My Ex-wife is My CEO

I CAN'T CHOOSE HIM

***ALENA'S P.O.V***

When I opened my eyes, I saw the rock where I was. I just don't know. Then I felt a pair of hands on my waist. I looked at the figure next to me and it was Chris.

I just slowly removed his hand from my waist and then, I looked at him. I got up from bed. This was just killing me. I don't have any idea what I should be doing right now. I made my way to the washroom and then I just looked at myself in the mirror. I was panicking. I splashed my face with water and then I took a deep breath. No, I am not going to let anyone know about it. Whatever happened between me and Chris? Just let it all be

I went out of the washroom. I wore my clothes and then I made my way out of the room. I know, Chris, that you will be very upset with me. I know that you are not gonna be happy after you wake up, but I just don't have any idea nor do I have any way to think about it. I have just one thing I know. It is that I can't do this. I know that we have already done it. But that doesn't mean that it's gonna be good, it's just gonna make things worse, it's just gonna make sure that we did it wrong.

We should both know our limits. We both should know how we have to be and how we have to be doing it, but this is not what we should be doing.

I took a cab and then I made my way home. As I reached home, I went directly to my room and got ready for the office. I am sorry Chris, I made my way out of my room. Mom smiled at me and then I joined everyone at the breakfast table. "So how was the party, ALENA? And for what?"

My Aunt asked me. I looked at her and said "Blair got selected as the main singer aunt and it was great." I told her, then she smirked.

"Impressive." Then we were all just making our breakfast, so I did it fast and then I just made my way to the office. As I reached there, I went inside my cabina cabin and started doing my work. I just wanted to avoid Chris. I don't know how to face him. I just hope that I don't have to see him. That is all that I think.

"Mam, this is for you Sir and Derek Sir is calling you for the meeting." I nodded at that and then I realised, s**t Derek. no no s**t man, how will we handle it. Now Chris is also gonna be there. He is just gonna be there. I think that I just ran away. How am I supposed to make him understand anything or do anything? I just have no idea how I will be doing it. I just dont know how I will be doing it.

"Yeah I am coming." I made my way out of my cabin to the meeting room where the whole meeting went but Chris didn't come. Is everything alright? I don't know why he didn't come. I am afraid. I am scared of him. I just dont know what happened to Chris. I just want you to be good.

Then I came back and again started doing my work when I learned that Chris was not in the office. That is good, but where is he? Then, if he is not here and that is the case, I took a deep I and then made myself understand that I am not to let anything happen. I am not going to do that and that is just absolutely clear, "Lily, I am done for today. I am heading home by the way you talked to Blair."

As I said his name she started to blush, I smiled at her and then said "You remember that I told you to ask Blair if he is good enough for it or not and what he wants his cabin to be."

Then she looked at me and said in a very low voice "Yes, mam, here on this we have the list of what he wants and everything."

I took the paper from her and then I just read it. Then I, again, gave her back. "Cool then just make sure that things happen, how he wants them to happen. OK and one more thing, don't do anything stupid if you have any sort of doubt, even a single bit of. Then just ask him directly. OK OK, don't you hesitate to do."

She nodded at me. Then I just took my purse and then made my way out of my cabin. I know how much she likes him. That is the reason why I gave her this. This is the chance that I was given to help her. I want her to be with Blair. I will just be so cute together. I made it on my way, then I just made my way to my house.

When I came back, I went to my room after doing it all and everything. I just could not get my mind out of him. I just could not do that. I just had to do that. I just have no idea or no other. then I just take ny phone and stoof in my balcony i looked at the phone at Chris number should i call him or not no i shoukd not that gonna be very wrong huh then i took a deep breathe whatever i will say or however i will say things are gonna be ok he is hurt and i know it and i just know that its because of me only because of me

1week later

I was on my way to the office. I don't know where Chris was. It's been a week and he has not just come back. I just have no idea where he is and what he is doing. I hope that he can just send a message or something to anyone. No one knows where he is. Just simply no one knows about it. Where are you? Chris

As I reached home, my eyes went on him and I just got shocked as I saw him there. His eyes met with mine. He just then ignored me and then started looking somewhere else. I know that he is upset. I just know that he is just very upset with me. I took a deep breath and then I just gathered myself. I am not gonna let myself go. I know that it's not gonna be easy, but I just could not let that happen. "Alena looked like she was back."

Blair looked at me and then said that I looked at him and said "Did he tell you where he was and why he was not there and what was the reason that he just went away in a snap?"

I asked him, then he laughed, which made me look at Blair. "I think that the number of questions that you have you should ask him all this by yourself, that will just be perfectly OK, because I am just glad that he is back. I don't want anything else apart from this. OK and one more thing, just know this, that he would love it if you talked to him. I dont know what happened between you two, but he is just gonna love it."

He said it and then he just went to his work. I got to my cabin and was just doing my work when I decided that I should just go and talk to him. I know that he is not in a mood and if I keep on ignoring it, I am also not able to work, so it would be great if I would just make sure that I do what I have to to. I took a deep breath and then decided that I was not gonna get weak. I am going to talk to him. I am just gonna talk to him and that is it.

I made my way to his cabin and then as I entered his cabin he looked at me and said "What happened, Alena, what are you doing here? If you had some work, then you would have told your assistant to come. She would have done that."

He said, then I looked at him. I knew that was all it was gonna be, "Chris, I wanted to talk to you Chris, I know that you are angry with me, but can we just talk for a while?"

I said, without even looking at me. He said, "I am sorry Akena, but I am not interested in talking to you. I don't know what it isn't, but, but if it is not about business or work, then I don't want to talk about it."

He said it. Then I went to him. I held his hand and then I just made him look at me. He didn't. I know that he was very very angry with me and this behaviour of his.. Then it is not just what I want. I just dont want this and I just know this. I am sorry Chris. I am extremely sorry but this is all that I know, Chris. Just. Look at me. "Chris, I want to talk to you Chris. Just look at me for once, Chris. I know that you are upset and angry. Chrus. But just at least gear me, but for once, just for once Chris, please, just for me, I know that you are not happy with it Chris. I know that I know that you are not happy with that but Chris, please just please Chris, do it just for once, think about it Chris. Just think about it and then we will just do it Chris, please Chris, just for once, Chris please."

I was just requesting him to talk to me. I was actually begging him to talk to me and he was just not in the mood to do that. I know that he was hurt. But hurting him was just never my intention. I didn't do it or anything else to hurt him. I just did what I felt was right. He had to talk to me. "Also, I am in the office and I am not interested in talking to you. I don't want to talk to you about this. I know why you might be feeling that, but at the same time I just want to say one thing to you. Don't do this with me. Akena these mind games of yours and what you wanted to do yiu just do it i dont want to be a part of your game." he said it which just hurt me i was not playing any game i do love him i just did it all and that was wrong i accept it i just ran away which was not an option which was not correct i know that but i just did it

"Chris, I know what I did was wrong, but that was not my intention, Chris, whatever I did or however I did, it was not what I wanted to do. I just hope that you will just give me one chance, Chris. Don't go away like that if you want to s**t at me, then you can do that Chris and I will not say a single thing, but please, just talk to me." He looked at me and then got up from his chair. He locked and made a cabina. He then looked at me. He marched himself towards me, which made me take steps backwards and then my back hit the wall.

I looked into his eyes. I knew that he was hurt. He is very hurt, but I just don't have any other word to say. I know one thing that he is now gonna say it all. Now he is going to blast and I am just ready for that.

"What do you think, Alena, is that everything? It should just be as you want it to be would just then just let me tell you just that's not gonna happen and that is clear, even if that makes you feel like I did something wrong or something else I just dont care about it I know what how i fely when i woke up and expected ghat you will be beside me but you were not because you were just busy in your own you were just busy with the way you wanted it to br and for that you just did that how could you do this Alena just tell me how could you do this have you ever thought how that's gonna make me feel no Alena you just dont care about it and that is why you just left without even a by or you woyld have jusy sent a message but no you choose not to say anything at all." i got teats in my eyes as my hands were wrapped by his hand i know that this is all it is and i jusy dont know about anything ekse but the only thing that i know is just this only that it is not gonna happen and that is absolutely clear I did wrong

He then let go of my hand from his grip and then wiped my tears. I held his

hand and he told him "Chris, I am sorry, I just don't know what has happened. As I saw us there. I just panicked and I thought that whatever we did and how we did it all was wrong. We are both divorced and we both should know our I and I just I just know that I was wrong when I reached home. This is why I thought that I did wrong. I am sorry Chris. I am extremely sorry for that. I know that I have hurt you a lot a lot and you don't deserve that. I am sorry."

Then he just hugged me and then rubbed my back. He knows. I know you am what you am. I am very hurt and he knows that I am just not making him feel good, but what am I supposed to do now? I just did this. I know that I would have been there with him but I just was not and that was wrong, but what am I gonna do now? I dont know how to fix it all ". It's OK, Alena. I would also not have acted like that. I just decided that I would not come to the office for a while until I cleared up my head, which was absolutely wrong. Sorry Kove, but Akena, I just want to say, don't you think that you were wrong or something you are wrong. Alena, I know that what you did just hurt me, but, still Alena, let it be."

I looked at him with tears in my eyes. I knew that I was in so much pain and that I was just not letting myself think about anything. This is just not making me feel good, not even a. But this is just making me feel that I should just say that I am in love with myself, but I, I just told myself that no I should not say this. I can't say this, I just could not. "No Chris, I am sorry, I just, I don't know why, but it just felt that we did something wrong even if we didn't and I know Chris that I should not have acted that way, but I just did Chris. I am just sorry, Chris, I am in pain, Chris, but at the same time, I know that you are the only one who understands me, Chris. I was just feeling that I owe you this apology and I am actually doing this, Chris. I am sorry Chris. I am just extremely sorry for that."

I told him. Then he looked into my eyes. I love you Chris, I just love you. No, I can't say that. It is just not what I should be saying or things I will not let that happen. This is clear. We have tried this and we have once screwed it. This time that will not happen. This time I am not gonna let that happen. This time, I will just make sure that things will not go on. I wiped my tears and just controlled my emotions so that I was not gonna cry over it and it was clear I was not going to do something that was gonna make things hard for me and Chris this time.

"Thank you Chris, now I should go. We have work, so umm thanks again Chrus, for forgiving me. I am sorry again."

"It's OK Alena," he said, with a smile. I smiled at him and then I just made my way to my cabin. I composed myself. I have to hide my feelings. I know that his family hates me and my family don't want us to be together. No, I should not just do it. If I wait. What if this is just what I want and not Chris? What if he doesn't want this? What if that happens? No. I just can not risk that. No, I just can not let that happen to control your emotions, Alena, and it will bring a storm to our lives.

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