The unforgettable life of me

My name is kali and i am 10yrs old i have 2 sisters named emmy who is 14 and gail Who is 9 and i also have a brother named colt Who is 5 my mom is currently at work and my older sister Emmy cant cook so i am going to cook dinner for us all oh and my dad is currently in jail for drugs and alcohol but he gets out soon.  “What are you making” emmy asks me  “Spam and canned corn” i say  “Ugh again?” My siblings complain  “Thats all we have guys!” I tell them being honest we have 2 cans of spam and canned veggies we have no mill or cereal or anything  I set the plates onto the table and get them all some food and a glass of water we sit and eat and i Get everyone to get a bath and yes it will be cold since our hot water tank is not working again i get Colt in the tub and get him done as fast as possible because the water is ice cold then i get him ready for bed and send him to play with his toys then my sisters all get baths and then i do after them i read colt a book before putting him to bed  and heading to bed my self  1week later Today my dad gets out of jail we are on our way to pick him up now once we arrive we all head into the jail and wait Until we see my dad come out he grabs colt and gives him a hug and a kiss on the cheek and he hugs my other 2 sisters before wrapping his arm on my shoulders and we walk to the car and head home  My dad is very abusive towards me before he went to jail for drugs and alcohol he raped me and beat me he always tells me i am his favorite lil girl  Flash back 9months ago  I was sleeping in my bed and i got woke up by someone taking off my pants and undies covering my mouth i soon seen it was my dad his name is ruben he puts his lips to my ear and whispers  “Daddy is going to make you feel real good baby” he says “No i dont want to” i tell him and i start to cry  “Shh its ok this is daddies job to make you feel good but you cant tell anyone because they will get killed” my dad says  “Do you understand” he says i nod my head “Use your words” he says  Yyyesss” i say crying  “Good now be quiet do you understand!” He says  “Yeesssss” i say quietly  “Daddy is going to put 1 finger inside your lil p***y do you understand?” He says  I nod but he grabs me hard  “Use your words now!” He says  “Yesssss i uunnderssstand” i say  “Call me daddy baby” he says  “Iii unnedersstand dddaddy” i say crying  “Good” he says and he pushes a finger into my p***y and it hurts so bad i am crying  “Itt hurts” i cry out “Shhh daddy will make the pain go away but first i need to stretch this lil p***y out” he says as he pushes another one into me and it hurts bad before i know it he has 3 inside me and he is licking my p***y  “Moan for daddy” he says pulling his mouth off of me he reaches up under my shirt and grabs my not devoloped breasts playin with them “I ddont knoow how” i say  “Tell daddy you like it” he says  “It hurts me” i say but he smacks me across the face  “I said tell daddy you like it and you want me inside you!” He yells grabbing my throat making it hard to breathe and then he lets go  “Say it noe” he says  “Iii likke it dadddddy ii want you inn me” i say crying  “Good girl you want daddies c**k” he asks  “Yeesss” i cry no i dont want none of this i want him off of me now “Be quiet this will hurt but daddy will make you feel good” he says as he pulls down his underwear and he is huge like 10 inches and thick  “Sit up” he says and i do as he says scared to get hurt more and he puts his p***s to my mouth and makes me open my mouth and he pushes into my mouth and moves my head back and forth  “Ahh yes baby girl suck daddies c**k” he says  After a lil bit he pushes me down and spreads my legs wide And pushes his p***s into me and it hurts so bad i cry out loud in pain  “Shh be quiet now and i will beat your ass!” He says  “Ookayy iit huuurts” i say crying  “It will feel good and you will c*m on my c**k do you understand!” He says  “Yyess” i say gosh this pain is unbearable and hurts so bad  He starts moving inside me faster and harder and the pain slowly goes away but this feels so wrong and i hate it all my own father is raping me and it makes me sick  “Tell daddy you love my c**k, tell daddy how good it feels!” He says  “I love your c**k and it feels good daddy” i say crying  “God your so tight. Your daddies favorite lil girl!” He says  He continues to rape me for awhile and he pulls out of me and starts to rub Me and finger me  “Now i want you to moan for daddy say stuff like yes daddy or harder daddy or god your amazing” he says  “Ookay” i say and he rams him self back into me going fast and hard  “Damn baby your p***y is all mine!” He says “Yes yes” i say crying and wishing this torture was done  He flips me so my butt is in the air and he keeps pushing into me hard  “Im going to c*m baby girl, daddy will fill that p***y up!” He says  “Have you had a period yet?” He asks me  “Nno” i say “To bad” he says before i feel something warm filling me up and he then pulls out of me  “Open your mouth” he says and i open he strokes his p***s making more c*m go into my mouth  “Now go clean up in the bathroom” he tells me  “You also need to start sleeping with no panties on or shorts” he says  “Why” i ask  “Cuz now that i got a taste of that lil p***y i want more daddy will make you always feel good” he says And he didnt lie every night sometimes multiple times a day he would rape me  But then he went to jail for 6 months and it was amazing i was so happy to get him away from me  End of flash back.  But now my dad is home and i am scared it will all start again i wanted so bad to tell my mom ella but i was scared cuz my dad told me everyone would die if i said anything i dont want anyone to die  So i kept it to my self and took his beatings and him raping me and now that he is home i know it want be long till he starts to rape me again