this time I will not lose to anyone.

I never thought that this would actually happen to me. this is just what I have been dreaming of. imagining things while suffering while still breathing. I remember being so happy for finally dying. the feeling is still here, I was relieved. But here I am just waking up, on my bed. The moment I opened my eyes I instantly remember who I am right now. I become really happy, I can feel my self grinning. at the same time, I feel like I could cry. I sat up and went to my dresser. I noticed that the style is not to my liking and are far from I'm used to wearing when I was alive. it was too girly, I'm used to wearing pants and only wear skirts when I go to school. (' which also rarely happen.) I rang the bell beside my bed and three maid came in after three knocks. Marry, Milly, and Elisa. these are my personal maids, assigned by the king himself. My father I guess. seems like the impact of my previous life is too great that I barely remember this one, despite supposedly being alive here for 14 years already. the only thing that I could think about is. I'm finally free from the pain. em I too naive for thinking like this. I look at them and with a grin. I can tell they are confused. 'oh right. I have a reputation in this world, not a good one, but a vary out of character, and very stupid kind of reputation.' "do your job. what are you just standing there?" they emmidiately move, and do what they are supposed to do. I just went in front of my mirror as they chose my dress, clean me up, dress me up, brush my hair, everything. they did it perfectly. I look my self in the mirror and. 'If this is just a dream I don't want to wake up, and I'll make sure to never wake up. And if I do. I'll kill my self to be back here.'