THE LOVELORN

Another white tears

I steal a glance on her and beheld Jane showing her what seems like a letter or maybe a write up in the piece of paper she tore out minutes ago. Laurette glared at me, at the paper,then at me again and she was smiling mildly,and nodded a nod I knew she offered to Jane. I pretend ad if I'm unaware of all that, I acted innocence but even,it's none of my business. Maybe she thought I'm a secret admirer, maybe she thought so or maybe Jane thought so and maybe they're right if they had thought so.

Laurette is also a new only for the fact that we both discovered our passion in reading and unveiled our zeal in it and via that,we created a partial partnership within her short period of stay.

Jerry tapped my back;I turned to know the ball for the bat. He's competing with Ned for the better drawer and I sighs and looked away but no,I couldn't avert it ,they my friends and there request ain't much though ,I just have to justified and it's really cute and I knew, from what I could take in,Ned did better but Jerry's is my true friend, a closed one indeed,Ned is just an old a 'Pa' in the classroom thinking he's better than everyone else and stronger just because of his age and cumbersome size. I hate that but he likes to come close to me and even though he's awkward with others ,he's mild to me and that's why we are friends.

"Jerry won" I said and looked away. And bitter argument erupted like a volcano then next thing I saw was that the whole class where coming to justify the same thing and it erupted the arguments higher and higher. One will say Ned,the other will say Jerry, and vice versa,and one will say that Ned did better and other will say otherwise and the more the coal heats. I caused it, I could have started things the way it's. But could they had believed? I don't think so though. Everyone wants to be the best and everyone's work is his best.

I looked front ward,where Jane and Laurette the new cynosure they where positioned, they didn't move,the same Cross leg sitting of Laurette and the same glaring and the same smile and the same flaunting of her lens and nothing. And Jane would just frown. I only discovered an expression in their face which I can explain as maybe making mockery of something or sort of,what ever;I know it mustn't had to with me. So I don't mind.

"Daniel!",I heard and glared,it's Jennifer, I noticed her broad nose. She's trying to pass something to me. I didn't even knew that she k nows my name. She barely calls you by your name, she will rather say " this boy", "this girl" or rude words like "this i***t" and other related words just the same way most teachers do and it pains me but what can one do. For her,it's so because she has an intimidating height and size ,naturally gigantic. No one dares to respond with a corresponding word, not even the males. She's colossal.

Her legs as big as that of an elephant and her neck like that of people suffering from swollen lymph nodes. and the school pull over hangs on her like a singlet. So she had a beautiful face even with the mannish broad nose,she's cute with her pink curved small lips and fitting dimples and being fair did her good. Her belly's bigger than her waist and that makes her unattractive.

She held a piece of paper that seems exactly like Jane's and yes,that was it. Jane handed it to her I think but why is she passing it to me. It baffled me like hell. What could it be?. And what would she had wrote on it. Well I think I'm about to read it though if I'm the yearned. maybe yes. I understood her signal, she's thinking of better way to pads the paper with actually risen from her seat so I stood to go and collect it myself but instead, she passed it to Amara, a girl of average height and mannish voice,I adjourned to my seat waiting for the gizmo but I recalled the mannish voice, wouldn't want her to call my name,it will not sound good and I rushed and collected it from her.

The side of the sheet that's visible to the eyes as she handed to me was blank and I will have to turn it to see the letter in it and I perceived maybe Jane handed it to her the same way. I glare at it with beaming smile. I don't know what I felt inside of me. It's the feeling you absorb when admitted to heaven but you knew you committed murder yesterday. I waited to reach my seat before I turn it. I was a bit blush. I don't even..., but I covered all feelings and it only shows inside of me.

Jerry and Ned who were already quenched from their long burned argument by concerned classmates noticed it and decided to read with me. I won't resist them; Jerry's a good friend though Ned is...,but it's nothing.

The next minute changed the boy I was,as I turned the paper and loom at life from a hole in hell. I felt sick,I felt very sick,I felt like dying, and I felt dead. And yeah it was true but not my body,my mind.

Ned couldn't believe his eyes or maybe he didn't see it clear. He took it on his left hand to study the sentences. Which writes:

"_why are you looking at me you moron, you don't have any sense of a human. I know what you're thinking but go to hell because I will never love you ,Never. So stop looking at me. I hate you."_

He bust into a loud a very audible laughter which drew the attentions of the whole classroom but the students, the lockers, the chairs,the board and the walls with their ears. but they didn't know the face wearing the mask, neither do they know the mask.

I saw everyone as a demon, and whole class as a mortuary and only I is the living soul in it. I was glaring at Jane and I saw a horn; and Laurette bearing a tail, and the whole classroom bearing wings and vampire teeth.

I hated myself for ever watching Jane dance. I hated me ever having thought of telling her that's she displayed her inner wear. I knew my business must be calling me and I couldn't mine it because I was blind in the mind,yes. It's the worst blindness, I could have minded by own business and I couldn't have be trashed. Now my mind is no longer blind,but dead.

" my guy;did you toast her?", Ned asked calmly but still laughing and it has spread mostly among the boys, I wonder what they heard and one will say "Sharp guy", and the other will say " you're really a slow poison ", and this one will say " guy you stab from the back sharply ", the other will say " Omo ,that's a better food o,no give up".

Ned touched me and I peeped at her big eyes and he had stated;

" So you have already toasted this girl that just showed up few hours ago", I kept mute.