Inside Us : Knife

Lala

( Home / 14 Years ago )

Hu...hu...hu...hu... (Sound Someone Crying)

I heard the sound of someone crying, I who was coloring a drawing book, was distracted by the sound, I turned my head to the right and left while looking for the source of the sound.

Junghans old wardrobe clock shows 6 pm, I, who had been sitting in the living room, tried to get up from my seat, closed the drawing book with coloring tools tucked between the drawing book paper

Trying to catch up to the source of the sound, I stepped towards the door of the house, the sky was already dark because from this afternoon the weather was quite cloudy so the air was colder than usual in the afternoon. From the terrace of the house, I saw trees swaying each other because of the strong wind, the sound of friction between the leaves of the trees and birds flying here and there.

Hu...hu...hu...hu

The cry sounded again, I turned back trying to be quiet and focus so that the source of the sound I could hear clearly, I realized the voice was coming from inside the house, I moved my footsteps back inside

duk duk duk

I can hear the sound of my own footsteps, I feel strange why suddenly the house feels lonely

"ma'am.? mama.?" I shouted from the middle of the living room

I look around there is no sign of my mother approaching me

"aunty..? Grandma..?" I continue to shout calling them

But the result is still the same no one answered my call or approached me

tik tik tik tik tik

Rain water began to fall on the roof tiles, I started to hear the sound then I turned around and closed the door of the house, the sound of the rain getting louder and louder

I, who began to fear the lightning from the sky, was suddenly distracted again by the sound of crying

Looking around the room, and I realized the source of the sound was coming from the direction towards my room, I stepped back slowly while focusing my ears on the source of the sound. And the sound of rain rumbles again

Step by step I moved, when I arrived in front of the closed room door, the voice was getting clearer, I opened the room door slowly until it opened completely

Geekkkkk

The sound of the wooden door of the room when I slowly open it

Hu..hu..hu...hu

Clearly visible in the corner of the room straight from where I was standing, a girl who looked the same age as me was sitting on the floor bowing her head with her hands on her knees as a support for her head, her black hair flowing over her entire face.

I slowly approached his body, followed by the arm I slowly raised trying to pat his shoulder when he was close,

"papa" said the child in a unclear way because his head was still bowed

I who heard his words, stopped when one more step touched his shoulder

what's your name?" I said followed by the arm I put back down

"where's daddy?" reply the child is still the same body position

The girl seemed to be looking for his papa, and he also ignored my words. I'm trying to get close to that kid again

"what's your name?" I asked again followed by my approaching footsteps

When I was in front of him, I realized that his arms were like bruised blue, I lowered my eyes down, looking at his legs which were also bruised. Out of curiosity I intended to pat him on the shoulder again, raised my arm again trying to pat his shoulder, and when it touched his shoulder

"DAAAAaaarrrr.."

The sound of lightning that struck from outside was quite loud and startled me, the rumbling sound of rain and wind was getting louder

"where's daddy?" Say the girl back

"where is your papa?" I asked

"I don't know" she said

When I tried to ask again, suddenly a voice called out to me

*****

"kika"

"kika wake up"

I opened my eyes from my sleep, the voice was my mother who was sitting beside me patting my cheek to wake me up

"kika wake up kid it's already 7 o'clock" my mother said while pointing at the wall clock

"Come on, wake up, take a shower, today is Kika's birthday," my mother continued amd smiling at me who had opened my eyes.

Knowing I had woken up, then mother left the room leaving me, then I got up from my sleep feeling dizzy because of last night's dream while holding my head

I said " that dream again" while holding back a headache

The dream came again, before I had a dream with a girl some time ago with the same thing looking for her papa, but somehow today I dreamed again

Not wanting to think about it too much, I immediately lowered my feet under the floor from the mattress, rushed to take a shower, because today is my birthday

There are so many kinds of gifts that I can think of, but I wonder what special gift my parents will give me

*****

"happy birthday to you"

"happy birthday to you".

"We wish you a long life."

"Best wishes. Good health."

"Have a long healthy and happy life."

I heard everyone singing to me, I remember there was a grandmother, aunt and then aunt and uncle Yudi With his family and there was Uncle Risman and Uncle Shandy, then of course both parents who always remember when it's my birthday

Today I'm 7 years old, it's been about a year since we moved to this house, I don't care where I live as long as I stay with my mom and dad

The white dress I'm wearing and a crown like a princess from a kingdom adorn my head, the room is decorated with colorful balloons, pink and white curtains pinned to the wall add to the impression of a royal princess's room, my hands rest on the table in front of a birthday cake. pink and white

My lips can't wait to blow the candle out, not because of the taste of the cake I'm waiting for but the several gift boxes that have been neatly prepared for my gift

Fiuuuhhhh.

The sound of my blowing extinguished the candles, I smiled at everyone while clapping my hands with joy I couldn't wait to open the birthday present my parents gave me,

"Cut the cake."

"Cut the cake..."

"Cut the cake now.."

My mother took a cake knife and gave it to me, while her hand was guiding over mine so that the cake slices were neat, I gave the first piece to my mother, and the second piece to my father, then I hugged them both, and was greeted with a warm hug from them,

Very happy today, looking around the people who love me very much gathered together in this house,

Kriiinggg...kriiinggg......kriingggg...

The sound of the rotary telephone from the corner of the room ringing, I was still cutting the cake suddenly my eyes were distracted by the sound of the phone, then my mother stood up followed by releasing her hand, I was curious who was behind the phone

"let dad, help cut the cake" my dad said as he immediately put his hand on mine

My eyes returned to the cake that I had not finished distributing, piece by piece I put it on a small plate and then I distributed it to all my family, seeing them enjoy it made me even more happy

"uncle shandy, this call is for you" my mother said

My gaze was again distracted by my mother's voice calling for my father's brother

Then uncle shandy stood up and stepped towards the phone, I saw him talking to my mother before answering the phone, then my uncle turned his gaze to me before picking up the phone, it seemed that the chat was very serious judging from the movements of om shandy who suddenly straightened his body while taking a deep breath

"kika now 7 years old, that means my girl will be going to school soon, well,  kika will have a lot of friends there," my father said

Dad's voice startled me who had been staring at my uncle's conversation, then I turned my gaze to my father, because I was happy to have a new friend I nodded my head with a smile, seeing my happy smile made my father reply with a warm hug

"dady have a gift for kika, wait a minute okey" my dad said as he let go of his hug

Happiness came to me again, I was waiting for a gift so impatient to open it, my father went to get a gift box

"how are you dear? like the cake?" said my mother from beside me

"Yeah, it's sweet, i like it" answer me

"finish the cake, don't forget to brush your teeth later, or you'll have holes in your teeth" my mother joked while pinching my cheeks

******

(In my room)

"Auntie, keep it here the gift okey" my aunt said with a gift in her hand

"Yes, you can keep it on the table" reply me while pointing at the study table

My birthday event is over, I am happy with a small smile because I brought some gifts from the main room to my room by running, assisted by my aunt to lift some gifts

"there are so many gifts" my aunt said while smiling at me

With joy I can't wait to open the gifts one by one, some gift wraps are covered with colorful wrapping paper plus ribbons in the middle, making it look more attractive

"Come on, aunty help you take the gift again" my aunt continued while pulling my arm

My aunt and I walked into the main room to take some of the remaining gifts, guided by my left arm by his right arm followed by my legs which jumped up and down as we walked,

From the main room, you can see uncle shandy with mom and dad chatting, but I'm focused on the gift my dad is holding

"here, kika bring this one, let me bring a heavy gift" my aunt said while giving me a light gift

Aunt's words made me avert my eyes, I immediately approached her and took the gift, the gift was quite light and thin, I thought this was a dress

While the gift that is in my arms, my eyes look at the gift box if there is anything left, after looking around it turns out this is the last gift here except the one my father holds, not wanting to wait too long I ran to my room

"heyyy, don't run run kika..!!!" said my aunt who immediately chased

I put the gifts directly on the study table to see quite a few gifts,

"Which gift do you want to open first?" said my aunt who just entered

I was quite confused to choose, while looking at each gift one by one,

"this one"  i say with pointing at the gift my aunt brought

"this? Come on, let's open the gift, aunty help you," reply to my aunt while giving the gift

I put the gift on the floor because it's quite heavy for me, I tear paper after paper

Sreekkk.Sreekkk..Sreekk....(Paper tearing sound)

Apart from all the paper that covered the gift, I saw the chocolate box where my gift was in it, I opened the box and pulled it inside, and it turned out to be a toy for cooking food.

"this is a gift from ...... aunt Nirmala" said my aunt while reading a birthday greeting from my aunt

"yeee soon kika want to be a great chef!!!!" i shouted

A few days ago while playing in the yard, my aunt saw and approached me who was playing cooking with my mother, the stove was made of several bricks and a frying pan from next to plywood, also leaves as ingredients for cooking,

Maybe that's why my aunt gave this gift, 1 complete package of cooking utensils made of plastic

"well... you wants to be a great chef, try to tell aunt what the name of the tool" says my aunt who tried to challenge me

I confidently mention each cooking utensil one by one

"this is a frying pan, this is a pot, this is a stove, then this is a spoon and fork.."

"and this...." I said that for some reason seemed confused and silent

"knife" my aunt said while looking at me

"This is for cutting food, cutting Kika's favorite chicken meat" my aunt continued, while pinching my cheek

My aunt often cooks food at home with the help of my grandmother, sometimes I help her prepare ingredients, especially when making my favorite food

"what is this?" I asked with the cookware I just saw

"this is called a spatula for frying spices" my aunt replied while practicing how to cook like a chef in a funny way

My aunt's behavior makes me laugh, she does quite often make me smile because of her friendly nature to anyone even a small child like me

Finished looking at the gift from my aunt, then I was curious about the gift I brought earlier, then I asked my aunt to get the gift

"this gift?" said my aunt by lifting her gift

"Yuppp, that one that Kika brought" I replied while nodding my head

The gift was also given to me, sitting on the floor I tried to open the paper that wrapped the gift

Sreekkk.sreekkkk..sreekkkk.

I tore paper after paper, until I saw a plastic wrapped around the clothes, I opened the plastic and then I took the clothes

"what dress is this?" I asked

"emmm.oh it's ballet clothes" my aunt replied confidently

"ballet? It's the ballet that dances on the stage, right?"

"but....kika never dancing at home" I said in confused

I was quite surprised by the gift of this dress, I, who was never interested in ballet, was suddenly given a ballet outfit complete with shoes, 

"who is this from?" I asked

"eeemmmm waitt.. i reads the paper first" my aunt said while taking a piece of paper

"for dear kika

happy 7th birthday sweatyy

May you live long and be more beautiful

I hope the gift from me is liked by kika"

-your uncle, shandy

"this gift from your uncle, uncle shandy" my aunt said

I who just nodded while looking at her clothes, was quite happy, maybe uncle gave this to me if there was a ballet extracurricular at school

Without wanting to linger in astonishment, I pushed aside the gift from my uncle, and went back to looking for the gift I wanted to open next. I close my distance with gifts while looking for interesting gifts

"kikaaa, why don't you open a gift with mama? said my mother at the door of the room suddenly

His call made me turn around, I saw there stood my father and mom

"Mama talked to uncle Shandy for a long time", I answered while frowning

"sorry my dear, it was important "my mom said while pinching my cheek

"okay now, dad want to give a gift?" my mother said

I who was excited while jumping and jumping can't wait to open the gift my parents gave me

"now there is a dady and mom, aunt wants to cook Kika's favorite food for your brithday", said my aunt while leaving us in the room

Then my gaze focused on dad's arm hidden behind his back, I had thought it must be a gift

"so where's the gift for kika?" I said 

"Can't wait to open the gift?" my dad said with a smile

"tadaa!!!" said my mother's father while giving the gift

"yeeee thanks dad, thanks mom" I said while clapping my hands and jumping a little because I was happy

"Now open the gift" my father said

I took the gift and then sat back down, the same thing I did with the previous gift, which was to open the wrapping paper, the gift was in the shape of a medium box and covered with white paper with a pink ribbon binding it.

Sreekkk.Sreeekkkkk..Sreeekkkk

Paper after paper I tear, my parents just look at me smiling in front of me

"Woahhhhh teddy bear..!!!!" I said while hugging the brown doll

"so... do you like the gift?" my mother said

"YESSS..., Kika likes cute dolls" I replied while nodding happily

Seeing what was really happy, then mother and father looked at each other and sat beside me as if there would be something to talk about

"what do you want to name the doll?" my mother said while stroking my hair

Hearing that question made me pause and think of a suitable name, at first it was really confusing to find a name, and then I remembered a name but I forgot where and who when I heard the name, I heard it repeatedly in my head

Without thinking long I decided to use that name, a name I forgot where it came from, who gave it that name and for some reason hoped to meet the owner of that name.

"kika..? What name do you want to give" my father said who saw me suddenly fell silent

"ummm, I want to give this doll name Lala" I said confidently while stroking the doll's head

"the name is cute like kika" my mom joked

When I was playing with my teddy bear, my mom and dad sounded like they were whispering to each other, I didn't want to listen too much it was just something important

"so... kika listen" my dad said like his faces was scared

"about kika's school, ermmm. Looks like Kika's school at home, okay? continue my father

Hearing that I stopped playing with my doll and felt a little sad because I couldn't meet new friends,

"But why ? is kika not smart?" I said while it was dad's face

"no... not like that, Kika is smart, but the distance between school and home is far, so mom and dad are afraid, we won't something happen with you" answer my mom

"but , at school kika will have a friends" answer me try to defending

"Yes we know it, but mom and dad are far away from you my dear" my dad said

"how about the school then?" I asked while putting on a sad face

"Kika can still go to school my dear, but.. you will study at home and your teacher gonna comes here" my mother said

"if you school at home, you always can be close with daddy and mom, okey?" my father continued while seducing

Having many friends is something I want to have, since this house I have no friends except my family, because the neighbor's house is quite far if I walk and I am still too kids to walk alone

I can't do anything and can only agree with the wishes of my parents to decide to study at home, in my opinion always being close to my parents is one important thing. Then I said to agree, my mom and dad smiled happily at my answer

"well.. mommy and dad will let you alone with you all gifts", mom said

"Let's just play with Lala okey" Mom continues by leaving my room

The two of them left my room, I was still sad because I couldn't go to school with new friends, I could only play with this teddy bear I named Lala, I saw some gift boxes were still neatly wrapped on the table, a decision that made me unable to have friends. just made me lazy to see the contents of the prize

Then I stood up and climbed into my bed with Lala in my arms, it seemed like Lala would be my only friend now, sitting on the mattress with the doll I was still stroking, asking myself a little why did parents make such a sudden decision?

Was it because of the telephone conversation with uncle shandy earlier? so I can't go to school and make new friends? Then who is the person behind the phone?