Chapter 1 – Pool party with my stepdad 1
The house felt different the second Mom’s car pulled out of the driveway.
I sat at the kitchen island in nothing but one of his old dark-gray T-shirts, the hem barely brushing the tops of my thighs, watching Marcus rinse his coffee mug at the sink. Forty-two. Broad shoulders that filled out every shirt he owned. Dark hair going silver at the temples. The quiet strength in his forearms when he turned the faucet off. The man I had been slowly, carefully losing my mind over for the better part of a year.
He turned and caught me staring.
“You okay?” he asked, voice low and even.
“Yeah.” I stood. The shirt rode higher against my skin. “Just quiet without her.”
His eyes dropped for half a second—just long enough for me to notice—before he forced them back to my face. I saw the flicker. The same one I’d been collecting like secrets: every time I stretched on the living-room floor while he watched TV, every time I “accidentally” brushed against him in the hallway, every time I wore something a little too thin around the house after Mom had gone to bed.
“I’ve got work in the office,” he said carefully. “You need anything?”
I stepped closer. Close enough to catch the faint trace of his cologne mixed with coffee. My pulse was already loud in my ears.
“Actually… can I ask you something?”
He waited, jaw tight.
“Do you ever think about what it would be like if it was just us?”
“Ava.”
“I’m serious.” My voice stayed soft, almost gentle. “She’s gone for ten days. We could—”
“Stop.” The word came out low and final. “You’re my stepdaughter.”
“I’m nineteen. I’m not a kid.”
He looked past me toward the hallway like he needed an escape route. “I’m going to work. We’ll talk later if you still want to discuss boundaries.”
He walked past me. His shoulder brushed mine—warm, solid, gone too fast. Heat shot straight down my stomach and settled between my legs.
I stood frozen in the kitchen long after the office door clicked shut. The silence of the house pressed in around me. Ten full days. No Mom. No sudden interruptions. No excuses left.
It hadn’t always been this quiet.
Three nights ago I had tried. Really tried.
Mom had been downstairs finishing a call with her assistant about the trip. I had walked into the upstairs hallway in a thin tank top and sleep shorts, hair still damp from the shower. Marcus was coming out of the master bedroom, towel around his neck, fresh from his own shower. The hallway light caught the water still beading on his collarbone.
I stopped in front of him, close enough that the heat of his body reached me.
“Can’t sleep,” I murmured.
He looked down at me. For a second his eyes lingered on the damp fabric clinging to my chest. I saw him notice. I saw the way his throat moved when he swallowed.
“You should try,” he said, voice rougher than usual.
I reached out and touched the edge of the towel at his neck, fingers brushing warm skin. “Maybe I need help.”
His hand came up—almost—like he might cover mine. Then the sound of Mom’s footsteps on the stairs froze us both. He stepped back so fast it felt like a slap. Mom appeared at the top of the stairs, phone still in her hand, smiling the tired smile of someone who had no idea what she had just interrupted.
“Everything okay up here?”
“Fine,” Marcus said, already turning away. “Just heading to bed.”
I had gone back to my room, closed the door, and sat on the edge of the mattress with my heart slamming against my ribs. So close. So f*****g close. And then she had been there, and the moment shattered.
Now she was gone for ten days.
I went upstairs, locked my bedroom door, and sat on the edge of the bed. The T-shirt still smelled faintly like him. I pulled it over my head and dropped it on the floor, leaving myself in nothing but plain white cotton panties.
My hand slid down without thinking.
I was already soaked. I bit my lip as my fingers found my c**t, circling slowly at first, then harder. In my head it was his hand. His thicker fingers. His mouth. His weight pinning me to this exact mattress. I imagined him opening the door right now, seeing me like this, not walking away. I imagined the look on his face when he realized I had been touching myself thinking about him.
“Marcus…” His name slipped out on a shaky breath. Louder. “f**k… Marcus—”
My thighs trembled. I pushed two fingers inside myself, curling them the way I wanted him to, chasing the edge with his name on my tongue. The wet sound of it filled the quiet room. I kept going, hips lifting off the bed, free hand fisted in the sheets. When I came it was sharp and sudden, a broken moan muffled against the pillow, his name still spilling out of me in pieces.
Afterward I lay still, staring at the ceiling, chest rising and falling hard. The aftershocks left me shaky and empty in the best way.
Ten days.
I reached for my phone on the nightstand and opened the group chat with Lila and Sophie.
**Me:** Mom’s gone. House is ours. Pool party this weekend?
**Lila:** Hell yes. About time.
**Sophie:** Your stepdad gonna be home?
**Me:** Yeah. I’ll invite him. He needs to loosen up.
I smiled at the screen, then stood and looked at myself in the full-length mirror. Flushed cheeks. Dark hair messy from the pillow. Faint nail marks on my own thighs. The wet spot on my panties still cooling against my skin.
Tonight I would try again. Something smaller. Harder to refuse.
I opened my drawer and pulled out a pair of soft gray sweatpants that sat low on my hips and a plain white bra—nothing fancy, no lace, just the ordinary everyday one. No shirt over it. Nothing dramatic. Just enough skin. Just enough suggestion. The kind of thing I could claim was accidental if he called me on it.
I left my hair down, still a little messy, and went downstairs barefoot. The hallway felt longer than usual. My heart was steady but loud.
I stopped outside the office door and knocked once.
“Marcus? Can I come in?”
Silence for a second. Then the low scrape of his chair.
“Yeah,” he called. “Come in.”
I turned the handle and stepped inside, already deciding exactly how close I was going to stand.