Scarlet's Rain

I awake to the sound of the alarm clock going off and i stay still for a moment enjoying the warm of my bed ,because i knew when i got up it would be cold . I lay in bed with memories of the night flashing through my head. the feeling of anxiousness  and resentment begin to come over  me i hear my mother call my name from afar i dont answer though "scarlet " she says again, then i hear the door open "scarlet rain Black , I know you hear me!" i look in her direction ""you cannot lay in this bed all day>" "ma, i dont want to get up." she looks at me with concern on her face i turn  onto my side and let the event replay in my head "you aint s**t to me never was and never will be " the word replay in my head as quan walk away from me..a tears falls from my eyes .i lost the baby and he was walking awy and those was his last words. They felt like daggers in my skin. it hurt & i hated to admit it but there it was the truth --Was it?  or was it now?? then a small cry comes from me and i cant help but break down.  "scarlet , I know it hurts but you gotta get up baby , even i cant do that for you. the babys gone Kwans gone you have to get up  and you've got to do something . " i cant help it ma , i cant . i did what i could and it wasnt enough.Now its over." Scarlet she sits next to me on my queen size bed and she gives me the motherly hug she can "it hurts" i scream .she takes me into her arms and we stay like that fow what seems to be like moments at  time                                                    truth be told me and Kwan was in a toxic relationship .i didnt know wether to be happy it was over or hurt. the fact he left me like that ,all i knew was i had pain.