This Feeling
577 Words
It was weird how I could feel things newly around these two most importantly it was an unknown feeling that I was surrounded with.I stopped feeling things years ago specially feelings like this.I thank the boys and ask them for their mail address and they gave it to me like I asked them for a pen or anything usual, they didn't ask me why I wanted their mail address they just simply handed me that.I parked my car in the garage and dropped one of the bags that I bought.And suddenly I could see a pair of hands picking them up for me giving me the most warmest smile that made me smile as well.This is my first genuine smile after they were gone.I looked up and saw Mrs Wanis our next door neighbor she lives alone probably in her 50 s but somehow looks younger.She had short black hair and bright blue eyes. I like chit chatting with her even though we had nothing in common other than having dead people in our family."I just picked up daisies from my garden and they reminded me of you I was heading toward your place to give you these"she says with a smile that meets her eyes.I smiled at her back and said "you make me happy Mrs Wanis,you do".I didn't ask her for her mailing address as she is our neighbor. "You look beautiful when you smile you should smile often" she says handing me the daisies and then she left, her heels clattering.
I see aunt Marie knitting and watching TV as if it's an extreme sport. "Honey! I made noodle casserole for you"she said without looking at me in the eyes.I honestly hate noodles but I will eat them anyway.I take the tray of noodle casserole in my room planning my escape mission.
I decide the places I am supposed to visit and my one and only final destination.I write my aunt and uncle a letter because I don't want them to think me as a brat that they so neglected.
Dear aunt and uncle,
If you are reading this letter I want you to know I am more than grateful for what you have done for me you guys literally did so much for me and I know I cannot never ever repay you.The world is small and sometimes we fail to express ourselves the way we want to and this is what it is.I am sorry for leaving you guys without any clue but I was miserable alive and I am miserable dead.I am going on a country tour and I will be dead by the end of it.You guys tried your best and you were the best uncle and aunt I mean I can't even deal with myself which is why I have taken this decision.I am sorry to end it like this.
Love Vanessa.
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