Prologue
“Can‘t You See Ree?”
“See What?”sabi ko nang pagalit habang may luha ang mga mata ko
“That I don’t Love you anymore! I am tired of constantly understanding you! “ He said
“How about me? Did you ever ask me if I am okay? Did you ever ask me if how I am doing? Did you ever support me for all my needs? How could you be so selfish? And say you are tired. My voice slowly cracked and couldn’t imagine he just said that.
“When you went out to go to Macy when it was our anniversary, you never heard a thing from me, you just said she needs me more that you do! I’m your Girlfriend how could you say that to me? One call from her and you ran like a mad man just to save her from dying, did you ever ask me if I am okay? If I need you?” I said and he was only silent
“I went to the doctor and he said I am suffering from Ovarian Cyst, Are you there? When I called you? You just said I am at Macy, I couldn’t come there, I said Okay, I understand but, did you know I cried until there was nothing left to cry, and yet, I was just tired and asked you for only one time! One Time NICK! And you tell me you are tired in understanding me?” I asked him
“Bullsh*t Nick! Bullsh*t! How could you do that to me? The one person who has never left despite of all the reason I should have” I said crying
“You want to leave me? Fine! Go! Leave! I never want you in my life! Because after all, you were never actually there in all the milestone I achieved. You were never there when I got my Gold Plat Button in YouTube, You were never there when I became 26, and Lastly you didn’t even knew I was pregnant with your child and he died! He died Nick! How selfish can you get?” I slowly lost my will to fight him as I cried and cried and as I saw the tears fall in his cheeks when he heard the last part.
“How could you not say it to me then?” he said with his voice cracking and in shock
“Say it to you? How could I not?! I DID! I did nick, Believe me I did, but you always refuse to listen to me, you refused to hear my voice so can you blame me? of bearing the pain all by myself?”
“I rejected the people around me because of You! Even if my parents told me not to go with you I did! I did Nick! I neglected my job, my passion, the one person who is always there, my best friend and most especially myself. For what? For someone who is as sh*tty as you are! I hate you Nick!” I said angrily and crying. He was so guilty and shocked but, I had enough.
He was slowly walking to me but, I kept my distance.
“We are over Nick, enough is enough!” I said
“Get out of My house!”I said to him. But he was frozen in his place and he could not walk
“I said GET. THE. F*CK. OUT. OF. MY. HOUSE!” I said to him and their I saw him sadly he said
“I’m so, so, sorry Faith, Sorry” he said begging and he knelt to the ground with his hands on his face, looking so, frustrated.
“You hurt me so bad, Nick how do you expect me to forgive you?” I said silently as I could and I knew he heard it but, he only kept quiet.
“Leave Nick, Please!” I said to him pleading and slowly he got up, without looking me into the eyes, he's shoulder is down and looking so apologetic and frustrated and he slowly did get out of my hose4 and left, I saw his retreating figure on the window.
I watch him so broken as he rode his car and left my driveway.
After he left I slowly felt the weight of my ager in my as I locked the door and cried loudly and sat with my back facing the door. I couldn’t believe myself and him I thought everything is perfect but, like they always say, nothing is perfect so, you better not believe it. I neglected everything just for him and he did this. As I sat down there my phone rang and I read the message from him saying he was sorry and I snapped and blocked him from my contacts and as I did that someone called me. The name that flashed on the screen was ROSE! Rose! It was Rose...
“Rose!”I said while crying
“I want to leave, help me please,” I pleaded
“And she said, of course I will because after all, even if the world neglect you and even if you forget about me our 25 years of friendship is always here in my heart so, I will always be here when you need me”she said
“I love you Rose, I am now ready to leave, Sure wait for me there, Maybe it is really time to let go of him”. I may love you until now but this hurt made it all enough reason for me to let go to this so called connection. I never imagine that the one person that I almost gave everything I have into will be able to do this.
I never knew that you can be my love but, at the same time my mischief, The Vlogger’s Mischief.
