A Life Worth Saving

Chapter 11: Dream State

No please, not this again.. I cannot handle it, you haven’t fed me in a couple weeks. They punched me in the face and pushed me down on the floor. One guy I think named Devin was holding me down while Caleb started to pull my clothes off. I tried to get away from them but they were too strong. Devin took the silver blade and cut my arms, the inside of my thighs and stab my stomach; I was bleeding everywhere and started to feel light headed. Caleb started to take his pants and underwear down… NO oh god no please no I thought to myself. The next thing I know I was in a room with some guy. 

I started to scream for the first time in a long time. I still couldn’t figure out who this guy was and what he wanted with me. I cannot handle this again; I decided instead of staying cowardly in the corner of the bed that I was going to make a run for it. I know that I probably won’t make it long but at least I will give myself a chance to get away and not have him hurt me. 

I heard him say something and get closer to me but I did not care what he was saying I needed to get away. I got up and ran, the door was open which was surprising to me. Usually they have the door locked just in case I did try to run. I heard him following which does not surprise me at all. Please let me get away and not hurt me.. 

He grabbed part of my arm and I felt sparks and then I started to remember who he was and that he would not hurt me, well at least he hasn’t hurt me yet. I ran into his arms and broke down; I know it sounds crazy but he is the only person that has touched me that hasn’t hurt me and I just need to feel the touch before I forget what I am doing and scare myself by touching him. 

Travis: 

She ran out of the room and from me like she did not understand what was going on. I followed her of course and caught up to her pretty fast since she is malnourished. When I grabbed her arm she looked at me like she actually just recognized who I am. Then what happened next really surprised me. She ran into my arms and started to hug me while she was crying. I was not ready for her to run into my arms. It felt so nice being able to hold  her for the first time but it did not last long enough; right as I was about to wrap my arms around her she pulled away crying still. 

Jo please, I know that you are scared and you do not understand what is going on at the moment but please come back with me. Remember what we talked about in the room, I would never hurt you, that you mean the world to me! Please Jo really think about what you are doing and where you would go. I will make sure no one gets to you and that you will get better and be able to do things that you would like to do when you are completely healthy. She still hasn’t even looked at me since she let go of me. Jo please look at me, I promise that you are not in trouble for anything. I know that you are scared, whatever you were dreaming of will never happen again.