13 years in marriage

Chapter Six

Two months later...

It's been two months since we went to the shrine master and there are no results yet. I no longer feel comfortable visiting my friends because I like crying when I see how beautiful my friend's children are and how my friends embraces their child. I'm not jealous at all, no. Everything just makes me feel sad and incomplete. All in all, my friends do visit me. One of my good friend took me to another urban house and I was given some liquid medicine to be drinking in the morning, afternoon and evening. I repeat the process everything, hoping for good results.

My mother in-law has lost patience with me of waiting for me to at least give her good news. She's been saying she will look for another wife for my husband since I don't know how to perform wife duties. Furthermore, she says am just a decoration in her son's house.

My mother in-law called my husband saying she's coming to visit this coming weekend. I'm excited to welcome her yet anxious because I know she's definitely not happy for the fact that I have not had any child since my husband and I got married.

My husband and I are about to sleep, but just like every night, we kneel down, bow our heads down and pray to Jehovah God. Yes yes I know that we have been to several urban houses in search of a child, but all we wanted was help, not that we are not Christians.

"Oh wonderful God, we come before you with our heads bow down to you. For we know and believe that you are indeed a miracle working God and everything we ask for, you give us. Please grant us just one wish and that is to have even just one child." My husband prayed to God when we were on our knees.

"Lord God, my home heart is not at peace. My home is on fire. Lift me up from all the shame I'm going through my father. Heal my heart. You turn ashes to gold, change my story oh Lord. Bless me with a womb my God. I believe there is nothing you cannot do my father. Impossible is possible to you Jehovah God. Bless me my father please, Amen". I said my prayer with a sobbing voice just after my husband said his prayer.

We said our prayer and climb the bed to sleep. My husband carried me and put me on our bed and then he covered me with the blanket while holding me close to him as I was sobbing. He comforted me.

"Don't you worry my love, everything is gonna be alright and yes, always remember that you're the only one I will ever love no matter what". My husband said to me.

"Alright babe. good night". I said with a relaxed voice.

Miriam's POV:

Everything that I try out isn't working in my favour. I've been to so many urban houses and I have had so many different medications and yet there are no results that are coming out. It's like everything that I'm doing goes in vain.

"Why is it that all the medications that I'm being given doesn't work and when we go to the doctor, I'm always told nothing is wrong with me?". I standing in my living room as I think out loud. I'm trying to figure out what's going on here. why nothing is working yet the doctor says am fine and the medications I've been using works on others. Then why is it that it doesn't work on me?

I decided to talk to my friend about this as I am confused about whatever is going on. I grabbed my phone which is lying on the couch, I scrolled down my contacts till I found Lauren's phone number. "Hey Lauren, how are you doing?". I asked when she picked up the call.

"Hi Miriam, I'm okay and you there? How's your family doing?". Lauren asked me from the other side. She sounds happy to hear from me as I haven't talked to her for a while now.

"I'm doing fine and my family is doing okay too, thank you". I replied to her. "I haven't heard from you for a while now. what's keeping you busy?". I asked her with a happy voice. "Well, nothing much. I've just been busy with work, plus taking care of children and all. It's really tiresome, but hey family first right? So yes, that's what been keeping me busy". Lauren replied and from her tone of voice, I could tell that she's really enjoying the duties unlike me who has become a laughing stock at my section.

"Wow that's awesome dear friend. I'm happy that you are happy doing your duties". I told her and I heard her giggle.

"Well, the reason why I called you is because I feel really out of place and my home is on fire. My mother in-law threatens to bring another wife for my husband as I can't conceive. It's really tough for me and I don't know what to do anymore". I explained everything to her as I was sobbing. I know she has felt bad for me as I have heard her voice, it's like she's also sobbing because of what I have told her.

"I think I know someone who might just be our last help since you have been to different places in search of a child". Lauren said to me. "I have lost hope now. everyone keeps giving my husband and I hope yet there are no results". I told her cause yeah it's true, I have lost hope. a lot of my friends have taken me to so many places and all I get is "use this for two weeks, use this for one month, put in your lotion, drink this, drink that. Yet no results". Even right now I don't want to listen to her new advice, it's only gonna give me empty hopes.

"Well, I'm sorry Lauren, I already lost my hope. I'm tired go going to different places". I told Lauren.

"No love, don't give up so soon. Hope is still there and I'm sure this time around it's definitely gonna work out in your favour, trus me on this". Lauren is telling me with so much confidence.