9 Nova The next few days I did only the basics for Astor, keeping as much distance between us as I could. But no matter how much space I put between us, I couldn’t stop thinking about him and what he wanted. I kept finding myself grabbing my laptop to learn more and more about the world of submissive and dominant couples. While some articles made me feel sick, there were others that I actually found…intriguing. And I found out that I actually had many submissive traits. I figured that must be what had made Astor proposition me—he’d picked up on my naturally submissive tendencies. At first, I felt like something must be wrong with me. Why did I have this urge to please nearly everyone? But then I thought about how my life had been since day one, and it all made sense to me. I’d grown up

