The love that changed me

Marissa POV I wake up with a terrible headache and look around the room I am. Beside me there is a sleeping guy. Last night I got drunk and had s*x with him. That is what I do. I go to parties, get myself drunk as f**k and hook up with guys I like. Then make them fall in love with me and break their hearths.I hate every man on this god damn Earth. I love only myself. It’s 6 am and I have to go. I put on my clothes and walk out from his apartment. I know very well that this guy is going to pester me. They all do. My name is Marissa Jones and I just turned 18 years old. My maternal family is from Russia and my father is American. I grow up with my grandparents in Moscow. When I was 13 my mother took me to live with her in Miami. I am what people told math genius or something. I’ve won a lot of competitions and prizes. Actually I don’t give a damn about all of this. It’s because of my mom. She want me to become an engineer and dedicate myself to science. Whatever as long as the lady is happy and don’t piss me off. On my way to school I hear a familiar voice calling me. This is Ethan Kane my only male friend. He is tall, blonde with muscular body and somehow handsome face. Well his face is covered with scars due to an accident a few years ago. Everybody avoid him and maybe that is the reason I like him. His is damaged as I am. While people avoid me because of my complicated personality, he is been dodged for his appearance. “ Marissa, baby did you sleep last night? You look like zombie for god’s sake!” He said while looking at me with care and gentleness in his eyes. “Well I did sleep a little, but my head aches a lot. I’m never drinking again. I need a coffee ASAP.” I tell him while we approach the school snack bar. He get us two cups of coffee and we sit down on a bench in the yard. “So tell me about Alex?” “Who the f**k is Alex?” I asked him with puzzled expression “The guy you’ve been kissing last night. He looks head over heels with you. As I heard you two left together. I guess you spend the night with him.” He said pointing at a hickey on my neck. “Well I don’t know. Maybe he’s going to be the romance for this week. You know very well how I am with boys.” I said uninterested “Marissa he is a buddy of mine and he is a good guy. Why don’t you give him a chance? How long are you going to play games, get drunk and party like there is no tomorrow? Aren’t you tired of this lifestyle? You are the most beautiful and smart woman I have ever seen and you are amazing.” I look at him angrily “Ethan don’t meddle in my private affairs. You know very well that I don’t do love. And I don’t believe that there is a good guy in this world. All men are wicked and cruel by nature. The moment you let your guard down you are a dead meat.” “So what about me, Marissa? Am I a bad guy too? Do you think the same for me?” He asked “ Oh, of course no! Ethan you know that you are special to me. I don’t look at you as man. For me you are my soul mate. The only person who understands me and for some reason likes me after knowing what kind of stock I am.” I said laughing at myself. But he looks a little disappointed. I can’t think about it because my best friend Mia approaches us. “Hey b**ch, come quickly I have so much to tell you about. Last night was the best of my life. Leave this grumpy face and have a chat with me.” Mia says while taking my hand and drag me somewhere. I give Ethan apologetic look and go with her. She never liked him and always do her best to take me always any time she sees me with him. “ I met the love of my life last night and he gave me the best orgasms ever. I’m telling you Meri I’m going to marry him.” She starts telling me her story while we approach the classroom. “Mia, honey you mistake love and lust. Just because some guy gave you a few good orgasms that doesn’t mean he is the love of your life. What kind of nonsense are you telling me. Are you still drunk or something?” I reply looking at her suspiciously “I’m going to introduce him to you. He is a little older that the guys I usually go out with. So mature and responsible. In the same time passionate and sexy.” “Oh, my god you are impossible.” I said rolling my eyes “ Older guys just got their act on a different level. They know very well how to deceive a little girl like you. Now shut up because I have to concentrate. You know my big exam is in two weeks. I have to get ready.” I said and got myself busy with my book while waiting for the professor to start the class