Chapter 2 it's fine until
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I didn't do anything that is deserving of being beaten and then thrown out onto the streets in the middle of the night.
I was only 7, do these people not understand what they are doing to me?
I sob sitting on the sidewalk.
What did I do to deserve this punishment?
I didn't ask to be born into this world...
I feel something on mu shoulder.
I looked up to see it softly starting to drizzle.
At that moment I felt like the heavens were crying for my misfortune.
I scraped the last of my courage together and grabbed the Dustin plastic full of my clothes and started walking.
In the year I stayed with this family I had often come to visit my brother so I knew more or less how to get to grannies house from here.
Slowly makimg my way over to grannies house I walk as if I was a zombie.
This is the first experience I had that actually made me completely numb afterwards, to the point where from this day onwards everything I did was meant to cause me pain.
The case worker had come and found me at mu grandmother's hpuse and decided to let me live with her.
Although my grandparents were great iys my cousin who was the devils spawn.
She was a drug addict and she was very dominant.
She would beat me up if I refused to do something for her or if I refused to listen to her demands.
My grandparents were aware of it but they didn't have the courage to actually do anything.
One night when I was 13
I was laying in mybed when my cousin came into my room and woke me up.
"Celine... Get up... Fast..."
I rbbed my eyes and looked up at her.
"Patrice... Whats wrong.."
She just smiled and took my hand.
I knew she was definitely high as that's the o ly time she's nice.
We walked down the hall into her room at the end of the corridor.
She closed the door and turn on her lamp.
I was startled when I saw her boyfriend and his brother sitting on her bed.
"Patrice... Whats going on?"
She just smiled wickedly than she sat down and opened her stach box.
Inside was her stuff, yes her drug of choice.
Its called Rocks, its Heroine in it crystal form.
It is smashed and than placed on a steel home made smoking pipe and than smoked.
I watched as she hit it up and than motioned me to come over.
I was a bit reluctant but hwr boyfriends brother was my crush and I knew he also did drugs so to impress him I took the pipe.
I took a deep puff and held my breath.
Soon my ears were singing...
I watched as Hendrique headed over to me and than took my hand and walked me back towards the bed.
My cousin and her boyfriend were making out on the carpet and I watched as his hands roamed all over jer body before sliding into her jeans.
I felt Hendrique kissing my neck while his hands made their way up imto my top, his fingers grasping at my hard n*****s.
He soon had his lips on mine, his kiss urgent and hungry.
I was a bit scared.
I never done this before.
He looked up and than cupped my face.
"Celine, I really really like you, and I want to show you just how much but if you aren't Ready..."
I stopped listening after he said he liked me.
I slowly laid down on the bed, pulling out my shirt and my jeans, leaving only my panties and bra on.
Hendrique stood up and took of his shirt and jeans and was left in his boxer, his buldge was huge and I got scared.
He than slowly started kissing up and down my thighs, his fingers hooked the hem of my panties and slowly pulled them off.
Hendrique opened my legs and took in my naked vigina.
He smiled softly and than bend over and started running his tongue up and down my slit.
His tongue found my bud and he sucked it into his mouth, gaining a heavy moan from me.
He moved his mouth as if he was kissing mine but every now and then he slipped his tongue inside me.
His hands grabbed my hips holding me in place.
He was good at this he knew just how hard to press and before I knew it I was a trembling mess.
He continued until my body relaxed before her got up and than pulled of his boxers.
I knew after he had satisfied me his turn was next so I could do nothing but accept it.
He opened my legs wide.
His d**k was huge his one hand was only the bottom part of hish shaft.
He took his tip and started rubbing it uo and down my slippery sits.
I gasped while watching him.
He bit his lip, than placed his hand on my hip holding me in place.
"This is going to hurt, but bare with it, I will take up hard and fast but you will like it, I promise..."
Hendrique looked at me one last time before he slowly slide his d**k into me.
I felt the pain but it wasn't as bad.
I grabbed his hand on my hip.
He pressed harder.
" Shhhhhh... I am almost completely in.. Just a bit more.. "
He said and a second later I watched as he started thrusting into me hard and fast just as he said.
His body was sexy, he had just the right amount of muscles and his skin was a beautiful brown color.
His eyes were pinned on my vigina the whole time he watched as he pushed into me and pulled back out just to again thrust hard back in...
He kept going and his both hands were holding onto my thighs holding them open...
He pulled out and than turned me over.
Pressing me again the bed he spread my legs, and without warning entered me hard from the back again.
His both hands pressing me into the mattress.
He lifted his one hand and grabbed my hair, pulling it as he kept thrusting into me.
I just laid there, not making a sound...
HONESTLY I didn't feel anything...
It was all completely numb after a few minutes.
I felt his d**k pounding inside my vigina.
He finally came.
He laid down on top of me and kissed my back softly.
"How was it... Did you enjoy your first time...?"
I didn't say anything just sighed.
I didn't want to lose him right after her just f****d me so I just kept quiet.
Soon all four of us were back at chasing our high and than having s*x.
This went on for hours, before Hendrique and his brother left.
Me and my cousin laid in bed and fell of to sleep.
Weeks passed and it became a normal thing.
Every night when everyone was sleeping Hendrique would come into my room from the window.
We would chat, catch our high and have s*x.
Tonight was different.
Hendrique was laying behind me on my bed, still naked as we just had sex...
He kissed my shoulder...
"Celine... Do you love me?"
I wasn't prepared for this question.
I didn't say anything.
He slowly turned me over onto my back.
"Celine... Do you love me?"
He asked again...
I couldn't answer, I had no idea what love was.
He kissed my lips and repeated the question.
I was mute.
He than got upset at my reluctance to answer and sat up.
I watched him in the moonlight.
I sat up and placed my arms around his waist resting my head on his back.
"Hendrique... I don't know if this is love... Or if it's something else.. But just being like this with you... Even if it not love, I am fine with it... I..."
I said but I knew he wanted to hear something else.
He just sighed.
He pulled out of my embrace and picked up his things.
I watched him disappear through the window he came in from earlier.
Deep down I had this feeling it would be the last time I saw Hendrique and that feeling was right.
After that night Hendrique disappeared, his brother said he had gone abroad.
I believe him...
I guess deep down I also had regrets...
Did he ask me if I loved him to stop him from going or was it because he wanted to take me with...
I never got the answer to why he asked me that question...
After he left things got back to it new normal...
I was already hooked on the drugs so this was now my goal in life.
And it was slowly consuming me, yet also fast...
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