All the flowers

Always she believed marriage was supposed to feel like home. She thought there would be laughter, late night conversations, small acts of affection, and someone who would make her fall in love. But after years of marriage, her home felt lonely, all she did was warm the bed, clean and act so happy in public. Her husband is not cruel, no Mark ain’t cruel he is just not affectionate or maybe his view of love seems different, sadly. His unfair love lives in the things he doesn’t say, the things he forgets, and the way he can make her feel like she is asking for too much simply because she wants to be loved. Behind close doors it gets lonely for Anna, so lonely that she begins to forget how lovely her dreams of love were. She had no choice but to learn to be quiet, learnt not to expect flowers, apologies, or affection. She learnt how to smile and not complain, “ no! She cannot complain” when people ask how her marriage and with a graceful planted smile she always say “ I know we married early, but it feels like we known each other for a long time. Marriage is indeed blissful “ it fools them all. But it didn’t fool her. Not till that evening, after another repeated day doing the same thing, Anna finds herself sitting alone in her loving living room, staring at her perfect home, that holds no warmth. She remembers the woman she used to be the woman who believed love could fix everything, the woman who believed he will come to love her. She barely recognizes that woman anymore. As the night grows quieter, Anna begins wondering, she was thinking if perhaps she made the right choice, and eventually what mama said about it getting better, abo..ut everything. If she should run, or stay.. if should tell him straight to the face, “I am tired of living like this” But was she bold enough to run faraway? everything felt suffocating. But in the middle of her worries, there was something she didn’t know. A way out. Everything was about to take a completely different turn. Because somewhere outside the walls of that cold house, there is someone she hasn’t met yet. Someone who will teach her that love is not supposed to feel empty. Someone with a C.. and not a M.