The Tale Of Athena

I was literally thinking about giving Athena her POV but idk how. So I thought of making her own book and here it is. You will know how she suffered and how she loved Sky. This isn’t book with chapters but one book with one part. It’s capable for you to understand behind her reasons. I AM WARNING YOU. THIS IS VERY SHORT BUT I KNOW IT'S ENOUGH TO MAKE EVERYTHING CLEAR FOR ATHENA. That's a goal! The Tale of Athena. Might contain spoilers from DEPRESSION. Ps. I want to give thanks to those who's here right now to support me all throughout my writing journey from the days I was bad at righting until here that I improved and continues improving. I know I ain't that good and is not enough to be a so-called-worth-it, but I am willing to do great and I know I'll continue striving. I know someday, I'll thanks myself for not stopping even though I know my works aren’t enough. One day I'll write the best that would totally make your heart shake. That's my goal. "I'm sorry to fail you young lady, but you have a serious condition. You might not get treated but I'll try," ayan ang sinabi ng doctor. Sobrang sakit lang na alam mong malapit ka nang mamatay? Is that why I continuously getting sick? My immune's system is just so bad and I thought it's because of it but then again I came to think of it. It is not normal! I have a serious condition about my nose I forgot what the doctor called it. Paranasal Sinus. That's it. I can live only years for now. I'm not dying but that doesn't mean I won't. I'm only fourteen years old. And the doctor said it's a malignant cells form to be a tissues of Paranasal Sinus. It can be treated but it's not a joke. I get it. I'll die. "Sky?" Tinawag ko siya dahil napapansin ko nang medyo tulala siya. Anong iniisip nito? Nilingon niya ako unti unti at nag taas ng mga kilay niya ng sabay. "Ano nang balita sa'yo? You doing fine?" I always try to make her happy but I just can't. If only her family can make her feel loved. I don't want her to feel lonely if ever I die so I wrote a message for her in case I die. Binigay ko iyon sa pinsan kong si Heaven and told him to give it in case I die. Only him knows my struggle because I know I can't tell Skylar. Hindi pwede, ayoko nang makisali sa iniiyakan niya gabi gabi. If I just can avoid her crying then I'll do it! I just took a video of me talking for my family. I wanted my reason for not telling them be understandable. I know they won't just accept it and they'll get me scolded. I can only live until 17. The doctor said. I'm always so pale. I'm so skinny. So I believed that. Nabuhayan ang loob ko nang mag 18 ako pero buhay pa rin ako. Am I not dying? I remember when we were just elementary students, we used to have the color of the day. It's what the colors of our panties are, so when she debuted, she wore color green. Nothing happened that day but she should've worn red instead. But it still made me so sad when Skylar has to deal with her family problems every night alone. She don't tell me but I know. Alam kong nahihirapan siya pero wala rin akong magawa dahil ayaw niya mag open up sa'kin. Hindi ko naman siya pwedeng pilitin kung ayaw niya talaga. "Bakit ka nag enroll sa course ko? Architecture ang gusto mo, 'di ba?" She always asks that. Pero hindi ko naman sinasagot. Yup! Gusto kong mag architect. Gustong gusto. I badly want it but I'm not able to. Mamamatay na lang ako kaya susulitin ko na lang ang buhay ko habang kasama siya, it's better than to spend my school life boring alone for pursuing sonething that's negative. And that negative is me, living. "Yow! Athena. Nomi mamaya sa likod ng waney," nag aaya na naman sila ng inuman. Kaya hindi ako gumagaling, eh, puro sila inom! "Pass, malapit na exam," alibi ko pero may session lang talaga kami ng doctor ko today. I don't attend sessions that much but I started attending when I'm 18. It's when Skylar started getting so sad so I hoped that I can still live until anything's fine for her. Mahal na mahal ko si Sky to the point na makikipag p*****n ako para sakaniya. I always sketch her face to see how sad she is day by day. She's not improving and it's getting badly worse. I want her to be with a psychiatrist but she just won't listen to me so I'll just and up shutting my mouth up again. I fell. I fell for Cedric Mandate. Huli na nang malaman kong gusto niya iyon kaya minabuti kong sarilihin. I'll die, anyway, right? I don't need to love, girl! I know when we're nineteen. Cedric is trying Skyle. Nakikita ko naman na nilalapitan siya and I can also see Skylar smile on her face. I wonder that's Cedric? Everything went fine. I go to my sessions snd I'm doing better. But I all lost it all when I get commatosed after a day with Skyle. How I wish I did not ket her go that day so I can just make her stay without me. Siguro nabuhay pa 'ko. Alam ko na na mamamatay na 'ko that time. That never happened so the time I get so dizzy and fainted like that. Pero lalaban ako. All my fights wasn't worth it yet so I still want to live for no one but Skylar. Pero hindi ko na kayang lumaban pa. Alam ko nang hindi ko na kaya. I was completely fine, but Sky made it better. Until she showed me the best. October 29, 2015. Hi, Skyle. Siguro kung binabasa mo 'to ngayon... Wala na 'ko? Pero 'wag kang iiyak. Baka bumangon ako sa hukay! Pero sa totoo lang, ayaw kitang makitang umiyak but please do it. I'll be hurt if you did not. Babangon ako. See that date ^? Sinulat ko ito noong araw na 'yon. Pero dinagdagan ko 2019. Because I know what I've put here wasn't enough to explain! I don't actually know when I will die but I want you to know why. I did know I'm dying! Really. Pero I chose not to fight but thank you because I went to sessions kasi gusto ko pang makasama ka and ayokong umiyak ka kapag nawala ako. But it was too late to go to the session. The tissues were around my body. I regretted it! It must have been too hard for you now, huh? But don't die like I did. I know you must be thinking that I didn't tell you and you were such a nothing for me but It was all wrong! You was my reason to fight and attend session but I was dumb to skip it. Because of my non sense reason, I missed the chance to live. So it's not your fault and no one for any each of you has a part with it. It's me and myself. May sasabihin pa pala ako sa'yo. Crush ka ni Heaven! Sabi ko 'wag niya 'to buksan and siguro nirespect niya 'yon? So ayun. Get him now! But seriously, with all my heart I wanted to say thank you and I don't know why I can't. You were my inspiration back then. My inspiration to live my life longer. Biruin mo 'yon? Ang taning ko, 17 years old. 18 years old na 'ko, sinusulat ko pa 'to ulit kasi marami na akong hindi naisulat at dinagdagan ko ang nilalaman. I know you've been through many hard days and how I wish I can be there, pero hindi naman lagi tayong magkasama, pero sana, or siguro, nafulfill ko naman 'yung role ko as your best friend. It's to make you feel loved and never turn my back against you when everyone does. Kailan ko 'yun ginawa? Never! May sasabihin pa ba 'ko? Marami. Thank you for fighting for your life and please continue doing it for me, I'll continue my life to where I belong. Name your kid after me. If ever. It's Athlana. Please do it, I'll be her angel if you do. ‘Wag kang susunod, kasi hindi ko sure kung sa langit ako, feeling ko ihaharang ako ni San Pedro tapos tatanungin niya kung ilang beses ako mag club nung first timers xD. - sana sa heaven mapunta, Athena Janelle Bernardo.