Last Three Letters

I pack my luggage with all my good clothes.I pack my mother's green floral t-shirt as a souvenir from a life I never had the chance to live.I pick my passport and put it in my hand bag,get ready to go to retail to buy some essentials.It's weird how our essentials change under different circumstances and ages years ago my essentials would have been a lip tint, perfume and my all time favorite teddy and now it's my medicines,towel and a travel bag.Funny how I have thrown away all those things that mattered so much to me only because they reminded me of things that I didn't wanted to reminisce,does that make me selfish?throwing away memories because I want to feel better.Maybe when I will be dead people will remember me as the girl who never gave a damn about people, feelings and memories or maybe as the girl who never loved her parents.But it's not true none of these things are true I am not even true.I wanted kindness from people but I think I am not worthy of that because kindness comes with a heavy price. I parked my car and went inside retail Ail and Alson greeted me with a smile as usual.They are twin brothers and work here.They are both sophomores which probably means they are my age.Although they are not really alike I mean Ail has deep green eyes and sharp features also he is basketball tall whereas Alson is just Alson he is obviously good looking but not in a very describe able way.He has hazel eyes but it isn't just that there's more to him things that you can't figure out instantly for an instance you could look at Ail and assume so many things but with Alson you can't just assume things right away which is why I liked talking to him more.I wish I could be like him because when people look at me I bet they can figure out that I am miserable.I was so lost into my thoughts that I didn't notice I was scratching the scar on my right hand. ''Vanessa,are you alright?"Ail asked me in a serious tone "I am fine" I say in a feeble way that made me sound like a rat Alson came rushing with an anti septic and rubbed it on my hand without saying anything." You don't want to get infected" he looked at me and smiled.I was more than grateful to these brothers I felt a warm feeling a feeling that I haven't felt in ages.