The return of the Luna

"GET HERE NOW!" My alpha belows through the halls to no-one in particular but shaking I began to run towards his voice knowing it was for me. As I pushed into the room, I saw the walls and floor painted with blood, my stomach turned. The horror I was witnessing was something I should be used to by now, but I still wasn't. I didn't want to be either because the moment it didn't affect me would be the moment I finally lost my soul. As I looked at my alpha, I took in his 6ft 8 muscular frame and his ashen blonde hair covered in blood and the rage in his blue eyes pirecing to my very soul. I felt ashamed. How could I so blindly follow this monster? Would I ever find the courage to walk away? He looked through me as though I wasn't even there. "Clean this up, and make sure nobody sees you," he spewed at me in his venomous voice. I nodded my head in acknowledgement, my body trembling. He left, and tears filled my eyes. Why would the moon goddess curse me to this fate? I began to pick up the large parts of the corpses, placing them into a sheet. But when I got to the heads, I threw up. It was the young boy who had shown me kindness when my father had first left me here and his mother. I finished gathering their bodies as the grief was consuming me and carried them to the border of our territory, and when I finally placed them to rest, I doubled over the sobs wreaking havoc on my body. The sobs no longer quiet my pain clear in my heart enough to be felt by the bond of my pack. I hear their howls of anguish. How would I ever be able to give them the justice they deserved? I have failed them and countless others as their luna. I looked to the moon in the sky and the darkness of the night, calling my mind into oblivion. The tree line was thick as I heard the leaves rustling. I knew I was no longer alone. That's when I smelt them. The scent of rejection is so clear. The rouges were here, and in my grief, I hadn't noticed until it was too late. Before I could shift, they had injected me with laburnum and nightlock. I fell to the floor darkness consuming me. My last thought was that I'm going to die. But somehow, I was at peace with that.