My Ex-wife is My CEO

AFRAID

***CHRIS'S P.O.V***

It's time for the shoot. It was about time and I should just go and start my shooting. I took a deep breath and then went there. I sat on my chair and I saw Alena. My eyes were just looking where she was.

By now she should be here. I would wait until she did not come back and it was clear, "Where is Alena?" I asked Blair. I know that he might know as he is actually a very good friend of Alena's.

"I didn't know she might be doing some work. I just have no idea where she is." as we were just talking, she was on the other side of the road. She is here. Now I should do what I want to do.

I put my thumbs up and then started looking at her.

"So everyone, hello. I am glad that I have the opportunity to be there again. I know that you have all just always connected with me. I just want to say one thing I want to share my life with you. I just want. I want you all to know how I felt in love and how it didn't work out, so you all might be shocked or surprised. I just don't know what to say. I was married. Would it hadn't worked out before becoming like this. I was married and that marriage just broke me. The girl that girl loved the most. I left myself alone and it was all over in a snap, so to know my story you all have to stay in tune with me, your one and only favorite Chris here." I just said it and then that made my way to the other side of the glass. When Alena, I was about to go out. I saw her. I stood in front of her and I stopped her from going away. I just know that I hurtled and I could feel the rain in her eyes.

"Chris, my son, you were just so fabulous that I just could not say anything else. I just know that it has not been easy for you, but I am still so glad to have you in this team of ours." I know that it is not easy and it has not been easy for me or for anyone else. It has just been very tough for me to do, but I still did it because she didn't let me have another option, as we were just talking when she left, I followed her and then I held her hand and then talked to her.

"Why are you running away Alena, what is it, why are you so angry with me? Did it do something wrong?" I just said. I know that I have hurt her hut. She is also the reason behind it. She is also the reason why everything is happening.

"No Chris, you have not done anything wrong. It was me who was wrong and I am extremely sorry for that. I am sorry that it happened. I hope that you understand this and just let me go." she said. I know that she is angry with me but I just warned her. I clearly warned her. I told her this clearly that I didn't want her to interfere in my matter. She still. She still did that. She still did. I mustn't know how, but she did it to hurt me and now, as I did something that hurt her, she is crying. What does she think? I am not hurried by what happened. Are I not in pain?

"No Chris, you have not done anything wrong. It was me who was wrong and I am extremely sorry for that. I am sorry that it happened. I hope that you understand this and just let me go." I told her the reason why I did this is because of her. It is because she thinks irrationally. It is only because she does things just for herself.

"Are you even in your senses, Chris? Do you know what you are saying how you might be. He was able to do that. Then let me tell you one thing, Chris. What I know is that you are selfish. I was just doing my work and just to stop myself and just to take your revenge. I wanted to do what you wanted. I just hate you. I was so wrong when I thought that you might have changed."

I pinned her against the wall and just made her look at me. She can't leave like this. She just can't do that. I just know that she will not do it. She can't leave here. She just can't do it. I just can't make her way away from me like I am and it is clear if I am talking, then she has to hear me out whatever I am saying and why I am saying she has to hear me.

"I did this and what do you do, huh, you just gave up on our marriage? You just choose that you don't want to be with me because my family is troubling you really. Alena, just because of that, you let go of our relationship. We were married Goddamn it for all these years after divorce. I think that now you are out of my life. Then again, you just came back, and now you are doing this. Now you are troubling me here. Also, what think you think that I will be doing in this case, huh?" I just poured my heart in front of her. I just said it all. She is the one who gave up on our wedding. I was the one who was crying for her. She was doing things like that and she just did. She left me

I still remember how hard it was for me to manage it all alone, my whole family. I could just marry Alena and what did she do? She just left me and she just went away from me because she didn't want to be a part of the family. The only thing that she ever ever got about was just of herself when she wanted to leave. She just decided that she wanted to do what she wanted without even thinking about what I was going to feel and how I was going to feel about it. She just said that she had just never felt anything about her. I would have been alone at that time.

"Stop it, just know one thing Chris, that I am not afraid of you and I am not going to back off. Did you understand that it is my office and I am ready for it if you want to do that? Then, for sure, you can do this game with Chris."

She didn't say anything. She had not said what she had to say. She always does that. She is just a selfish b***h. I wish that the girl I loved had just been that.

"Go, Alena, you can have your life. But, I just want to say things to you. I don't want this, I just want to say one thing to you. If you are. I play this game, then I will play it. I would love to do that." I know that this is not going to be easy. I am I in this with all that I have. I just don't have anything to lose. I just have no choice other than this. I just don't know how I have to react or how I have to behave.

"Chris. What was wrong with you? What did you think that you might be doing? Chris, you want your and Alena's lives to come in front of everyone. How could you do this, Chris? You would have at least thought about Alena how she would have felt when i heard about it i just got so hurt but then, i just saw at Alhena she had not said anything what have you thought how it would have been just know one thing clearly that this is not in which i am going to support you." i just took a deep breathe i am so frustrated right now my own friend is also in support of Alhena why can't he see how hurt i am and how much i am suffering

"Listen to me, Blair, I don't know and I just don't care about anything else, but the only thing that I know and that I care is that I am not going to tolerate it. If you want to support her, then go ahead. I wasn't there when she left me. Where were you? Why have you not said anything to her? Why were you quiet at that moment? Why?" I asked her in anger. I know that it is not going to be easy. I am ready for that also.

"It was both of your matter. It was you both who were involved in it and the reason why I didn't choose any is because, Chris, I have just heard your side of the story and, as much as I know, is that she is not what she I be doing, I just know that there might definitely be I that she had done wrong but i also know that she is not the one who will just leave yogh in a bit." i throw my phon in frustration

"Yes, I was the one at this fault. Yes, I was just the one. I just know one thing, that Alena is the one that was wrong. She doesn't do anything. The only thing that she cares about is herself, and now, Blair, you can go and have your own. I understood." he left in anger. I am not in bond with this. I just know one thing, that she is just going to ruin it all.

When she was in my life she just spoiled my life and now she is also back and now she is also doing this. She is again doing what she should not have been friends with me because of you, Alena, just because of you. "Chris my dear, I am so happy that you did such a fabulous job." Derek came and then hugged me with a smile.

"Thanks Derek, I am happy that you are happy with this." I am OK. I have to act like I am OK with this, whatever everyone will think, but the truth will not just change. Just that she meant the world to me and, as she decided that she wanted to go away. Just let go. of me she just left me

"Chris, now I want you to work on this, however you want, and whatever you want, we will do that. I just didn't know what was going on. Could she even think about it? Could she think that he would take her place?" What Blair did, Alena decided, was the only thing. I know that she wanted to replace me and she wanted a new artist.

"What do you mean Derek?" I asked him. I know that it is not what I wanted to hear, because if he does by any chance say something that will make me regret what I did, then then I would just regret it.

"Look, listen to me and just know one thing I am not going to tolerate. All this nonsense, I will make Alena understand OK, she will just. She thought that would not happen. OK, she is a smart kid. Then she will not do it." I no no.. This is not what I wanted to know. The thing that I wanted to know was not this. I only wanted to know about Alena and what she said about Blair.

"Derek, this is not what I am asking. I am asking you what she said about Blair. What did she want and why was she doing it? I want to know that Derek." as I said that, he laughed at it and then said about that,

"Alena wanted a new artist and according to her, Blair was going to be a perfect one." As he said, I widened my eyes. The hell she didn't want to hurt me or to do anything wrong. The only thing that she was doing was to make someone get what they deserved.

"She just gave an incredible idea." I told Derek and then I went to Blair. I know that whatever she had thought, knew it was just perfect and wanted Blair to get what he actually deserved. He had just been my guitarist for this long and the only thing that she wanted was this. I am so stupid. I would have heard what she was saying and what I was trying to say. How am I so stupid? I can. I just I it I JST don't know what was going on my head when i decided to do this

"Blair, wait, listen to me buddy." He stopped and then turned and then looked at me. I know that he was also angry with me and he should actually be because of the way I behaved. It was so wrong, but I still did that. I was still wrong.

"What happened Chris? Now what you want to say and what you want to talk about, is there anything else that you want to say and what you want to talk about?" he asked me. He definitely There is what I did and how I behaved there is and I just deserve so much hate and. do It I deserve to talk. you I am so bad i am such a bad person

"Blair, I am sorry whatever I did was definitely very very wrong. I would not have done that. I was so wrong, but I just want you to ask one thing. He looked at me and then he said,

"Because I didn't want to do that. The moment Alena told me that she wanted me to be there, I decided that I just don't want this and that is clear, I don't want you to spoil my friendship with you, but what you did I you just took out your anger on Alena for what reason just for your insecurities hoe could you eb so mean." i just told him that i know that it is not easy and everything else but this is it and this is how it is going to be i am going to convince him for that i am going to convince him for everything

"Sorry, Blair, but that was not what I meant. I am sorry. I am extremely sorry. This was not what I meant. How much do I know and do I know? I just know one thing, that this is not what I meant and I am not angry. I am a fool and whatever I did was absolutely wrong, it was all just bullshit." I smiled at her, and then I told her. I just said that I was what I wanted. I did. I am I to make sure that I will say sorry to Alena for what I did.

"But Chris, this is not what I meant. I am sorry, but this is not what I can do. I am just a guitarist and I can not be more than that. Even what you feel or what Alena feels actually doesn't matter, because the truth will not be changed. I am just a normal person and that is what I am doing. I hope you understand what I am I I." I know how Blair is. It is definitely not easy. I just know it, but on the other hand, I have to leave him and that is it.

"Blair never knows what you have always said, that Alena can never be wrong and I do believe that she can never be wrong. Sorry to say anything else is wrong and that is the truth. She knows what she is doing and you know that very well. She is very good at her work," she said, and then she just smiled at it. I know what I am talking about. She knows what she is doing and I am the stupid one who thought that she was doing it for something.

"I know what I am doing, Chris, and honestly, the confidence that you have, I am not going to trust myself on this and just know that I am not meant for this. If I had, then I would have known I was not Chris. When I don't even know how to talk to someone else, I whine something will happen or when someone asks me something, Chris asks, I am just not the one who can do it." I took a deep anathema. I decided that this is all how it is. I am pretty sure about it. I just know what I need and what I want.

"You can, Blair, what you have thought about how I will be or how I will be acting. I know that this is happening. Not all that is gonna happen. You know when I was in the beginning, I was also scared. I didn't know how to talk or how to behave. I didn't even know how I got dressed up, but I still just do it and you will also do it." I am trying to do something very badly. I know that this is not what's gonna happen.

"But Chris, please don't. Ride me Chris, I can't do it. Please Chris, I would be very glad if you would not force me to do this. Please Chris, it is just a humble request from you, I know that you are angry, and you are upset also. She is just. Do it. Do you just know that this is not what's gonna happen." Why is he like that? I know that he will be great if I want to convince Alena, then I have to just convince him or there is no chance that she will forgive me. I am the one who will never forgive me, I am someone who just doesn't like it when it comes to his work and here I have screwed it all up on every beat.

"Blair pleads just for me to just give it a try and if it is, then it will just be great. If it will, you will have things like you already have, so then there will be no case of anger or. So, so I just try to do it. There is no risk in it, trust me Blair, there is no risk in this," I said. I know that he will not say no to me, even whatever excuse he will make. He will just do that perfectly and I believe in it.

" OK cool Chris, OK because you are saying I am OK with it. I am completely fine with it, OK so just don't worry or just don't stress about it." I just smiled widely and then I hugged him. I am so happy that I. Can not anyone else. I am very happy about this. I am extremely happy about it.

" OK cool, now let's go. We have to talk to Derek too." Blair held my hand and then I stopped on track and then I looked at her.

" What happened?" I asked him. He smiled at me and then said,

"I am also happy. I am also very happy. I just don't think about anything else. Just know that I am not coming with you. I am still scared of Derek, and you should go on your own to talk to him. I am not going to accompany you," I said, and I smiled at him. I know how sweet he is. Then I nodded at him and I made my way to Derek's cabin. Fortunately, he is still there in the cabin. He is still there or I would have thought that he would not be.

"Hello Derek," I said, and then went inside. I sat in front of him. He smiled at me and then I leaned down. I know that if I am here, then I am here for something and that is for sure.

"What is it, my dear son, what is it that brought you here, because, as much as I know, you just announced your life, but if you are here, then for sure it is a big problem. What is it? Just tell me I will solve it just for you." out smiled at him. He is so sweet that he thinks that he can sort out my problems.

"I am here to talk to you about something and it is actually kinda important. That's why I just came here. I hope that you won't mind it." I said that, because of which he laughed and then said,

"No no not at all, why? Why. Why am I upset? I am very happy that you are going to say something to you, because whenever Yi decides something, I just get my profit. Why would I not like this factor? I just love this factor," he said. Then, then I smiled at him. I knew that he didn't want Blair, but as he said, whenever I said something it was just said for his benefit only, and that is what I am here for now.

"Derek, I want you to give Blair a chance. I want you to give him a lead, because I do believe that Alena said he will be able to connect with people and be able to make a place in their hearts and that is what we need for this company, right." He said that I knew that it was not what he wanted. He laughed at me.

"What do you think, Chris, know it is and why is it I like it? Blair is not a good option. He will never be able to make an impact and that is just the truth."

"Cool, I accept your point, but just give him a chance, not just as a chance. First let us just check. Whether that is gonna happen or not, Derek, come, you can just do it. You can do that for me. I smiled at them. I know that Derek will do it not for anything but for me and that will make us, and give us the chance to manage it all. I just smiled at that. I know that that is how it would be.

" OK cool, OK, then no problems. I am not worried about it. I know that this is how I will be, but I just know that this is all that I need and this is all that I am doing is just for you, and not for anyone else. I am just doing this. Do you understand that and there is no chance that I will be doing this for someone else? OK, I just know this." I smiled at it. I know that this is how it will be now. I just know that I just got this big chance for Blair and that is going to be superb.

I thought so wrong about Alena. I thought that she just wanted to make it big for her, so she just wanted to take off her languet she have for me out but that was all not the truth the truth was that she was doing what she has to do for the company and in that also she thought about Blair that was the first thing that came to her head

"What are you thinking, Chris?" Blair asked me, then I smiled at him and said,

"I was so wrong about Alena. What she did was just for this company and what I did. I just screwed it all up. I just took her and I just insulted her so much that I should not have done. I just wish that she had for what I did. I hope that." he laughed at it. He likes me, but I just don't know why. He is laughing so much. I just don't want to be one. They just don't get it. I know that it doesn't sound good, but that is the truth and that he is actually hurting me and making me feel bad. What the hell is it that makes him laugh so much? What is it?

"Blur please, I don't understand, isn't that why you are laughing? What is it that you are laughing about? Is it about my situation more than Yi actually should, but at the same time I want to tell Upolu that I will make it all up, I will ask him for forgiveness." I asked him with an angry face. I know that he was just making fun of what I said or I WGST I was doing.

" What if you think, Chris, that she will not forgive you? You are the only one who can make it all up to her. You are the only one who can do it. Knowing that you both fight. I am the only one who is able to manage her anger and that is the reason why I laughed. Would you doubt that either she will like it or not? She will love it, Chris. Will I love you to try me on this Chris," as he said that, I hugged him and then I smiled at him. He is just the best and I just love it that he is just in my life.

"Thank you Blair, just you are just my true friend. Even if I did such a shitty thing, you are here to support me, but as much as I know Alena, he isn't going to hear me at the beginning." I told him, then he smiled and said.

"What do you think about how it will be or how it's gonna be blemished is a woman, Chris, and she will for sure do that. I just know that you are the best and she will for sure forgive you. I just know that." I took my breath and then we both made our way back to our houses.

As I came back to the house, I looked at the walls of my house. These all make me feel that this is all that I ever wanted. I wanted a family for some reason. I would blame Alena. One thing that will not change is that I was also the one who was not with her and I do blame myself for that. I went to my bar and then poured myself a drink and then I took a sup and on I went and stood on my balcony.

I still remember that I promised Alena that I would earn that much that she would become a part of this so that she would be proud of me. I don't even know if she loved me or not, because what is different is that we are now away from each other. She is also this place. This view is not.

When I brought this house i just wanted to prove my father but at the same time i want Alena to be here but she never came and why she will ever come to this place

I wish that I could come to this place. I want this place or, what success? I will get just nothing if I do not have her in my life, just if she is a part of my life. Then I just have everything and that is, if she is with me, I just don't need it, just don't want anything else and she is just a very important person. I have always hurtled her every single time I have.

I am not a good person. I must hope that she will forgive me for what I did or how I behaved to her and will understand that that was what my intention was. It was not your hurrying her in any way that I ever wanted to do. I just hope that she will just understand that.

I took deep. I breathed and then made my way to my rock and then I had to lay down in bed. I know that Timor is not gonna be, and that is not what I want or I me. I just want us to work our lala on our own. That is that she will understand me and even if she wants to slap me, then she can also do that. I am ready for that hit. I just want her to be here. That is all that I want and that is all that I desire. I know that from the beginning I was only leftish and I will always be, but Alena pleaded just forget me for what what i DOD or what I did

Then I close my eyes and then try to fall asleep. Tomorrow is not just a big day, it's a very big day. He is going to eat me.

This is all that I know. That is not just going to be easy and that is all that I know and that is clear. This is just the only thing that I know. I wish that I could just reverse it all in a snap and then bomb over, but I know that I just cant make it all right just because I want it that way. That will never happen. Alena, I am sorry for everything that I have done to you. I wish that I had been there even once for you.

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