Loving Her

"I like hot guys, I'm attracted to them. That's right Rory, hindi ka bakla. You're straight. Mas straight pa sa ruler! Okay??" Yes, I'm always talking to myself. I love it. Although, napapaisip ako minsan na baka need ko nang mag pa consult sa isang psychologist. I feel like I'm going crazy anytime now. Hayst! I'm here alone sitting on a bench, masyadong stressful ang life lately, dumagdag pa itong pagiging confused ko just because of this one person that I met online!!! Yeah, online, cuz I can't flirt in person so I do it online nalang. It's crazy because I'm the one who asked for this, yet I'm the one who fell first! But of course, I never dare to tell her. Maangas nga kasi ako. I will never dare to make a first move. Duh! Kung saka naman ako nag 21 saka naman ako dumaan sa gender identity crisis? Well, I know naman na walang limitations yon pero kase namannnn! I barely know how to overcome this crisis I am facing all alone! Huhu I was startled when this crazy lady showed up na di ko alam kung saan nanggaling. "hi Wifeyyy, kumusta na kayo ng girlfriend mo?" She's smiling at me cheekily. Talent nya na talaga ang mang inis, ever since! "Tigilan mo nga ako Samantha! FYI di ko girlfriend yon! Straight nga ako diba? Ang kulit mo!" She put her hand right on her chest and said the famous lines of Bobbie in the movie Four Sisters and a Wedding. "Pero bakit parang galit ka? Bakit kasalanan ko? Parang kasalanan ko?" I just rolled my eyes at her. She's always this overly dramatic, hayst. "Ang OA mo bakla, ewan ko sayo" Lumapit sya sakin, putting her arms around my shoulder. "Alam mo, wala namang masama kung may nararamdaman ko dun sa tao. It's just a crazy little thing called love" "Naisingit mo pa talaga eh noh? " "Basta, you should know na walang masama okay? Ayoko namang nakikita kang nadudurog jan kapag one day delayed yung reply nya sa chats mo" I look at her, with my mouth gape. "Ang OA mo! Hindi ah. Hindi ako ganun kababaw na tao!" "Ah, talaga ba vebs? Sinong niloko mo? Hahaha" I just shook my head, accepting that I'm gonna lose in this conversation. Well, totoo naman yon. Nasasaktan ako na naiinis kapag di sya nag rereply sakin. Weird right? I want to get mad at her and tell her that I hate her for making me so mad and hurt at the same time. But I have no right to do that. It's so complicated! "Aishh, it's fine Aurora. Let's get some booze nalang. Ano? Girls night? My treat!'' She's smiling at me toothily, convincing me to agree. I'm not really a fan of drinking. Never been wasted, good girl kaya to hahaha. "Fine. Let's get wasted tonight!" "Woah, you're so fierce huh" I just wink at her. That drink, maybe I need it.