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FEAR

Encounter part 3

ANDREE:

From afar, the stranger lady hollers “Noir, stop being playful now.”

hearing that name again made me feel awkward in every way, but I still heed to her call and went to where she was standing.

I felt the strong urge to ask her where have we met and what was her name and how she got the name, but I was not able to do it. I am too hesitant thinking that she might get offended.

“Here I go again, doesn’t want to offend anyone.” I told myself while walking towards her.

I did not want to upset anyone, she seemed to be a nice person and by any means she's someone who knew me. She knew something about me, up to what extent? I have no idea yet.

I can tell that she was comfortable talking with me, and to be honest, somehow I was too with her, although I still had the abduction thoughts that I have at the back of my mind.

We got into a little conversation, I never asked her any personal questions that could give her a hint that I did not know her, I did not even mention her name. I called her “girl” instead, since that’s how I usually address my girl acquaintances in high school .

My heart beat faster when she reached out for my hand and pressed her hands against mine. Of course, for someone who likes girls, it felt so good, just being honest.

“are you ok?" she asked wearing a sheepish grin. Then after a minute, she

said, " I noticed you haven’t mentioned my name Noir"

“(fizzled) I think the “girl” thing did not work at all.” I told myself.

I was anxious at that time, my hands turned pale and cold and my legs, I could not stop my legs from bouncing at a fast pace due to anxiety. That was my coping mechanism to lessen the effect of nervousness. At that moment it felt like I was handing over my exam paper with a score of twenty-five correct answers out of a hundred questions to my parents.

Hoping she would never pursue that question, I did not say anything. My brain was cramming, finding a nice and somewhat a non-offensive way of telling her that I do not know her or maybe I forgot about her.

She moved closer to me; just a foot and a half closer, we were just sitting on a one-meter-long bench. She started to caress my face with her left hand and then followed by her right hand.

She made me face her and once again, she asked me if I am fine. I answered her with a question, “What do you mean?” although I knew what she was talking about.

She did not mind answering me; she just stared at me in the eyes, I did not attempt to look away until our eyes met. In her eyes, I saw sadness, longing and fear.

Right there and then, I took a very deep breath and asked nature to lend me some energy, then upon mustering enough courage I said, “[sighed]I can’t remember you,” I told her.

After that, I felt so weak it seemed like I had used up all the energy nature has lent me and I had also noticed her smile fading.

I knew what I said disappointed her, her hands slipped down my face and she changed her position. She faces a different direction , so was I, we both faced the artificial mini waterfall and then there was silence. Only the sound of the water flowing in the mini artificial waterfall and chirping birds was all I could hear.

I saw her place her hands on her lap, I felt so scared and guilty of what I made her feel that moment. For some reason, I missed the enthusiastic her that I was talking to a while ago while thinking that she would abduct me anytime.

I courageously turned and faced towards her then unintentionally, I took her left hand, but she gently took it from me, I saw her facing down and saw a tear dropped, I knew it!

“I offended her; I hurt her feelings?.” I told myself, In my mind while feeling guilty. “I --- I did not mean to make you cry.” stuttering, I told her.

She just gave me a nod, so I tried to hold her hands again. I held them tight enough to comfort her, hoping she could feel the comfort she needed.

“I’m so sorry” I whispered, enough for her to hear it.

Unaware, a tear slipped from my eyes and fell on her hand, I was surprised as to why do I have to shed a tear? I wiped her hand instantly, but she might have felt it.

“It’s alright,” She told me gently while pressing her hands to mine.

I knew she smiled a little because I think I felt that she did.

She turned to face me and then slowly moved towards me.

She held my hands tight and looked me in the eyes. She released my hands, then kept moving closer towards me, I thought she would lean on me or hug me, I was dumbfounded when she closed her eyes and pressed her lips against mine. It was delightful, I felt something I cannot explain. It is not what you think! It was somethimg else. (smirk)

I was left startled.

Not every day you get a kiss from a gorgeous lady. I tried to calm down, I was not ready for any kissing scene.

I just told myself, just trying to convince me not to worry, that I just had my dental cleaning three days before and I brushed my teeth after the meal earlier so I just have to enjoy the moment.

I closed my eyes like she did, the kiss was so pleasurable that I let myself get drowned at that moment, I kissed her back too. Her scent is familiar, it added the sense of pleasure to the mood. The kiss lasted enough for me to relish it.

When I opened my eyes, I found myself in a familiar place, I was standing in a room, I saw my study desk when I was in highschol. It made me come into my senses, but still I was in the room and puzzled as to why I was in my bedroom back in high school.

I searched for the lady; I need to know what happened, I mean, I was also not yet over with that kiss, I was still enjoying it.

At that moment I thought maybe she was any sort of magical entity or something like a “diwata” or “maligno” that may have casted a spell on me in the garden?" Also, to mention, the room seemed like spinning around me.

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