy let's go out, I am so bored here!" Eddie shouted from his room. "Honey, then put your boots and jacket, I will find Stephie's clothes and we can go!". As I was searching for my daughters boots and jacket, Edward came out of their room with his sister next to him. And of course he was dressed and he already has put his sisters clothes on too. "What a big boy and best brother you are, sweetie!". Eddie blushed and I know he always feels proud about things he can do to help me. We went to park, kids always love it there, when we were feeding ducks, Stephanie tripped on the tree roods and fell in pond. I was in shock for a seconds, but thank God there was man nearby who reacted really fast and got my daughter out of cold water. His speed was almost inhuman. "Oh my, thank you very much, sir, I don't know how I could pay you back ever, you are our hero!" I said to young man and meant every word. "No need to do that, I hope this little sweety won't catch colds and my name is Colton, by the way." Guy was build really muscular, he is good looking, I won't lie, I bet he could break few hearts on the way home. "Hey, let me buy you a coffee, that's least we can do for your help. I'm Anna, this big boy is Edward and my daughter's name is Stephanie." "Oohh, okay, it would be good to drink something warm. And nice to meet you all." We went to nearby coffee shop, I got myself Latte, Colton took Espresso and kids drank hot chocolate. It was nice to talk with Colton, I somehow felt safe with him. We said our goodbyes and both of us agreed that hopefully next time we will meet under better circumstances. We got home at 6 and it was almost same time as my husband Robert would be home from work. I started to cook really fast, making dinner so he doesn't got mad again. I made spaghetti bolognese, kids favorite and waited for Robert. Kids ate it in no time and both went to get ready for bed. It was already 9 in the evening and still no sign from him. I started to got worried. Ohh but it wasn't because I would be worried he got in accident or someone did something bad to him, no, it's because it probably means he is drinking again and when he drinks it means he gets crazy aggresive and, yes, goes to other women. I put kids to sleep at 10pm, so they don' t hear Roberts shouting when he finally will come home drunk and smelling like other woman. I'm not jealous, I just don't want him near me as I'm afraid catching something from him. If in the start, when we had s*x, I wasn't feeling disgusting, just used. Cause he never really care do I feel good or actually feel something other than pain. So now I can't look at him, I want to puke. I know my life sounds horrible. And actually it is, only good thing in my life now, is my kids. Robert came home in midnight, I was sleeping on matress in kids room cause I knew he would try to take me without my consent. Been there, done that. I heard as he loudly fell in bed and started to snore. Good. ######sorry for some grammar and spelling mistakes this story will contain, english isn't my native and it's been some time I have wrote or speak in English. I just really wanted to write it as it's been in my head for a long time now. I hope you will enjoy reading it as much as I enjoy writting it! Tell me what you think in comments!!!######