TOXIC OBSESSION

FEEL AT HOME

PRESENT

"Breakfast?" Lian questioned himself, how could he have breakfast? for crying out loud he didn't know where the hell he was and to make things worst; he was with Cobi of all people, he slowly opened the door and he stepped back into the world he knew, the inside of the house was just the exact replica of his home.

He observed everything closely Cobi got every details right.

Beside his TV was a painting hanging only Lian knew the reason for the painting , it was because the wall of that particular spot was spoiled by Nickolas when he was drunk and he didn't have the time to fix it so he covered it up with the painting.

He walked towards the direction of the painting and pulled it down, the exact mark was on this wall as well.

He reached out his hands to the cabinet on the side stand of the draw and he saw his picture book and other document just the way he left them.

How did Cobi know about this? the manner in which Cobi remade the house bugged him and Cobi hardly entered his new house, so how did he pull this off.

Lian needed answers, he walked into the kitchen, Cobi was almost done with breakfast, Lian just stood by the door and watched the younger man who was busy in his own world; the fact that they were far from the world gave Cobi some sort of peace.

"Cobi!" Lian called out

"Why aren't you dressed yet or don't you want to shower before breakfast?" Cobi asked innocently like nothing was wrong as he saw Lian wearing the same clothes from earlier knowing well he loves to shower before a meal.

"Why did you remake my house here?" Lian asked in a low tone ignoring Cobi's question.

"Well, if you must know I did it to make you feel more at home, I didn't want us to live in an uncomfortable or unfamiliar environment" he added as he set the last plate of food on the dinner table that was inside the kitchen.

"Feel at home?" Lian asked trying to stay calm, he was in the middle of God knows where, without any explanation and he was being told to feel at home?

"Hmm yes, why? don't you like it?" Cobi asked, getting a hint of disgust from Lian's tune.

"Like it? are you seriously asking me that question right now?" his voice begin to increase indicating that he was getting more pissed by the minute.

"I don't like your tune"

"Lovely just lovely, tell me something how did you know about the burns on the wall?"

"Well let's simply say I know everything about you" he said winking at Lian causing him to cuss.

"Now can we eat" he added with a hint of excitement in his voice

"Eat? Eat what?" Lian asked as he walked towards Cobi.

"Food, Lian food" Cobi replied as he took a sit on the table.

"I don't want your food, I want to go home now" Lian shouted.

"Have a sit, you're Home" Cobi said as he put his food in his mouth but was stopped by the sound of Lian throwing the chair to the floor.

Cobi was trying his best to control himself because it was Lian, the same Lian from 4 years ago.

"Lian, can we just not do this? you know how I get when I'm angry, please" Cobi said with a smile still fighting the urge of the anger he felt.

"Then take me home" Lian replied, he also wasn't ready to back down, who wouldn't anyways, if you opened your eyes to find out you were not in your house nor anywhere familiar, of course you wouldn't be comfortable and not to mention he was with Cobi. Cobi on the other hand just smiled as the got up from his sit.

"Sit down now, I wouldn't say it again" Cobi said in a very intimidating low tone.

"No" Lian said

"Alright then" Cobi grabbed Lian by his arm in a rough manner

"Listen to me, you don't want to see me get mad right now Lian, the angel you see is better than the devil sleeping inside. Don't let me bring him out!!" he added as he squeezed Lian's arm harder.

Lian saw that look that was so familiar in Cobi's eyes , he knew if he did anything more than this Cobi will loose it and hurt himself.

"I want you to sit down and eat” he added as he finally let go of Lian's arm, Lian groaned in pain.

"Sorry I didn't mean to hurt you, you didn't just want to listen, I'm sorry". Cobi apologize as he used his hand to run through his hair.

Lian didn't argue anymore he just sat down and shoved the food in his mouth with tears running down his eyes.

Cobi saw the stream of tears and realized he had messed up big time, all he wanted was for Lian to understand.

"Lian, I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you I was just mad, I'm sorry. Could you stop crying you'll choke on your food please" Lian sobs became loud because he felt Cobi changed totally from the Cobi he knew, the always teasing, smiling young man from 4 years ago.

Cobi stood up from where he sat and took a sit beside Lian holding him hands "I'm sorry, please forgive me" he tried comforting him but Lian just pulled his hands from Cobi's grip and continued sobbing and putting the food in his mouth.

Cobi held Lian so he would stop, but Lian struggled with him.

"Stop right now you're acting childish, stop it, do you want to choke?" Cobi yelled out hoping he could stop Lian from what he was doing.

"Just let me go home please" Lian said looking into Cobi's eyes. "Running wouldn't solve anything, please" Lian was trying to reach out to Cobi but he just couldn't.

Cobi knew very well that they couldn't go back, his father wouldn't let Lian live and this was the only way he thought of keeping him safe.

"I can't, finish your food and go take a shower, I'm going to get thing we need, I'll be back" Cobi answered as he walked out of the kitchen.

Lian was left alone again to his thoughts, he got up from the dinner table and walked back to his room, his head was in a million places all at once. He opened the door, and walked straight towards the bed, as soon as his back touched the bed. Tear ran down his face, this wasn't what he wanted.

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Lian opened up his eye he wasn't in his room anymore he was lying outside under the clear sky beside a lake; in front of a building,

"Lian please save me! Lian please save me, Lian!!!" a familiar voice called out from the building.

"Anne!" he got up immediately and ran toward the building.

"Anne!! Anne!!!" he called out but there was no more response, he ran into different sections of the house, the cries started becoming louder than before.

"Help me please" Lian increased his speed in looking for her, he Finally got to the room and opened the door, there laid Anne in her own pool of blood

"No! No!! Nooo!! Anne please wake up" Lian cried out as he held her in his arms

"It's your fault Lian" a voice spoke out

"It's your fault she died" another voice continued

"it's all your fault you killed her" another voice cried out,

"You killed her" the voices multiplied and kept in unison, Lian covered his ears with his hands trying not to listen to what were been said.

"Lian!" a very familiar voice called out in the mist of it all, it was Cobi.

"Lian! wake up, Lian!!, Lian!!!"

Lian jumped, opening his eyes almost immediately it was all a dream, he dreamt about Anne. He threw his arm around Cobi and hugged him tightly.

"It was my fault, it's all my fault, I'm the reason she died" he cried intensely.

"It's alright and its not your fault" Cobi tried to console Lian.