Love at Dawn

Chapter4

Angus looked at me tenderly and said, "I'm to blame for this, I've upset Heaslet, because the wedding was rushed, so a lot of my good friends didn't have time to invite them."

As I watched his performance, I really wanted to say to everyone, "Don't trust this hypocrite."

They say that life is like a play, and it doesn't matter if you don't realize it at unusual times, it's really hard to hold back so much when I'm so coldly watching Angus make a lovey-dovey-couple act with me in front of people, and then I think about the way he's tossing me around to my death in the back of the room, where everyone can't see it.

After a while, the topic of our conversation no longer continued and we sat down to eat. Because most of the people at the table are his old friends, naturally chatting about interesting things from the past. Because most of them are men, chatting happily naturally means drinking all the time. I had finished eating and was waiting for Angus when Mrs. Riley came over and said, "Heaslet, let them drink and let's go outside and talk."

I let out a "hmmm" and followed her out onto the balcony and sat down at the table. She glanced inside and said to me, the one thing I'm quite happy about coming back this time is knowing that the boy Angus is married. We've always treated him as if he were our own child, and he was the one we couldn't worry about the most after we moved. Now that I see you guys bonding so well, I'm relieved."

Hearing her say that I knew that Angus and the couple had an unusual relationship. Thinking like this, I said, "He's in a good mood today, and he keeps telling me that his teacher came back from the U.S. after a long time."

"Yeah, he was happy to hear we were coming back a few days ago. Heaslet ah, about Angus' past, you may not know much about it. Although he was born into a big family, he had a rough fate. You should know that his mother died early, at that time he was in high school. Riley was his teacher, suddenly he was like a different person, he fought and skipped classes, sometimes he couldn't be seen for a week. We found out later that it was his mom who passed away ......"

Nowadays, the Adams family's mistress of nature is not his real mother. Because of the good relationship with Lilia in the past, she also often told me about her own family.

The Adams family is a newly rising family. When Angus was young, it was Angus' mom who quit her job to accompany his father, Barrick Adams. Barrick Adams, who had quit his job to accompany his father, just in time for a good opportunity to get rich. However, his mother did not realize that when her husband became rich, he had another woman and a child. When the woman came over with her belly, his mom was disillusioned and decided to get a divorce.

In the beginning, she was busy with her business and never had any children, but after she got divorced, she realized that she was pregnant, and the child was Angus.

Although his mom left the Adams family, she was a very strong person. She was an accountant, and those were highly sought after skills in those days, so times weren't too hard. She later adopted Lilia, who had been abandoned, and raised her as a daughter until her health got so bad that she was willing to let the Adams family pick up the child, and Lilia was taken with her.

Mrs. Riley told me a lot of things, all about teenage Angus, some of the past that I hadn't known. He was sad and rebellious, but fortunately the teacher at that time, that is, Riley, was a kind and responsible teacher, retrieved him from the school, and brought him to the home to educate a meal, and in the weekdays study and life on his extra care, I think Angus later on to the couple is grateful to the couple, is because of that time someone in time to pull him up, did not let him depressed, and gave him extra care.

Mrs. Riley told me these words of purpose I understand in my heart, is to hope that I live well with Angus. But naturally she would not know how the real Angus had treated me.

So I just responded with a few words in agreement, and by this time the inside broke up. Angus was obviously having a good time, and had drunk a lot of wine, and was quite drunk. I helped him say goodbye to everyone. He was so drunk, naturally I drove. Along the way he wasn't honest, turning up the stereo and singing along, swinging his arms and always hitting me in the face. I was annoyed by him and scolded, "If you're not honest, I'll kick you down."

In unusual, he must be angry again, unexpectedly this time actually did not move angry, but laughed: "Women really cannot be spoiled. How long has this been good to you, you dare to kick me down? The days are long, that's not good enough?"

I laughed coldly: "I sincerely beg you not to be disgusted with me, the drama overacted will become a joke, besides, now is not in front of your teacher. I do not need to act to whom to see, I have not been self-centered to think that you will be good to me."

He suddenly stopped talking, reached out and touched a cigarette, pressed the window down while lighting it. I resented the smell, "Can you not smoke in the car? It smells bad."

"This is my car, what do you care?"

He stopped looking at me, threw the cigarette out, and the window closed. An eerie silence returned to the car, which only made it seem like it had been a very long drive, and I couldn't wait to get back.

When we finally arrived home, Angus couldn't even stand up as soon as he got out of the car. I ignored him at first, as I had someone to hold him up, but he pulled on my wrist, and he leaned into me, so I had to stumble around and get him into the room.

He then collapsed on the bed. I was afraid that he would just fall asleep and not go to wash up, so I reached out and pushed him, "You go and take a shower first, or else you'll be smelling like alcohol and dirtying my bed."

Angus didn't move either, just lay there looking at me, his eyes mysterious and mesmerized. I got impatient with his look and finally went to the bathroom after I prodded him a few times, and not a moment later called out from the bathroom, "Come get my towel."

He was already sitting in the tub. I handed him the towel and was just about to leave when he suddenly stood up out of the water and tackled me around the waist. I was startled, my shoes had fallen off and I was still wearing clothes when he carried me into the water at once, my dress instantly soaked through.

But he where willing to let go of me. Bathroom water fog filled, we all soaked in the water, obviously hot, but let a person feel cold for no reason. All of it had a sense of pretense and unreality, but behind it was heartache and resentment.

He sucked on my lips with abandon, his fingers drew circles on my chest, and I felt like I was surrounded by a fiery body of flesh.

.........

Eventually, I was carried out by him. I glanced at myself in the mirror and just found the scene ridiculously embarrassing, saddening but out of my control.

How ridiculous that Angus doesn't love me but won't let go of my body. This marriage of s*x and no love was more like two unconscious shells shacking up for life.

I don't remember when I fell asleep, I think I dipped into bed and fell asleep quickly, waking up close to noon. I changed my clothes, and before I went downstairs, I turned back to the box of birth control pills in the dark layer of my bag and broke off two pills and swallowed them.

Just as my cell phone rang, I folded to the nightstand there to answer the phone, it turned out to be the teacher at the music school, to see that I have not yet arrived at this point, afraid that I encountered any trouble.

Because I had overslept, I was embarrassed and explained a few words to her. It was already dinner time, and the table was full of food. I asked, "Why did you make so many dishes? Where can I eat it all? And I don't have much of an appetite lately."

The servant set out the dishes, "Master is home today."

Sure enough, someone came in at the door, but it was Angus. He went to the yard to trim the flowers and plants; it seems that he suddenly had the pleasure.

Probably because the day is too hot, the house is turned on the cold air, also not much ventilation, let a person feel stuffy. I don't have a good appetite, I ate half a bowl of rice and simply drank two mouthfuls of soup, and then I was ready to pack down and go out.

When he came up, I was putting on makeup, finished cleaning up, looked at the time is not early to go out, the result is that when I took the bag, I forgot to put back the birth control pills fell to the ground. I panicked and tried to pick it up. Angus was the one who hated it when I took the pill. Once I took it in front of him and he made me spit it out, almost choking me to death. The last time I took it, he made a scene with me because of it. He's been in a better mood for the last couple of days, so I don't want to get in trouble again.