BadBoy Meets Badgirl

Chapter 16: Broken Fixed

Randy's POV

That bastard! Balak pa yatang sirain ang ganda ng hapon ko. It's better that he walks out.

Cassandra is only mine! Sana gets na niya 'yon!!

"Uy thank you sa pagkain ha. May allowance ka pa ba para bukas?" Naputol ang iniisip ko nang marinig ko ang tanong niya. Naglalakad kami at malapit na kami sa bahay nila.

"Ano ka ba? Sabado bukas hindi ba? Wala naman tayong pasok so I don't need to spend money," paliwanag ko sa kaniya.

Nagkamot siya ng batok. "Ay oo nga pala no? Ihh nagiging makakalimutin na rin yata ako," sabay tawa.

Lumiliit talaga ang mga mata niya kapag tumatawa. I like it I like her eyes, very expressive. Ang tawa niya napaka-genuine lang. Ang gaan niya lang talaga kasama which is why I want to be with her.

"Rands, dito na ako. Mag-iingat ka ha," paalam niya sa akin. " Doon ka na sa kabilang kalsada baka makita ka pa ni Fads at kung ano na naman ang sabihin niya," sabay turo sa kabila.

Tumango lang ako. "Ikaw din, ingat ka."

Hindi ko na narinig ang sagot niya kaya pumakabilang kalsada na'ko. Gaya ng tipikal na scenario kapag malapit na siya sa barbecuehan nila, nagmamano siya sa tatay niya at aagawin niya ang pamaypay nito pero babawiin din sa kaniya saka siya itutulak papasok sa bahay nila para magbihis.

I head home after seeing her enter their door.

"Oh, you're here!" I am a bit shock seeing my father carefully putting his stuff sa kaniyang maleta. I close the door, saka nagtanong. "W-where are you going?" .

He didn't even try to look at me directly while answering," I am going to have an out of town, you know work."

"Liar!" I said back in my mind. For all I know hindi trabaho ang dahilan ng pag-alis niya.

"How about Mom?" I asked which makes him a bit conscious. He pause what he's doing saka ako tinitigan.

His stare feels like a thrown dagger, it seems like it wasn't my father's. So I immediately looked away.

"What do you mean pa'no siya?" He laugh sarcastically. "She'll be fine without me. Kilala mo naman ang mama mo, she is fine independent woman. Right?"

I didn'r respond.

"Wala na nga akong papel sa bahay na'to eh dahil kung makasumbat siya she's the father and mother," pagpapatuloy niya.

What I didn't expect that our conversation will lit a burning hatred.

"Bakit masakit bang tanggapin ang katotohanan ha, Dreyson?" Both of was shocked as we heard Mom's response. She throw her working bag on the sofa.

M-ma," I stutter as I can see anger in her eyes.

"Oh stop your drama, Dreyson! Totoo naman kasi na ako na ang ama at ina sa anak natin. Samantalang ikaw, you didn't have the balls to take care of our son! Ang alam mo lang maglasing at mambabae, diba!"

"Heto na naman tayo," tila naririnding iwas ni Papa.

Mom hissed. "Totoo naman kasi. Bakit masakit ba na lunukin ang lahat ng pinaggagawa mo? Truth hurts aren't they? But, I think it wouldn't dare cut you a little sa kapal ba naman ng mukha mo?!"

"Tumigil ka na!" he shouted. Siguro napuno na rin siya. "Sige, total para sa'yo ikaw na ang magaling at marunong sa lahat. Ikaw na ang malinis at huwaran! Pero huwag mo naman akong maliitin sa harap ng anak natin!"

My mom smirked for a while. "Wow! Kailan ka pa tinubuan ng hiya ha! Hindi ba matagal mo na ring ginagago ang pamilyang 'to?! Saan nanggagaling 'yang inaasta mo?"

"I said stop it! Before I lost all my respect out of me! Randy pumasok ka na ng kwarto!" utos ni Papa. I can see him being uncomortable while I hear everything. Every nasty insult mom throws at him.

As I was about to step my foot, my mom stop me. "No! Dito ka lang! Mas mabuti nga na marinig mo ang lahat with your own ears! How I hate your disgusting father! Na walang ibang ginawa kung hindi ay tarantaduhin ako while working my ass off just to support you and your f**king school!" .

Just like that, tears run down straight to my checks which makes my vision blurr even when I had my glassses on.

The pain I feel makes me deaf. Maybe that is me blocking all the noise because I''ve heard enough. A sound of silence like a siren echoed in my head and it cutting deep my ears as it grows longer and longer so I shouted to stop it.

"Enough! Tama na!" I fell in the floor with bended knees. "W-will you stop! Tama na!"

"A-anak, a-are you okay?" I gazed at the arm who catches me, it is my father. Then again my eyes feels heavy.

"I-i am sorry. Okay ka lang ba? May masakit ba sa'yo?" He ask worriedly.

"Here," I pointed my chest. "There's no other pain that can make me weak, other than seeing you into each other's tail always, fighting and killing each other with unfiltered words. No need to keep it from me. I can hear everything. Lahat ng mga hinanakit at galit niyo sa isa't-isa dinig ko. But, how about me? When are you going to hear my scream?"

"W-what do you mean?" Its mom.

"Everytime I woke up, I am always alone. I do my things on my own, carry my burden on my own. I don't want to bother either of you k-kasi baka maging pabigat ako sa kaniya-kaniya niyong mundo. Am I not part of it?" Alas! Tears raced through as they can't also take the heavy weight anymore. "I have a mom and a dad who supports me as you say, a figure I could say, an illusion sometimes. You know what's funny? We are a complete family in the eyes of everyone but it feels like a we are a complete broken puzzle where I couldn't find the other pieces so I couldn't put them all together. You have a son, not a piece of wooden toy, I have feelings, I am not numb. I can feel all your hatred and anger. Pakiramdam ko kasalanan ko ang lahat. Kasi kung wala naman ako, hindi niyo naman pipiliting magkita at magsama sa iisang bahay hindi ba?"

I carefully put myself together. Tumayo na rin si Papa.

I went into my room, grab some clothes and put it in my backpack. "If this will make both of you at peace, then I'll leave."

As I head to the door with a heavy heart, I still believe that its the best thing to do. Para sa ikaayos ng lahat.

I turn the knob and that's when I feel someone hugged my back.

"Anak, mali ka," Mom's voice cracked then suddenly burst out. "I-it's my fault. Maybe I've gone t-too far always para masaktan ka nang ganiyan. I got too self centered na hindii ko naisip na nasasaktan na pala kita. I am rrally sorry. Please, don't leave. Anak parin kita. Don't leave us. I promise Mama will always check on you, things will be different, we will fix this. Me and your Papa. Alright? J-just don't leave."

I said there will be no pain compared to how I see them fighting each other pero mas masakit pala ang marinig na nagmamakaawa ang sarili mong ina.

Its like a thousand dagger stabbed in my innocent soul.

"Your mom is right. I-i also had a mistake, son. Give us time to make it up to you. We promise to be better parents. Just don't leave. Kung may mabuti man ngayon sa pagsasama namin ng Mama mo, that is you. You are never a burden to us, maybe we are just lost. So, I hope you can forgive us."

I turned back to them. I can feel their sincerity. I can see them in those eyes. Walang anak ang gustong masira ang kaniyang pamilya. I always dream of seeing them love each other again.

"You know, I can remember, Ma used to say that I have to grow like you Pa because you are full of determination, a handsome guy like you who she falls a thousand times."

A little smile appeared on my father's lips.

"And Pa, diba sabi mo there is no other fairest than Mama? She is our modern Snow white? She's still the fairest hindi ba?"

Tumango siya.

"I know we can't bring back time, pero siguro kaya naman nating ayusin ang lahat ngayon and make up with the time lost for this family?"

Lumapit sa amin si Papa saka kami niyakap na dalawa.

"I'm sorry to both of you. I promise to make it up to you this time."

Forgiveness? Mahirap nga sigurong gawin iyon in just a snap. But, I know time will heal all of us. Lalo na si Mama. Darating ang araw na babalik din ang parents na kilala ko. The way they used to before. I'll wait until that day happen.

"Morning, I'll drive you to school." I didn't answer for like couple of sec. It's my dad in the morning, holding his keys wearing his working clothers.

Siguro nanibago lang ako.

"Saturday po, Pa. Tsaka may kasama po kasi akong naglalakad papuntang school every weekdays."

He give me a sad looking face. Gusto niya sigurong bumawi talaga.

"But I'll see you tonight with Mama. Ingat po sa trabaho."

Gumaan naman ang mukha niya. "Yes sure. See you tonight, son."