The broken girl

Chapter 1 Who knew living in a large family would be my reason to be broken? Each day of tears and being miserable. The emotional abuse I got, the words I got, and the comparison I got  Every morning to every night, 365days  Chapter 2  I lived with my family I never knew my father because he was a very busy man and rumors said that he ran away  My family would let me do the house chores such as; cleaning, preparing water to go to work and school They would call me names and tell me how I'm like my father “useless”   I would cook for them even when I have lots of schoolwork to complete  They never cared. They would tell me I would never make it  I do not deserve to be in school, I should just stay at home and care for the house.  I would sometimes wonder why my own family wouldn't want the best for me but the worst for me   I would cry every night, time went by and I grew up being the one they would send around. Go fetch water for me I want to drink  Go take a toothpick for me, do this do that and I hate it.   I would sometimes imagine how the life I would have. If I was leaving with my father and most of the time I would end up crying Chapter 3  Times were hard I was in matric and I started to get out late at school because of the afternoon classes. My family started physically abusing me and thought that I was dating I became used to the abuse and began to date everything was fine but I would never talk about my family and what I was going through. I was always getting lower marks. And everyone would tease me and no one wanted to be my friend.  Until one day I was caught by my uncle kissing my boyfriend  My uncle went home and told my mother and grandmother about it by the time I reached him I found my staff outside; the clothes, books everything that belonged to me   The gate was locked  As I began to remember the pain, the abuse, the r**e it was too much. As I sat there wondering where I would go crying. My classmates who were the popular girls saw me there. They started laughing and took videos  Started sending them all over  Eventually, my boyfriend saw the videos, came and took me  As I was going with him I looked once again at the house while walking and tears started to roll down my cheeks Chapter 4  As I entered his home the family warm-heartedly welcomed me and I stayed there    My marks started to improve because I had enough time to complete my school work on time and started to listen.  Although all was fine, something was eating me inside, I was scared to talk about it and only my brother's boyfriend noticed that because he could see spiritually and feel  He called me once to talk to him I just stared at him and said nothing. I ran to the room I slept in and I cried myself to sleep for at least hours   I texted my boyfriend and told him I wanted to talk with him   I am now ready to talk  He was busy studying so I went back to sleep  (Hours later ) Chapter 5  My boyfriend came and woke me up I looked straight into his eyes and wanted to cry. He held me tight and told me to open up to him   I was scared, really I was     I started to look aside and began by saying I was r***d  He become quiet I started to panic and he told me to relax and I looked at him. I began to shake he went out and I started to cry and started to overthink. He came back with a glass of water and his brother with tears in his eyes.  He held me and we both looked at each other for a few minutes as he gave me a glass of water  He asked me to continue  I did so as I said I was r***d by my uncle and nobody believed me, they told him and they made a big joke and laughed about it  That night he came again and r***d me  I became weak and hopeless in my family. They would emotionally and physically abuse me as I said I was chased out because my uncle saw me with you(looking at the boyfriend ) they would tell me I don't deserve to go to school just to be home and be a slave do the house chores   After talking I was weak and I had to study because the next day I was writing a formal task  They ask me what was wrong, I told them I didn't know  I started to shake  As my boyfriend went to look for help from his parents  The brother asked when did the r**e happen I told him a few years ago and I fainted  I woke up in hospital. I was confused I stay there looking at the white ceiling  I saw my mother's boyfriend enter the room   Ohh good you are awake with a smile, she said  I looked at her and smiled back  The doctor came and told me that my body needed iron and said many, things which I didn't listen to because I went deep into my thoughts  I went home(boyfriends home) and. l I was told to go and sleep and I did as I was told  (Hours later ) Chapter 6 My boyfriend arrived e and he woke me up and we hugged. He told me he loved me and nothing will change that we looked at each other's eyes  He then surprisingly said " talk to me"  I asked how know I wanted to talk? he smiled and said I can see it in your eyes I smiled and t d him that I needed a physiologist but I didn't want to be a bother to your family. He smiled and said I was sent to ask you that question  We both. Smiled about it we won't want the room holding hands and he took me to the sitting room. As he went back to the room to change then and I back We ate the land I drank my pills  I went to study and made some catch ups  The next day I went to school, wrote my two least papers and I managed to see a physiologist    (January)  results came out I went to live overseas and years later my un passed on while I was overseas. I went back to where the pain started. And found my family there they were happy to see me I just looked at them with a broken and teary face. I ask them only one question   Why the pain?  But no one bothered to answer  I look at them once more and the house once more  I smiled at them and told them that the next day I will be coming early in the morning and can any one accompany me to my uncle's grave  The next day I did so.  I told him that I am letting go of the pain and forgiving him, not for him but for for me cause am holding my happiness and blessings  All is forgiven  I went back to the family said the same words and had lunch with them  Got married to the person who was with me throughout and went back overseas and all  Our families came with us.  Though some stayed behind