Always been mine!

Nikki’s P.O.V Kumbwa Muma and I have been dating for the past two whole months that I have been in college and everything seems perfect. He's sweet, caring and always checking up on me. I like him a whole lot. I had grown up in a household filled with so much love and wanted that for myself. Studying mining engineering at Copperbelt university had not been my first choice but it made my dad happy, so I went for it. I would have loved to enroll for fashion design but that would have meant standing up to dad. No way! My name is Nicolette Guardner but everyone calls me Nikki. It's a beautiful Saturday afternoon and I am seated by the window in the room I share with my best friend, Bonnie on campus, when my phone vibrates. It is a call from an unknown number. Me: "hello." Unknown: " babe it’s me, where are you?" Me: "oh, hi babe, I’m in my room. Why?" K: "I am coming over, with a friend. Is that ok?" Me: "sure ". I said jumping off the bed. Immediately I hang up, I began to spread my bed. When I was done, I tidied up and rushed to take a bath down the hall. On my way back I found some guy outside my door with his back turned to me. Me: "hello, kindly move from the door!" Guy: "hi, I........" he started as he turned to face me. Me: "Michael!!!!!!!!!! No way. What are you doing here?" I asked as I jumped on him. Michael: "my little doll. If this isn't fate, then I don't know what to call it." He said with a huge smile on his face, hugging me. Michael was a family friend Bonnie had crushed on since she met him, four years ago. Last I saw him was almost three years ago. He'd never been interested in her so they'd never dated. Me: "call it fate. Bonnie is here too!" At hearing this his facial expression changed and he changed the subject. Michael: "won't I come in?" He smiled, his eyes on my towel. K: "I see you've met my friend." Kumbwa interrupted us. We both turned to see him approaching us. He kissed me. I felt a little uncomfortable with this gesture and quickly turned away. Me: "Your friend? Michael is your friend?" K: "he's the guy I told you about." I then learnt his friends called him Kruger because that was his last name. Michael Kruger, the guy I had secretly crushed on my entire life. K: "dude this is my girlfriend! Nikki, this fool is my good friend, I call him Kruger." Me: "ooh. Well, I know him. ok, let me dress up. Give me 5minutes." I closed the door and sent Bonnie a text. 'Guess who's friends with babe. Michael!!' I pulled out a white t-shirt and blue skinny jeans. Five minutes later the door opened and Bonnie walked in, I couldn't have been happier. She jumped on me. " It’s him. Oh dear, its him." Me: "Bonnie the door is open, they can hear you. Speaking of them. Come in" I called out. K: "My pretty little future wife!!" He said smiling as he came over to my bed. I noticed Michael kept staring at me, it made me uncomfortable but I pretended it didn't affect me. I stole a few glances and each time I looked at him I found him staring. I offered them something to drink but they declined claiming they were going somewhere. Michael: "Nikki, can I have your number? I lost it." Lol. He had never had my number but I gave it to him. Bonnie: "and mine? Am I invisible?" He laughed and told her he was about to ask for it. She gave it to him and they left. I couldn't stop thinking about Michael. He'd changed so much in the three years I hadn't seen him, just then my phone vibrated. it was a text, "It was nice seeing you again after so many years. Save my line, Michael." I couldn't stop smiling. B:"Hmmm, kumbwa missing you already?" Me: "what?" I almost jumped. B: "your smile. you're reading and smiling. Am sure he said something sweet." I just nodded. That was a lie, it wasn't Kumbwa. But why did I feel the need to lie to her? Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Failing my engineering test left me in so much pain. I have to perform some miracle in my final exams for me to clear. I had missed all computer science classes so I can't even hope. I paid kumbwa an unexpected visit immediately I got my test paper so as to get comfort from him. I knew Matthew had a class on Wednesday afternoons but kumbwa was free, which meant he was in his room. I didn't bother knocking, I just walked in and shouted, "baby.........". But what I saw cut me off. My boyfriend was on top of another girl, kissing, half naked. He only had shorts on and she was in nothing but underwear, yellow underwear. YES. I stared at both of them without saying a word. I looked at them for a while. There were clothes everywhere. Just then some guy outside commented; "Eeh eeh, Kumbwa has been caught cheating." And he went off laughing. I realized I was standing in the doorway and excused myself. "Am sorry for interrupting, please continue." I said as I turned to leave. K: "baby! f**k! Wait." He shouted after me as he got up. I slammed the door in his face and ran back to my room where I locked myself in and crawled under the bed. I felt angry, stupid but I couldn't cry. Tears just wouldn't come out. Where was Bonnie when I needed her? I called her; B: "my punani, what's up? U miss me already." Me: "yes my friend. I need you! Where are you? Am hurting." B: "what happened? Am in Luanshya with grandpa but I can come back right away. Talk to me" Luanshya was 30mins away. I needed her now. Just then I heard a knock on my door. Me: “I'll see you when you get back. Say hi to grandpa for me". and I hung up. I didn't open my door, I didn't want to see anyone then the person spoke. It was kumbwa. "Open up, I know you're inside. Let me just explain. It's not what you think." Really? Why do people always use the ‘it’s not what you think’ phrase when caught cheating? Argh. Bloody i***t can hang out there for all I care. I was so angry I threw my glass jar at the door. Just then my lost tears resurfaced and I sobbed. I pulled myself into a fetal position and faced the wall still under the bed. I ignored all his calls and texts full of apologies. Why was he apologizing? For being caught or for cheating? MEN!!!!!! Michael called me an hour later asking me about the test. I had sent him a text telling him I had flunked so he called back. Me: "hello." Michael: "what happened? After so much studying. But at least you got 5% higher than the last mark." He chuckled. I couldn't hold it in. I started crying. "He's cheating on me, Michael. kumbwa is cheating. I found them." He cut the call. Yeah, even his friend, my friend didn't want to hear about it. Am the stupid one. I sobbed uncontrollably. 10minutes later I heard a knock on the door and decided not to answer. A call came through, Michael again. "Yes?" I answered. Michael: "open the door." I crawled out with my tissue and opened. He pulled me into his arms. "Am sorry doll." We walked back to my bed. "I didn't want you to find out like this. I know how much you like him." He knew! He knew and never told me! Why do men cover up for each other? Me: "you knew!" I slapped him. "Michael you knew and never told me. why?" I continued hitting him. "You're always going on and on about how much you love him, how he would never cheat on you. I couldn't ruin your perfect little world." He said holding my fists in one hand. "He simply doesn't deserve you. Don't waste your precious tears crying over him." He pulled my head onto his chest and stroked my hair. After some time, I calmed down. I wanted to kiss someone, anyone. Yes, even Michael. I told him I wanted a kiss but all he did was raise his brow in question. He smelled so good and before he could change his mind, I pulled him down to me and kissed him, hard, holding him to me so he couldn't move away. After a few seconds he started kissing me back with as much urgency as I, and we were tearing each other’s clothes off. I liked Michael but that's not why I kissed him. I did it because I felt that way the pain would go away, instead what I got was a throbbing ache between my thighs. Before I knew it, we were having s*x.