The Sweet Kind of Wrong

CHAPTER 20

JANE

I come back later the same Sunday with Erika, it is already full with guests, most of which are Adrian's friends from his school. We put the things we bought for him in their rightful places and after we're done, we make our way upstairs to get changed then join others in the swimming pool. My mind is still on mission processing things over, I don't know what I'm going to do with the two guys in my life. I like Nathan, he's great, really great but then at the same time there's Luke whom I am head over hills in love with but he can't be mine, I can't be his. Why? We're family, we're a freaking family. It's frustrating and I'm tired of it, I'm tired of feeling this way. He loves me, he confessed it himself but I couldnt say it back to him. Just thinking about this thing of ours not being able to be together makes me sick to my stomach. This is not fair, not fair at all. In fact life is not fair.

"Did you invite Nathan?" Erika asks.

"Yeah, I did but he didn't reply." I stand in front of the mirror finger combing my hair. "So I'm guessing he's not coming. I don't know." I continue, staring intensely at the person in the mirror, in front of my eyes. I feel so out of place. I don't know the person I'm looking at, I am not the Jane I used to be. I don't know who I am anymore. When did I become this human being? I can't begin to describe how I look, how I'm feeling. I'm just lost. The reflection that I see does not look like me, not even a little bit. What happened to Jane? Where is she? I'm looking for her but I can't find her.

I never knew not being single was so devastating. If someone had told me, I wouldn't have believed them.

"So you just let him be?" I shake my head and look at Erika.

"What?" I lean back on the mirror stand.

"Are you okay, Jane?"

"Yes I'm fine. Can we go now?" I head to the door and leave my room. Walking through the corridor, Erika follows behind me. I stop in my tracks when I see Luke coming towards me in nothing but shorts and obviously naked on top.

Of course he always has to be freaking sexy, such a tease. My heart races at the sight, he's perfect. His silk hair is messy and not in place, few strands falling on his forehead. Damn... He removes his eyes from his phone and looks up and stops. His sparkling blue eyes staring at me. So much emotion swells through my body and suddenly my breath hitches, so much heat burn through my cheeks. The effect this guy has on me.

"Jane, come on." Erika pulls my arm and we continue walking down the corridor and the staircase, making our way to the backdoor where the others are.

"The love of my life. How I missed you." Louis teases, engulfing me into his embrace and lifting me off the ground. He's the whole vibe, I enjoy his company so much, he's so carefree.

"I know, I know I missed you too." I reply, laughing. I pour a drink for myself and Erika and we all join others near the swimming pool, music playing on loud volume. I see Adrian with all his friends in the pool, he's having fun and I find myself smiling. Adrian is sweet and adorable, I love him so much. Just then I see Nathan and Amanda coming towards us, he looks normal like nothing happened, he's even laughing with Amanda. I don't know how to start talking to him, I don't even know what to say. I'm embarrassed to face him after the other night.

"There's your boyfriend. Maybe it's time you talked to him. Apologize maybe?" Erika tells me.

"What am I going to say?"

"Just talk to him." She pushes me towards Nathan. It takes me all the strength I have to drag my feet and make my way to Nathan. While I approach him, he looks my way and forces a smile. Reaching him, I return a genuine plus guilty smile.

"Hi!" I greet nervously.

"Hey!"

"Sooo..." We both say at the same time then we laugh.

"You go first." He says.

"I go first? Okay umm-" I exhale, my heart pumping so loud in my chest. "Can we...can we talk inside, please?" He nods and I lead the way back inside while he follows behind. We reach the kitchen, I turn and look at him, catching him staring at my body. Of course, I'm wearing a two piece bikini.

"You look nice."

"Thanks." I start. I don't know why I feel nervous but I am nervous. "I just wanted to apologize for what I did the other night. I don't know what came over me, I'm really not like that. I'm so sorry."

Lies lies lies. They keep on coming.

I immediately rub the thought off my mind. I will never tell Nathan about Luke and I, he can never find out about us. I won't ever make that mistake.

"You really surprised me. You were fine and all of a sudden you asked me to sleep with you. I'm not that kind of guy, Jane." He mutters.

"I know. I know and that's why I'm saying sorry because I realized I was wrong. It will never happen again, I promise you."

"It's okay, I guess."

"Can we start over?" I ask him.

"Why not?" He replies hugging me and I hug him back just as tight. Not to be less caring or anything but I don't feel anything from his hug, there's no deep connection, no chemistry, it's just a dull hug with no emotions, it's like we're just distant friends. Luke enters the kitchen and stops on his tracks when he sees me holding Nathan. He gives me the most murderous look I've ever seen before and I'm pretty sure I'll be in trouble tonight. He stands there for a second then disappears to wherever he came from. Lord give me strength for tonight. Nathan breaks free, cupping my face in his palms and out of the blue he kisses me so intensely and passionately that I find myself responding. I know I said there was no emotions in our hug but damn this guy kisses so good, nothing like Luke but still good. "Let's go back to the others, shall we?" He tells me.

"Okay." He holds my hand and then we leave the living room, going back outside to the others.

"Hey guys!" Amanda starts. "Truth or Dare?" She continues.

"I love that game, let's play it." Nathan grins happily.

Are we really doing this?

"Call the others and then we'll start."

"What's up, fellas?" Luke asks, popping out of nowhere.

"Truth or Dare." Erika replies. We all sit down, making a circle and we all wait for the person to start the game.

"So Erika, truth or dare?" Amanda asks.

"Truth..."

"Your firsk kiss?"

"Well..." Erika starts. "Three years ago, 9th grade, it was my birthday and that was Michael, my boyfriend." She adds.

"Aaawww." We all coo.

"That's so cute, babe." I smile widely at her.

"Luke, Truth or Dare?" Amanda asks Luke.

"Umm..." He glances at me for a second and I immediately look away from him. "Truth."

"Craziest s*x position you've ever done?"

"Girl on top in the balcony." I choke on my drink and end up coughing nonstop.

"Are you okay?" Nathan asks.

"Y-yes, I'm fine. I just...carry on."

"Okay, thank you, Jane. Girl on top, Luke. Wow! That's..."

"It was amazing, she was actually good." I find myself blush at his statement. So he loved it, he loved the way I took him deep in me, so deep I couldn't think of anything other thing but him, us. We are such a mess, him and I.

"Truth or dare, Jane?" Marco, one of Luke's friends asks me.

"Truth."

"Virgin breaker?"

"Umm." I start and steal a glance at Luke for a second then. "I do dare."

"Dare." The others mumble.

"I dare you to make out with Luke." Marco continues and I cough again then look around.

"I'm sorry but that won't do. Luke's my brother and it's highly inappropriate so..."

"Come on, just do it, we know he's your brother so what's the fuss?" Amanda cuts in. I swallow hard, looking at Amanda. "Go on." She says. Oh my God! This is not happening, not with Nathan here.

"It's just a game." Louis coos. Luke comes to my side and hovers over me, his scent filling my nostrils, my cheeks are burning. I'm sure I've turned red as a tomato. Having him so close to me does things to me, my body, my heart, my mind, my soul. He's in control, he's the predator and I'm just prey. I will never resist this guy no matter how hard I try. The more we stare at each other, the more I want him, all of him, his body on me, his lips on mine, his c**k inside me, so deep that I lose my whole being to him. He drives me crazy. I avert my eyes from his eyes to his pink lips. Without thinking I lean in and give him a short, sensual kiss then I back away. He stares at me, his eyes turning dark blue and I know exactly what he's thinking. He will surely get me tonight.

"Hope you guys are happy." He says then returns to his seat. I let out a sigh I hadn't noticed I was holding, all of the sudden I'm breathless. What is this guy doing to me? What power does he have on me? I'm always powerless when it comes to him. Our short kiss was enough to cause some reactions, building liquids between my thighs and I had to press them together. Oh my gawd!

The party goes on and on, with everyone having fun, swimming, others playing games, others drinking and dancing. The birthday is happy and that's all I wanted, for Adrian to enjoy his special day and he is.

After the party, our friends leave, I go back inside the kitchen. I start cleaning, putting things in dustbins and putting everything else in their rightful places. After cleaning, I head to my room to take a quick shower, minutes later, I return to my room, lotioning and wearing my silky night dress, tying my hair into a messy ponytail. Then I take my phone, dialing Nathan's number. I press the call button and call him. He picks up at the third ring.

"Jane, hey!"

"Hey Nate! Do you have time? Can we talk?" I ask.

"Sure, what's up?"

"It's about the game. I-"

"Don't worry about it, Jane. It was just a game right?" He asks.

"Er yeah, yeah, it was. I just... I didn't mean to do it. I'm sorry." I blurt out.

"Like I said, it's okay."

"Okay."

"You want to go out tomorrow?" He asks.

"Oh! Okay, where are we going?"

"It's a surprise."

"I like surprises." I giggle.

"It's a date. Goodnight Jane."

"Goodnight, Nathan." I hang up and stare at my phone. I don't know how I feel about Nathan but I don't want to lose whatever we have even though there's no chemistry. Then there's Luke I never want to lose but there's this obstacle standing in front of us. What do I do? I search in my backpack for a book to read, one my favorites of all times, Spitfire in love. I love it.

Just then Luke enters my room, shirtless as usual. Always finding a way to tempt me and he's always winning.

"Have you seen my charger?" He asks, he just got out of shower, his black hair is still wet, I so want to run my fingers though it. It stagers me everytime I'm with this guy, I always want to do something naughty to him, with him.

"Luke, why don't you tell me the real reason why you're here?" I lie on my back, putting my book on my chest and stare at him.

"What are you reading?" He asks.

"Spitfire in love."

"Isabel Ronin. You like romance novels." He mutters, hovering over me, undoing my ponytail. Of course, he always does that.

"So much."

"Is it?" He wets his lower lip. "You like this kind of romance?" He slides his hand between my thighs, guiding his fingers on my panties. I immediately sit up.

"Luke sto..." I lie back down as soon as he indulges his finger in my hole, circling inside me. I squirm as he movies his finger in and out of me.

"Why are you fighting this, Jane?" He asks as he slides his other hand in my night dress, making its way to my breasts to massage them. "Why Janet? Answer me." I can't say anything right now, he's got me exactly where he wants me. My hands grabs a handful of my sheets as he adds another finger inside me, I arch my back and shudder, moaning and biting my bottom lip. I'm in over my little world right now and there's nowhere I'd rather be than here.

* * *

LUKE

"Luke." That's all she manages to say, moaning my name just the way I like it. I know she's asking more and I intend on giving her more than any other guy could ever give her, more than Nathan could ever give her. She belongs to me, I am hers and that's how it's going to stay. I will claim her like never before.

"Please Luke." She moans out softly, her moans are sweet music to my ears.

"I didn't hear you, Jane." She's lost control.

"I-I want you." She whispers, I squeeze her breasts, pinching her n*****s, she gasps and start trembling. "Luke please..."

"Please what, Janet? Beg for what you want." I move my fingers out of her and watch her turn furious with frustration and lust, I bring my fingers to my mouth and suck them clean. She watches me and bites her lip. She brings her hand down her c**t and I catch her before she touches herself. I hold both her hands over her head and hover over her body. "You want me to f**k you?" I thrust my fingers back inside her in force and she gasps. "Be honest, for once. The only person you want inside your tight walls, f*****g you hard and making love to you is me not Nathan." I growl in her ear, taking her earlobe in between my teeth and she moans out loud. Thank God the parents aren't here tonight.

"I'm closer..." She says and I move my fingers out, she groans. "Don't stop!"

"Did you enjoy it?"

"Luke please."

"Did you enjoy it, Janet?" I growl

"What?"

"Your kiss with Nathan? Does he kiss you like I do?" I thrust my fingers inside.

"Oh God!"

"Answer me, Janet? Does he make you feel good like I do? Does he know you like I do?" I take her n****e in my teeth and she cries out. Freeing her hands to touch me but I hold them back over her head again. "Answer me."

"Oh my God! No!" She replies, grinding her hips harder on my fingers.

"Whom do you want between your legs, inside your tight walls? Me or him?"

"Ahhh." She heaves harder.

"Tell me."

"You, Luke, you... I want you, only you." She replies. I let go of her her hands and she immediately let her fingers fumble with my boxers and kicks them down my legs, letting my hard throbbing member out. "I want you to f**k me hard..." She kisses me. "...and hard and senseless." She wraps her legs around me tight. With one thrust I enter her, finding that spot that drives her crazy and she cries out. I start my moving slowly then pick up my pace, while letting my lips on hers, our hands intertwined together.

"Oh Luke, yes."

"You feel so good, Janet."

We're wild, disinhibited, writhing, clinging to each other desperately like we'll never let each other go. Pulling and pushing, grasping and whimpering. When she reaches her blinding, notorious peak, her walls spasm and finally letting go.

With one swift move, I flip her around, getting her on fours and thrust into her and hold her hips, pumping her like my life depends on it. I pick up my pace, thrusting in too deep so that I can hit her at that angle that has her mewling and arching her back and clawing into the bedsheets. "Harder Luke, ohh!"

I plant wet kisses down her lower back and groan, fingers digging into her hips as I slide out and pound back in, her body accepting me. She raises her body and rests her head back on my shoulder. "You like it, don't you?" I bury my face in her neck, biting her skin. "You like it when I'm rough with you?"

"Yes." She lets the word escape her lip.

"Whom do you belong to?"

"Ahhh! ahhh!"

"Whom do you belong to, Janet?" I hit hard on the right spot, holding her in place, my arm wrapped around her.

"You, I belong to you, Luke."

"You're mine, Jane."

"I'm yours."

I withdraw from her and sit down she sits on my laps straddling me, then taking me deep inside her. She rides me like a pro that she is.

"Faster, Sugarplum, faster." I groan as she kisses me with such fury and passion. When I reach my high, I twitch inside her. "Janet fuck..."

"Let's do it together, Luke." She mutters riding me faster and faster like a crazy person. I would've never thought that the shy Jane would be this sexually active. She drives me insane each time we're intimate. When I met her, I never thought she'd be like this.

Her walls clench around my shaft over and over and she cries out my name when we both release our c****x, milking every last drop of our spills inside her. She bites my shoulder, trembling while I hold her tighter, both of us panting out, waiting for release to end. She looks down at me, our tired breaths fanning together. Her forehead falls on mine and we both close our eyes, savoring the moment, breathing the same air.

When we finally calm down, I kiss her so slowly and so sensually, sweeping my tongue to invade her mouth, she gladly grants me that access. She moans against my lips, her fingers running through my hair. When I pull back, I take her lip in my teeth, making her groan.

"That was amazing." I comment, she nods blushing. I remove hair from her face, holding her cheeks in my palms. She puts her hands over mine, staring down at me with glimmer in her green eyes.

"I'm scared, Luke." She starts. I know she's referring to our situation and Nathan in the process. "I'm scared I'll hurt everyone in my life...including you." She adds.

"Hey! Relax, I got you. I promise." I assure her, kissing her. "I'm here." I continue. She nods, smiling through her eyes, she has bedrooms eyes, I've never noticed that before. She wraps her arms around so tight. I bury my face in the crook of her neck, holding her as tight. When we break apart, she gets off my laps and I pull her against me, pull the covers over our bodies and then I wrap arms around her. I love this girl so very much, it hurts and I am not letting her go. Nathan will have to understand, I won't lose her to him, no matter what. For a few moments, we stay like that, our bodies in contact, legs entangled and our heart beating against each other, for each other. Then she raises her head and looks down at me, her face red from blushing. She lets her forehead touch mine, our noses brushing, breathing the same air. Thinking, feeling and processing. How could I ever describe our relationship?

"You really gave it to me tonight." She mutters, chuckling.

"I had to remind you that you're mine of which you are."

"Luke."

"Don't say it. Let's not ruin this moment, please. I want to be here with you." I tell her and she nods, grinning at me. "What?" I ask.

"I wanna try something."

"What's that?"

"Just let me." With that she kisses me so deep then she pulls away and moves to my neck then to my chest kissing the skin there. Her hands slide down to my hips. Oh I think I know where this is headed. As she moved down, she takes hold of my throbbing member and starts stroking with her fingers, then she looks at me.

"You don't have to." I tell her.

"I want to." She licks the tip of my d**k and that almost made me c*m.

"Fuck."

She keeps licking while stroking me with her fingers, it feels so f*****g good, I struggle to keep my eyes open. She takes me whole in her mouth and starts blowing. She's good.

* * *

JANE

I take him whole in my mouth and start blowing him up and down. I don't know where I got the courage from but I just felt like giving him a taste of his own medicine. I was never the girl who found a b*****b nice or anything but now that I'm doing it, it feels f*****g good. I start with slow paces, he raises his head to look down at me and find me staring at him. I accelerate my pace, blowing him, I can't take him whole because he's gifted so my fingers are helping as well. He takes a handful of my hair and guides me as he also moves beneath me, reaching the back of my throat, I try not to gag as I feel tears streaming below my eyes.

"Janet, f**k yes." He keeps thrusting in my mouth, I gag and keep blowing him nonstop. He twitches inside me and I feel him grow bigger as he slows down and when I least expect it, he shoots his load in my mouth and I swallow. He rests his head back as I lick him clean then I lie next to him, waiting for him to recover. After a few moments he turns to look at me and smile widely.

"That was f*****g amazing." He says.

"Was it now?"

"Oh yes." He leans in to kiss me, I immediately give in while he takes my leg and wrap it around his hips. His member pokes the in between of my thighs, my wetness increases almost fast and with one slow pace, he enters me, I moan into his mouth. He furthers inches in me until he finds my dead end.

"Ohh!" I moan.

He moves slowly but surely reaching my g-spot, making me drool. We cling to each other as he rocks slowly in and out. With every thrust, every rolling grind of his hips into me, he kisses me and I kiss him back, we hold each other tight. We watch each other, stare in each other's eyes as he presses himself deep into me. I watch the rippling of his muscles with every deep, heavy movements we make together. Our groans and moans of pleasure fill my bedroom as he thrust into me and when we reach our high, we stumble on the edge of a massive cliff. We moan each other's names against each other's lips, breathing into each other. He makes loves to me to the course of hours before we fall asleep in each other's tangle of arms, holding each other tight.