Finding My Way

(Vanessa)  I never thought this would happen to me! You here about these types of things happening on the news, or watch it in a movie, maybe read it in a book, but it just isn`t the same until you have to go through it yourself. While Sitting on my bean bag chair, and  crying into a pillow,  I started realizing life forever would be changed. It has been a week since my Mother Blair June Nelson  took her own life, and it still feels unreal to me.  Daily I question why she would do this to our family, to me? My mother she left us, she could not handle who she was, what she was and so she took her own life.  Someone started calling my name and I was brought back to reality.    ( Bentley) Vanessa come on its dinner time, you have to come out of you`re room at some point. I knew that my sister was suffering the most, she was the only girl aside from My mother in a house full of boys. And now she was left without a  mother, she was heart broken and understandable so. I did not know how else to help except be there for my sister and brothers, and father.  Being the oldest in a family of 13 siblings can be stressful. I am a Freshman in college along with my twin brothers, I`m a triplet and with my Mothers recent  passing am staying home and attending community college for the time being. We life in Orlando Florida and my siblings aside from me and my brothers Jefferson and Eric all attend Olympia High school. ( Vanessa)  Ugh fine I am coming I yell down to Bentley, before he tries to come up stairs to get me. I am in no mood to eat but I know I need to, it`s what my Mother would want even though she lost her battle with her mental health does not mean I should let myself fade away. Tonight is the last night before I attend my first day of Freshman year at Olympia High School and I am anxious. I have been doing body building, wrestling, and football for as long as I can remember but I have never been so anxious to try out for a school team in my life. I did body building with my brothers, and I took private lessons since I was 5, and I have been wrestling on a private comp team since I was 7, I played flag football up untill I was 8 and then tried out for a tackle football team and made it.  I am still on my comp wrestling team and still do my body building sessions, but I have decided to try out for my high schools football teams and tommorrow is tryouts.  All my brothers have played sports or are still playing my oldest brothers  Bentley, Jefferson, and Eric played football  through there senior years and then stopted. My brothers Levi, Jesse,  Kliff, and Randal wrestle, my brothers Kendal, Steven, Brody, Carson, and Blake all do Body Building, and I decided to take up all 3, my brothers decided what they loved most and stuck with it, but I love them all so I do them all.  (Randal)  Come on Ness hurry up Gosh my twin sister can drive me crazy with all of her things she needs to get it just drives me insane I get it you need your padding for football, you gear for wrestling, and your change of clothes for weight lifting Sometimes I wish you could just choose one, but she is truly a natural at all of them so why should she have to  She works so hard on a daily basis and I know she will make the football team today, saying goobye to her tackle team to tryout for the school team was a  hard decision  but I think it was the right one for her, she loves football more than anything and a school team will do her better than a tackle team, but staying with comp wrestling instead of the school team that was  a good decision, and still lifting weights to keep a good build that is also smart. (Jefferson)  Watching the hectiness of the morning routine unfold is like  the best movie out there I mean really Brody why does it take you an hour to shower, and Kendal dont wear so much calogne, Levi remeber to tell Dad your going to stay after school late, Kliff, Blake, Jesse get off the video games, Randal pack up, Nessa stop stressing out. Its constantly reminding them of everything and being the second oldest out of the triplets doesnt help. While Bentley is getting gas and making sure that there is enough lunch money for everyone, I am making breakfast and making sure everyone gets ready on time, Dad and Eric are allready at work for the Day and doing the businessy things they need to do. (Brody and Carson) Dude its the first day of senior year Brody yells at me Yeah I know Brody Carson come on this is going be a great year its the last year before college I know Brody but Moms not here  I know but we still need to try to make the best of this Yeah I guess lets make sure we have everything for body building and head down stairs Sounds good (Steven) Kendel, Levi were going to be late you need to get down here now I hate having to remind them to be on time it drives me crazy I know I need to set an example but I dont like it I just want to get to school and go to the gym and burn off some steam ( Jesse and Kliff) You nervous man this is sophmore year nah Jesse Im chilling ok Kliff whatever you say man ugh dont do that  do what Kliff? You know make it seem like something is wrong Im sorry I didnt realize You know you were doin it ok fine lets go Jess k  (Levi and Kendel) Man does Steven ever stop Nope Levi he does not Hes on my last nerve Ken I know mine too Lets go downstairs Ok (Blake)  Guys did anyone feed Breezey? Im not a guy say Nessa as she walks down the stairs Ness of course your not I laugh And She says yes I fed the Bull we have a english Bulldog named Breezey and Ness calls him a Bull Ok I say and walk back to my toast and take a bite (Bentley) Everyone get in the car its 7:00 school starts in 30 minutes  I yell as I walk into the house Jeff looks at me like really you think their ready And Ness, Randal, Kliff, Steven, Brody, Carson, Levi, and Jesse all come to the kitchen I yell Blake, Ken lets go were waiting on you and hear running from the bathroom and from upstairs Ok yall pile in After everyone is in the car I drive to Olympia and drop them off to start there day.