True Confessions From a 19 Year Old

My name...I cannot reveal but this is my true story. Being 19 has been an utter blow to my face. Not necessarily in a bad way but maybe not in the best way. I left home about a year ago and my head has been spinning ever since. Life has ramped up in ways I can't imagine. Some say I changed but the life I live changed first. I had to adapt. Maybe, it hit me when I was head first in a toilet, literally or when I was being cheered on by thousands of people I'd never see again for doing a simple expectation. Life is funny isn't it? I know I'm a different girl in the mirror than I was a year ago. Was it the dangerous kiss filled with venom from the start? Was it the constant partying that changed me? Or what about the regret that kept me up at night? Maybe it's a mix of all it. But I knew it all changed the moment I walked into my new home for what may be the next year. Was the rain the foreshadow of the dark days ahead? Was the cold a symbol of the way I'd grow from a childlike state of mind to nearly loveless? Welcome to the True Confessions of a 19 Year Old Girl.