***ALENA'S P.O.V***
I got up the next morning and then made my way to the washroom. I did my morning routine and then got ready. As soon as I got ready, I made my way to the living room. I looked at my mom. She came to me with food in her hand and ate it fast. OK, just know that you have to eat food or you will not get healthy, and one more thing, don't think about what your aunt said, OK."
As she said that, I smiled at her. She was just great. I dont know what I would have been doing if it had not been for her, but just let it be. I just took the roll and then made my way to the car on my way to the office. I ate it all and then I just made my way to the office, I went inside my cabin and then started to do my work when Lily came in and told
"Good morning mam. This is for today, mam." she showed me the timetable. No meetings. Then I realised that today Chris was gonna shoot another episode now, everyone. Now knows about us, so it just doesn't make any other difference other than this.
"OK so I will have this thank you lily." Then I made my way to his studio. His shooting had already started. I stood there as he looked at me. He smiled at me and then started to say
"How it started right, my father came and then gave her the best student award and thought that he just insulted the most that he could, but that thing definitely did wondered to me. It made me meet the women whom I feel for, who taught me what I love and care about." he said, looking at me, which about me to the flashback.
FLASHBACK
"So everyone let me just present Akena in front of all of you students in the history of this college who got a 100% scholarship to be here. I am just so proud of you," he said to me as I went there to get that prize from him. Then he started to talk about his son.
"I hope that you will help my son with his education and just a little help. Maybe he will be able to pass with that." he said, and then he just kept on saying that I had just gone back to my dorm.
Next day, I had just made my way to the library and was just studying when he came and then sat next to me. "Hello good morning nerd."
I looked at him with shock, but then I just chose to ignore him. I don't know what else he wants now, because I don't want anything from him. Now he should be away from my life.
"Listen, I have not done any and I have not even said anything, so it would be better if you would apply to understand that, because just let me tell you that I don't want that to happen. Do you understand that I am here to study? I would just be great if you would just excuse me." I It told him, because he laughed and then said,
"I am not here to trouble you or to say, but to make a deal with you." I fixed my speech and then looked at him with a question in my face. What kind of deal does he want from me? I just dont understand that.
"I wanna tell you that I am not interested in any of it. I don't want to make any deal with you. I am good as I am, so just leave now OK." He, I knew that I might be a bit angry and rude. I don't want him to be near me. It makes me feel that he is in trouble and, honestly, I don't want any trouble for myself. I can't afford it. I am heaven to study not to do timeoas like him. He is a child who is here because this college is from his father. That is the reason why he is here. That
"Hello Alena, how are you?" I smiled at Blair as he arrived and then sat next to me. He is a good man. He had a big hand at him with a smile and then he looked at him.
"Yes Blair." I asked him. I know that I can understand Blair and he can understand that we are from the same place because
"I am sorry if I disturbed you with your studies. I was just here to talk about something." He smiled at him and said,
"No, OK. I am good. No worries by the way, if you are here to talk about Chris and how I behaved towards him, let me just tell you that he is not my friend and I am not interested in making him my friend. How good he will be. He will never be good to me. We will always have a cold vibe with each other, so I just wanna tell you this, I want to, by the way, is anything else other than him." he smiled at him and said
"Akena, I know that you have some sort of image set of his in your head, but let me tell you that this is not how it is OK. I wanna tell you OK to just talk to him once, I will realise that he is not. I think you thought that he was. He is a great man." he said, but I just don't believe it. I don't believe that Chris is a great man. He is just the one with the money of his father who doesn't know how to manage it or how to be with it. Just an ardent kid
" Bkair, I'm sorry, but I think differently about him and what I can think because we both are different individuals." I told him, then we both talked for a while, then I went to the auditorium to practise the violin. I just dont know how to play this dog, but I have to learn it. I just have no idea how to do it.
"Let me help with that." Chris came and then tried to help, but I refused to take his go.
"No, I am good. I don't need your help." I told him and then started to try again, but then he came and then held my hand and then helped me to play it and then looked at me as the sound came out.
"Alena, you know that you needed this to get a 100% scholarship and I totally understand that what I wanna tell you is that you just dont worry about anything. OK, I am here for you. I will teach you how to play this because I learn that studies are just not enough to do the scholarship, so I will help you with this." as he said, I took a deep breath, no I don't want his help. I will do it on my own. I need him. I just don't know him.
"I don't need you, Chris, I will do it on my own. I will learn a way to do that just OK." he smirked at me and then smiled and said
"You know what, as you're an expert in these studies, I am in this music. I just love it. This is everything, I just love it. You will get that scholarship because you deserve that scholarship and I believe that you will get it," he said. And then I looked at whether I should accept it or if I did what I I should be doing. I just have no idea about what should say and what I should not say I should not say.
"I am ready to learn it from you, but why do you want to help me do it? What is the reason, Chris?" I asked him, then he came close to me and said,
"I wanted to get something in return at first, but now I just don't want that, so just let it be. I will manage with studies, but I want you to get what you deserve," he said. I held his hand and he went out to turn. He looked at me with a question on his face, like why I stopped him. The reason why I stopped him. I want to help him so I want to pay him.
"I will help you in this way. I will help you with this. I want to let you know that I will help you with my studies. My, I do have a condition and that is that you have to listen to everything that I tell you without any complaint, and tell him that and then wait for him to look at me.
"Cool tban deak then." and with that we both just started to get close to each other. That was because we were so close to each other that we had the whole day to be with each other. Then I started to learn that he was not. He thought that he was a good man. He is a very good man.
END OF FLASHBACK
I was imagining it all the time. I looked at others and could feel everything that he said, every single word. I lived this life with him. I was with. I am just fortunate to know Chris. I am glad about that. That just know him that way that how good of a human beinv he is that he is nhst not liek kther people that he is someoen who thinks of other people the he Came this side of mirror and looked at me
"Great work Chris." I said, then I made my way to my cinema. I had left work and then I was about to leave when Bair came with Chris and then looked at me.
"It was so good na Alena how it all started with you and Chris. I mean, glammy just didn't think that I would see that glammy again, but as he was saying, it was just that I am in that time again." he said, which brought a smile on my face. I looked at him and said,
"You are right, it was just a refreshment of how nicely we had a nice life. It was so great. Right Chris, he looked at me and he
"For sure, it was just great, or I will say that it was just the greatest to be at that time, but then this time we all grew up, and then all the life stuff dam this is just not good." he said it then u know what he means i know wgat he wanna say he jsyt want to say that whay happened between me and him
"By the way, it had been such a long time since we had something that aunty cooked for us, it would be so great to have it." Blair said, and then I looked at Chria and then him and said.
"Then just come with me and do something that mom will do for you. Would you love to come to my place, Chris, what do you say? He looked at me with a smile and then said,
"Sure I would love to come to your place and to have something that my aunt cooked. I missed her food." I said to myself, then I smiled at him and then we all sat in our car and made our way to my house. I called mom but then she didn't give up. Then I text. Then I smiled at it as I looked at it. I just hoped that things would get well. I don't know why, but I just wanted him there.
I was happy as soon as we reached home. What is happening here? Then the logs came up and then I saw Alexander. He came and then sat in front of me. He looked at me and then kneeled down in front of me, "Alena, I know that this is not what we both thought. I wanna tell you how we have both grown up. I have just desired to be with you. I am very blessed that you will be part of my life. Alena, will you be with me? Alena, would you like to spend the rest of your life with me?"
I am shocked at what he said. I just don't know what about him and here everyone is just insane. I just have no idea how to say it. I just wanna say that this is not how it is gonna be. What is this?"
I asked mom if my eyes were all tears. I know that Chris is very angry right now. I turned around and saw him leave. He is hurt. He is very hurt. I don't know what and how to say. I just dont know what it is gonna be.
"Alena commonly, don't worry about it. Alena, just don't make him that for you like that. Just wear the ring already." What rubbish is my aunt saying? How can they do that and Alexander is not going to take this ring? I don't want that. I just have no idea what I should be saying and what I should be saying. I think it is clear. I just love Chris and I am not gonna accept this and that is clear.
"Mom, please, what is happening here?" I said. Then she came to me and then said
"Alena accepted this usual ring. Just do it." she said, and took the ring and then placed it on my finger. Alexander got up and then tried to kiss me, but then I just went to my room.
How can they do that? What were they thinking? They even thought about how I might be feeling. No she didn't just let it be. I took a deep breath about it. I just dont want to be that problem.
I don't want to talk to anyone about how they can just do this. How can they be so selfish to think they didn't think how I might be feeling about what they were thinking when this happened. I wiped my tears. Chris, I told mom about him and what zuw did. How can she do this? She did. She even thought about how it is for both of us or how it is gonna be for us. I just have an idea about it. I just dont know what to say and what not to say in this do.
I was just snobbing when my aunt came. "Alena, what kind of behaviour was that? Why were you acting like this that that is where I talked to you yesterday, right now, and now it is, and why are you crying?"
"Why I am crying on a series note. You are asking me this. I am crying because of you all. Just for a second, did you think about how I might be feeling? No, you didn't you know, what you did, what you wanted to do, what I am so done with that s**t that no one cares about and what I feel like." I feel I told her. I just dont know why everyone has to try to control my life. They can't calm down and their own business.
"Because I am your family and when I can see that you want to spoil your life, do you want that? I should just let you spoil your life. Then let me tell you one thing. I just wouldn't let that happen and you know that you will accept this or not, but Alexander is a great choice that you have got. He is just a perfect match for you."
She said and then was about to leave when I said "And if you think that, all this is, all that you did is just gonna be OK and I am gonna do it. Then you are wrong. I am not going to do that and one more thing, I am not scared of you or of you. Otherwise, if you are not going to marry Alexander, I will obviously tell this."
I was about to go out of the room when mom came in and then I looked at her. It is not a situation where I am happy with my mom today. I am very disappointed with her. This is just not what I thought that she would be doing, but she still did it. I can. She is so mean. I just have no idea about it.
"Now talk to your mom and tell her what you want to do and see if she supports that or not. If she is OK with it, then I will also not have any problem with that." I thought that aunt was about to leave then. I looked at mom checking me and caressed my cheek. She made me sit. I know that mom will understand. I think that this is wrong and this time we can't let aunt do what she wants her. This is just absolutely wrong. We can't let that happen.
She then gave me a glass of water. I took it and had a sip. Then I looked at mom and said "Mom, what is it, mom, what are you doing and mom, why are you doing this in the first place, mom told me."
I asked her and then looked into her eyes "Alena first of all,. Stop crying, today is a very good day and you shouldn't cry. You should not be like that. Everyone is outside to celebrate. You should be there too, Alena, and I don't like this dress of yours. I wear this OK. This is just gonna suit you. What do you say is this gonna be good? I took that dress in my hand and then I looked at her and then I asked her.
"What do you wanna say, huh mom, that is how I should behave? I should just get ready and go outside. I am not doing this and that is clear, even if that makes you feel that I am insane and I am ready to hear that I am not gonna tolerate this. Do you understand, I mom, I am not going out. I am not interested in this thing," I told her.
Still, she was just placing the dress on my bed. I just don't know what is wrong with her. What is it that she is thinking that she is doing this and is she doing this? What is wrong with her?
"Listen, Alena, I don't have time for all this. We will talk later."
"No mom, we have to talk right now mom, right now we have to talk. I know for a fact that this or that is not correct, but let me tell you one thing. I told you that I am in love with Chris and this is what you did. You just want me to be with Alexander? What? What is it that is going on in your head and that you are not telling me?"
"You know what I. Then I lusten i can't let you ruin your lofe luke this its not a good idea did you egt it and let me tell you one thing that the man whi is standing outside is jhst so good that you will be happy and your aunt and i just came to this conclusion only and one more thing Akena dont you dare to make things bad for your future or yoursekf you will neevr be happy with Chris you tried doing that but was it of any use no it was not Alena and it is not gonna be of any use." she thinks that i thought that no one will understand me but mom shw will for sure understand my feelings through what i am going through but no thsi is what is happening right now she dont think that iw ill be happy
"Mom, when I told you that I wanted to marry him, mom, I just told you that. What is nothing wrong with it and that is how you want me to move on from him. If it happens, then no mom, this way is not gonna work this way, it is just not a great way. I am sorry to tell you that."
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