PROVE ME WRONG, ALLEN

CHAPTER 15

** BECCA’S POINT OF VIEW **

“Same dare!” Zach shouted beside me and takes a large swig before handing the bottle of vodka over. I’m annoyed by them drinking from the same bottle, but it’s disgusting really. Drink after drink, I wince and wipe the burning liquid from my lips. My eyes blur, and I can feel the heat from my cheeks. I look lost and off balance, even when sitting down. I lifts the bottle to my lips again and Allen find my hand grasping the bottle, pulling it from me.

I looked into his eyes as if I’m looking to his soul.

I don't understand why I have to justify myself to everyone. They looked surprised when I told them that I'm not a virgin. But? Who are they to judge? Hindi naman nila alam ang kwento ko at wala rin sa vocabulary ko na ipangalandakan ang buong detalye ng buhay ko. For what reason? They won’t believe me. Same reason when my mom turn her back at me.

I saw in Allen eyes… he was disappointed. Ni hindi nga makatingin si Ethan sa mga mata ko dahil sa mga sinabi ko kanina. Do they find me disgusting? Eh, ilang babae nga ang naikama nila pero hindi naman sila nakaramdam ng pandidiri sa kanila di ba? So, why bother?

“I think you’ve had enough.” I didn’t listen to Allen and grab my hand back to get the bottle of vodka and have another drink.

“I can’t believe you have never been drunk before, Becca. It’s fun, right?” Camille asked. I giggled as response.

“Allen, truth or dare?” napalingon kami sa dereksyon ni Maxine na ngayon ay seryosong nakatitig kay Allen. Now my attention back to Allen that was standing near to me. God! Am I drunk? Ganito pala ang pakiramdam nito. ‘Yung hindi mo mapigilan ang sarili mo na ngumiti kahit na gustong-gusto mong umiyak sa hindi maipaliwanag na dahilan. Juzko! Parang maiiyak ako kaya pilit kong kinakalma ang sarili ko.

“Dare.” He response without looking at Maxine.

“I dare you…..” tiningnan ko si Maxine na ngayon ay nakatingin na rin sa dereksyon ni Ethan. Wait? Hindi pa rin ba siya nakakamove-on sa dalawa? “to kiss Becca.” I gasped as she continued. The hell? Kung gusto niyang lumandi bakit kailangang idamay niya pa ako? God! My head hurts!

“No!” I said quickly without hearing the response from Allen. Allergy ako kay sir Allen lalo pa at nakikita ko kung sino-sinong babae ang kinakama nito. Isa pa, anak siya ng amo ko. It’s a big NO. “I can’t and I woudn’t.”

“It is just a dare, Becca. Just do it.” Maxine says, picking at her nails. Anong medjas ba ang hinithit ng babaeng ‘to at talagang kami pa talaga ni Allen ang nakita niya. To think na alam niya na amo ko si Allen at katulong nila ako. What’s the point? Gusto niya lang bang makita ang magiging reaksyon ni Allen? Why f*ck him if you don’t want to keep him? Mas pinapasakit lang nila ang ulo ko.

“Don’t forse her to do it –“ Ethan interupted. Thanks God! Akala ko ay nakatulog na si Ethan sa tabi ko at para bang hindi ko siya ramdam ngayon. Tila ba parang wala siya sa kanyang sarili.

“Shut up, m*ron!”

“I’m not kissing anyone here.” I stopped them. Ayokong mag away sila lalo pa at ang tanging mission ko ngayon ay magkabati sila at ibalik ang dating Allen. Paano ko nga ba gagawin ‘yun eh hindi ko naman person na kilala si Allen noon?! Darn it. Do I have to think now? It’s not working!

I stand up and walk away from them.

** THIRD PERSON POINT OF VIEW **

Allen take a drink of his water and watch Becca disappear out of the front door. She was looking at him all night, staring at his shirtless chest, yet she was so disgusted by the thought of kissing him that she would throw a fit and run away? Allen thought.

He don’t understand himself. Gusto niyang subukan ang talino ni Becca pero sa tuwing natatalo niya ito ay gustong-gusto niya itong yakapin at hindi na pakawalan pa. Cheezy but that what he really felt awhile ago.

Sa mga nakaraang lingo ay napapansin niya si Becca sa mansion, sa eskwelahan, sa canteen at kahit saang sulok ng pinupuntahan niya. Kahit sa kalagitnaan ng pakikipag sipping niya sa ibang babae ay nakikita niya si Becca sa kanyang isipan. He can’t take it anymore. He wants to taste her, savour every inch of her and enjoy the pleasure he can get from her. Sa isipan ng binata na baka sa oras na masatisfy siya ni Becca ay hihinto rin itong nararamdaman niya.

‘Well, she had an experience. Maybe I can ask one from it.’ He almost punched himself for thinking such thing but at the same time, he’s enjoying the thought of being inside her.

“Where are you going, honey?” Maxine wraps her hand around his arm as he get up off the floor.

“I’ll get some more water. I’ll go home in a minute.” He look down into his nearly full cup, wondering, but not giving a sh*t if she notices or not. He wants to go and look for Becca.

He glance around the room, passing through the crowd while searching for that white dress and brown curly hair. He was searching when he found Becca standing at the counter, lost, and a bottle of beer in her hands. She lifts the bottle and he can feel the familiar ache of need in the back of his throat.

“We’re leaving..” he grabbed her hands saka naman nagpaubaya ang dalaga dahil pakiramdam nito ay para na siyang lumulutang.

“My head hurts..” bulong ni Becca, “I think I wanna throw up.” Mabuti na lang at malapit lang sila sa CR at mabilis na pinasok ni Allen si Becca sa loob ng isang bakanteng cubicle at pinwesto niya ito at hinanda para sa pagsuka nito pero ilang sandali pa ay wala man lang kibo ang dalaga. Tiningnan ni Allen si Becca ngunit nakapikit na ang mga mata nito animoy nakatulog habang nakatayo at pagewang-gewang.

“Hey, hey! Wake up!” hinawakan ni Allen ang mukha ng dalaga para gisingin ito pero nanatiling nakatayo ang dalaga habang nakapikit ang mata. Napatitig si Allen sa mukha ng dalaga. Wala siyang pakialam kahit nasa loob siya ng restroom ng mga babae dahil ang nasa isip niya lang ngayon ay ang maamong mukha ng talaga. Tanging sila lang ni Becca ang nasa loob ng cubicle at kahit hindi niya man gusto itong maramdaman ay kusang nag init ang kanyang katawan.

“You’re so beautiful..” parang narinig siya ng dalaga at dahan-dahan nitong dinilat ang kanyang mga mata at eksaktong nagtama ang paninigin nila. She’s really drunk na para bang hindi ito ang Becca na palaban sa harapan niya.

“You too.” Gustong matawa ni Allen sa naging response ni Becca ngunit nagulat ito ng pinatong nito ang kanyang dalawang kamay sa leeg ng binata kaya mas lalong naging malapit ang mukha nila. Napalunok si Allen ng mas naaninag niya ang mukha ni Becca. She’s really beautiful without make-up, idagdag pa ang matataas at mahabang pilikmata nito, ang kanyang matangos na ilong at ang natural na kulot sa dulo ng buhok nito. Bumaba ang tingin ng binata sa katawan ng dalaga. Ngayon lang niya napagtanto na magkadikit na pala ang katawan nila habang ang kamay niya ay nakahawak sa bewang ng dalaga.

Napalunok si Allen ng makita niyang ngumiti si Becca animoy isang inosenteng tuta na nakangiti sa kanyang amo.

“Kiss me.” Bulong ni Becca at bago pa man makasagot si Allen ay mabilis na lumapat ang labi ni Becca sa kanyang mga labi. Sa sobrang gulat ay nanatili pang nakadilat ang kanyang mga mata saka unti-unti niya itong pinikit at sinabayan ang halik ng dalaga.

He can still taste the alcohol inside her mouth. ‘God! It’s not me!’ Hindi niya ugaling mag take advantage sa mga babae lalo na pag lasing. Mas gusto niyang naalala ng mga babae niya ang ginawa nila at mas lalong gusto niya nasa tamang wisyo sila habang ginagawa ito. Ngunit iba ang nararamdaman niya ngayon. He’s enjoying it and he don’t know if he can still find the urge to stop this kind of feeling.

‘I’m drowning, Becca. And its all because of you.. Darn the off limit thingy. It doesn’t matter now.’ He said to himself.