Travis kept on saying that I will be safe with him and that he won’t let anything happen to me. But what he doesn’t know is that I am already damaged goods. The rouges that had me put me through so much torture; there were points I couldn’t walk because they cut my feet with silver. At one point they were infected so badly that I was deathly sick. I actually don’t remember how I survived it because they did not give me any medicine. “Hey Jo, it seemed like you went to a different place again. Please come back with me.” I shake my head and agree to go back with him and start to walk back to where I was at.
I haven’t had a dream like that in a couple days and I hate them because they feel so real. It is like I am getting punished all over again.. I mean why do I have to feel the pain all over again.
Travis:
Hey Jo, I know that you have been through a bunch but just try to see that I am not here to hurt you. I have no clue what you have been through and probably will not be able to comprehend what you have been through. But I want you to know no matter what you have been through you are the best thing that has happened to me. I also want to let you know that I am here for you whenever you need to talk. If you don't want to talk to me I can get you a therapist.
He wants me to talk someone I have no clue who they are. I do not trust people and he wants me to talk to someone that I have no clue who they are. "Um Travis thanks but no thanks." Jo, you need to talk to someone please. What happened here tonight is not normal. I mean it seems like you didn't even know where you were at.