The Greatest What If's

The first time I met you (wow), it felt so simple… yet it stayed in my mind longer than I expected. Hindi ko alam kung bakit, but there was something about you that made everything feel a little different. Sunday November 13,2016 the first glance ( Tindaan ko talaga mga araw na yun noh), You were just there—nothing special to everyone else—but to me, it felt like the moment slowed down for a second. It all started on an Ordinary day. Walang espesyal na okasyon, People were busy talking to each other,fixing things, some were scrolling on their phones and laughing( malamang mga marites sa simbahan na kala mo santo panay chismis lang alam pati ba naman sa loob ng simbahan) while others were rushing to finish their works to make sure that the mass would be ready. The air was filled with small noises papers rustling,quiet instructions, soft footsteps echoing in the hall-but none of it really stayed in my mind. Everything was just background... Until I saw you. (ayeee *(@_@)*) Alam mo yung feeling na nag slowmo Lahat.. dahan dahan dahan .... huminto lahat ng nasa paligid ko para bang wala akong nakikita kundi ikaw lang (oa is O and A talaga pero seryoso ganun talaga na feel ko ackla) You are walking in the aisle going back to your place and I notice you were one of the choir. It wasn't dramatic ( Feeling k-drama yarn?pero leteral talaga ackla) It wasn't planned( promise di talaga !) It was just a simple moment that somehow became unforgettable for me.( ang landi ni ackla! hm) Tahimik ka lang sa isang sulok ( alangan kausapin nya sarili nya dba magmukha naman syang baliw nyan),nakaupo habang may hawak na booklet. You looked so calm ,so peaceful,like you didn’t mind the noise around you. There was something about you that caught my attention. ( wee dinga?). Not loud, not obvious‐- but quiet,like a feeling I couldn't immediately name. Hindi ko alam kung bakit... pero nakuha mo ukit ang atensyon ko. And then again. ( ang landi papansin kalang talaga) Until I realized... (weeh) I was already noticing you more that I should. I didn’t even know your story,and you didn’t know mine,but in that brief moment,something unexplainable started. (ayan nanaman sya nagfeeling feleeng lang day) Maybe it was just curiosity.... or may be it was the beginning of a feeling I didn’t understand yet. Something soft. Something silent. Something that didn't need permission to grow. And even now, I still remember it clearly- the first I met you( ang Landiiii talaga ni ackla) Para bang matagal na kitang kilala,( feeling close kalang) kahit ngayon lang kita nakita. Days passed, and I started seeing you every Sunday( kilig yarn *(^-^)*) I found myslef smiling whenever I saw yoy, ( ang landiiii !! ji ackla),Kahit hindi mo naman ako napapansin. Grabe,tuwing kumakanta ka,parang mas lumalalim yung katahimikan ( kahit ipikit ko nga mata ko kabisado na kita acckkk landii talaga!!!!) sa loob ko-----parang everything slows down again( yaman sa S ahh),just like that first time. ( ansabii !!) Minsan,nagkakatagpo yung mata natin. And everytime that happend,my heart wpuld beat fast( sarap hampasin eh). Pero ako yung unang umiwas. Hindu dahil ayaw ko..( syemper kunwari di ako kinikilig waaaahhh)... Kundi dahil natatakot ako. Afraid that If I looked too long,you might see something in my eyes---( VAKLANG TOOOH CHAPTER 1 PALANG APAKALANDII NA!!) something I wasn’t ready to admit yet. Something too honest,too fragile,too real. Unti-unti,naging parte ka na ng araw ko. I started looking forward to Sundays....( di nakakatulog ng maayos sabado palang ipon na ang kilig ni vakla)...dahil lang sa'yo. Your smile became my Favorite view from afar. Your presence became my silent happiness. Hindi pa kita kinakausap o nakakausap..... Hindi mo pa ako kilala Pero unti-unti....nahuhulog nako sayo.. (ANG LANDDIIIII TALAGA) Silently . From afar. And maybe that's what made it eveb more dangerous-(TALAGANG FANGEROUSE MAGAASUME KA NANAMAN NYAN) because nothings was happening, yer everything already meant something. There were moments I tried to ignore it. ( hirap magpigil vackla) I told myself it was nothing,just admiration, just curiosity. Nut feelings dont't really ask for permission. They grow in the quiet spaces,in between glances( ayan kasi ) ,in the seconds you pretend not to care . But I never asked. I never tried.( Takot ako eh baka mareject sakit kaya nun). I just stayed wher I was- watching, feeling, and hoping silently for something I couldn't even name. Because the truth was simple...(YAHH SIMPLE LANG TALAGA AS IN LITERAL) You were never mine to begin with and still,I stayed( baka di tayo pasok sa standard mahirap na di pa man den tayo ganun kagandahan hayss kaya di tayo pasok sa banga ng type nya actually nasa isip ko lang yun ha kasi ampogi nya tapos ako ito simple alam mo yun yung mga nababasa natin sa libro tas napapanood sa mga kdrama hayss)...