7 Years Later

Part 25 - Summer After High School

Within the week after I found out I was pregnant, I was feeling some more symptoms. Mostly nausea. I tried to hide from my mom if I got nauseous.

I was still in a state of denial.

And I had no idea what I should do.

I was either going to end the pregnancy or become a mom at the age of 19.

And I know women do it. My mom had me when she was 20.

But I wasn't her. And I did not want my life to change this much. A child was not part of the plan.

I'm selfish for thinking this.

I should deal with the consequences of my actions.

But I'm not ready.

My mind would not stop running.

Matteo was working a lot, to try to save money over the summer. He would text me a lot during the day, just to make sure I was alright.

I still wasn't really ready to talk about it very much. I though