Sunshine

Not edited. But Enjoy. Milan remembers every single detail about growing up, maybe because every part contributed to the growth of the woman she became. Obviously, she was just a kid but just like every other female child developing in this very world, she was expected to do a lot. Expectations really; you have to act like this, sit like this, do not wear that, do not eat much... It was too much because she was after all only a child who came to this world like every other person hoping to just have fun while it lasts but apparently that wasn't the case, at all. At the age of five, she already knew not to allow a boy close because she wouldn't like the aftermath. She was not taught that way, no, but the reactions around her. She wasn't dumb, she understood when people made expressions. She knew what they wanted her to do or what they considered was norms of the society. Funny, she appeared so little but she already lived an additional 10 years of her life. She flinch anytime the opposite gender gets too close. She was forced to learn how to be smart or she become the victim of something a little girl shouldn't have to know about. It wasn't fair. She had no childhood. It was just series of her checking around, making sure no one is staring. It was hard. She was always heavily guarded. All these numerous things were the reasons why she was so cold to the world. Or at least, she appeared so. It wasn't usually the case though because most times, she just wanted to throw caution to the wind and let whatever happens, happens. But that is just not her. Hers was the case where she was forced to do what she didn't even have to. The scare. The anxious spirit. Always looking out for something as if it would catch up with her. Even when she's asleep, she's not asleep. Always on the alert. Her guidians; they are suppose to be her guardians, right? But they are hardly a guide on her part. The pressure they put on her only proves they are just like every other person out there. There is this judgy look every time; like she has gone and done something wrong. Whereas, she's just living life. But tell me why she wouldn't be so uptight. She can't let loose. It is the image of how little regard she gave the 'name of the family'. Because apparently, it all comes down to that. She often thinks the mother that bore one is suppose to understand the most and wants to give her child the world's best but it is just not so. It's so difficult to confide in any other human if the person you feel you are most close to doesn't get you. Really Milan reminiscence and felt like she really have tried and she has come really far. wow. Even with the pushing here and there, she didn't break or commit suicide, none of that. She stood because she felt it in her heart; Life has to be so much more. Let me hold on just a little longer. Little did she know that this wasn't even the biggest challenge so far. There was one and that would be the greatest of all and there wasn't even an inbetween. It would either break or toughen her. It was like a log of wood on her road and whatever she decides to do with the wood determines what would happen next. You know, usually in life, there are situations in your life that sometimes you could avoid them altogether. You could just act like the problem wasn't there and take another route but this wasn't the case at all because this would be a very big challenge. Ride on with me as we see how Milan would overcome this challenge! or not.Thank you guys, please vote and comment. Until next time. xoxo