Born This Way

Chapter 14

"Wait! What did you say!!?" I felt angry and frustrated Fazel didn't even tell her sister! What nonsense was I hearing? "Yes. I know you're angry and shocked but you have to understand we loved each other we did. Deeply I mean I wasn't planning on loosing her as a girlfriend so I thought I should marry be before she marries a guy she doesn't want to." She explained hesitantly. "Marries a guy?" I asked. "Yes, your mother had arranged marriage for her and they were still deciding how to come about on telling her and she eavesdropped on her mother and father she made a scene and refused to ever get married to anyone she doesn't Love. When she told me and I decided to waste no time and marry her she was the love on my life and still is till we meet again.

I sat there quiet. Now I was seriously out of words, was my mother really this bad, was Fazel’s life this hard. "It’s just that... I'm angry because I was so close to her and she didn't even mention you or at least tell me about the marriage". "We both agreed it'll be a secret until we are both ready, my family doesn't know. I was married before but divorced before I dated Fazel" she said

"Oh, Uhm so you're older? Like way older?" I asked.

" Not really just 6 years older than her" she said and I sipped my juice. "That's... That's different" I simply said. "And you in a relationship?" She asked. "Yes, the love of my life. Wanda, Precious Towanda"

"Sweet. You keep it like that and we should do this often you know I love reminiscing about her and good times we shared it helps me heal. Kid if you knew how scared I was just by the thought of loosing her No one could replace her." She said eyes red like she was about to cry. "Were you planning on having kids?". "Plenty, but she loved our daughter Hazel, Jayla so one was enough for now. We planned to move in together when she is ready but she didn't seem to have a problem until. Well the accident" her voice trembled.

"You have a daughter?" This was too much for me, what else was she going to tell me it can't get any worse than this though.

"Hazel, she is 4 going on 5"

"Your previous marriage was a guy? How did you get her?" I questioned

"No, my previous marriage was with a woman. I got r***d by two men I was driving and I stopped at some corner shop because we wanted to buy drinks-"

"Who is we" I cut her off. "Fazel and myself, they tried hijacking us and said Fazel should undress because they wanted... Uhm. To r**e her. So, I pleaded them to r**e me instead, they did that's how I got Hazel, Jayla Hemsworth 4 years ago, Fazel named her Jayla and I named her Hazel, but I normally call her Jayla" she said looking down.

I didn't know what to say this was beyond just a marriage and papers signed they really had a connection they were in love. My mom doesn't even know any of this because she chose religion over her daughters, she is kept from all this heart-breaking secrecy.

"Are you okay?" She asked as a tear dropped down her and my cheeks. "No, I mean I could have been a part of your lives if I knew. I'm really heartbroken." I said covering my eyes now breaking down.

"I'm sorry. I really am, please forgive us. Its never too late though, Jayla is still here. "I guess. Where do you live" I asked her? "Near the University of Cape Town". "Not far from Campus, I'll come see Jayla sometime you'll text me the address. Its late I should get going" I said to her.

"Cool. Thanks for meeting with me hey, I now have closure and won't be as miserable when you're around." She said and I hugged her.

"Bye, kiss Jayla for me". "I will. Bye" she said and I walked to my car. I looked at the time and it was 8:30pm. I drove around because I wasn't ready to face my mom got home and my mother called me.

"Hoekom is jy so laat my kin” (Why are you so late my Child-Translation of Afrikaans)

"Hoekom vra jy, jy gee nie om nie. Jy sorg nie vi' my nie, entlek jy sorg vi' niemand, ek is nou moeg mama!"(Why do you ask?, you don't care you don't even care about me, you don't care about anyone actually, I’m tired now Mom)

I said walking to the kitchen grabbing an apple then walked to my room. Talk to me don't be angry and I don't even know what’s wrong " she said. "I don't want to fight with you its okay." I slammed the door in front of her. I was in Fazel’s room.