I HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU

In a school full of students, but in our classroom the one I like, at first I liked him because of his handsome face, He has beautiful eyes, I'm obsessed in his eyes,smiles height,color and all. Every time I see him, what do I think and I always assume, the person next to me in our classroom also likes someone but she is not like me who is not close to the person I like, because she can only talk to him on messenger but personally they are not close either but she is lucky because she can chat with shes crush and she can play cod, I also want to be friends with him but I don't know how. I'm just making a secret letter for him, I also want to give it to him but I don't know how, I'm also thinking about what I'm going to say in the last letter, I want to put my name so he knows that The letter is from me, but I think that he might just throw it away or maybe he won't pay attention to me anymore, but he doesn't really pay attention to me, even though sometimes I get tired of staring at him, I don't know why I like him even though he doesn't have assignments, activities and projects and the teacher always scolds him, but I notice that he always participates in events, I know he wants to make up for his grades. I want to help him with projects but I'm shy because we're not really close to each other I also think that he won't pay attention to me either, I talked to my friend and said that I really like him but he doesn't like me like, I'm just assuming he wants to move too but every time I see him- I just keep writing a love letter and thinking about whether I should give it to him or not, I wrote a letter that indicated that I co-confessed to him and said that I love him, but doesn't it seem obvious that way? I also wrote a letter about baking a cake with a confession, I don't know if he would like it if I gave it to him, I would also like to put my name but maybe I can still hope, he is not a bad influence I'm really obsessed with him especially when he smiles, I asked my friend how to give the love letter without him knowing, he told me to put it on his desk when it's recess time. I liked what he thought, but he might wonder where it came from, he might tear it up when he saw it, and he might cringe at what I did and he wouldn't like it, but I just keep making confessions or love letters, I'm just annoyed because he doesn't pay attention to me, I always tell my friend to move on with him because I have no hope, I just want to focus on math and my low grades, but when I see him looking for me, even if it's just 0.1 second deep inside, I'm really excited when I go home, it's just sad because I won't be able to see him anymore and I'll miss him immediately. Someone just told me that Rio (my crush) is handsome, he said that he likes Rio and he's going to co-confess here, because Rio always frees him so he feels that Rio likes him too , it's sad because what about me, what if Rio wants her too, how can I do everything I've done that I want to give to him, it's like I'm losing hope even more, I'm also always wasting my time I'll write for him but I'm not like him who's fast and he seems to be ahead of me, if that happens there's nothing I can do, I'm thinking of just focusing and prioritizing my studies. But during recess, I saw Rio and him buying milktea together.