Not the girl next door

Storm aftermath

The rest of the weekend was a blur. I spent my Sunday studying and overthinking about that kiss. I hadn’t kissed anyone in over a year but even then it never made me feel that way.

Monday. I met Able at the gate and heard all about his weekend, he spent the weekend with his grandparents who were two of the nicest people I’ve ever met. I spent a week with them last summer after Abel and I became close. Abel’s grandparents refused to let me wallow instead put me to work on their farm and for a whole week I was able to escape the nightmare that was my life.

“So how was your weekend? I’m sorry I couldn’t be with you on storm night. I feel bad that you were alone in that house” Able said as he squeezed me shoulders.

“ I actually wasn’t alone” I said waiting for the shock to hit Abel’s face. “I bumped into William and you know how we’re lab partners now? We were talking about the project when the storm him, and long story short but he ended up staying over.”

Abel looked at me like I just told him Santa was real, “oh my god!!!!!, did anything happen?” His eagerness was building “ we kissed, it was..” I couldn’t finish my sentence because I had no idea what it was. I still felt uneasy about it like I couldn’t trust what it was. Abel could tell I was insure about the whole thing but didn’t get a chance to respond before we heard a group of voices coming towards up.

“Oh come on bro, you weren’t home, I called your mom and she said you were at a friend’s house, and since we’re you’re only friends it wasn’t any of us, so spill” I knew that voice, Justin. His voice had a way of making me annoyed just by hearing it.

“Dude it was just some chick I picked up at a cafe, nothing to tell, we hooked up and I left the next day” William replied sending the boys into hysterics.

“Whoa that’s my boy hahaha only you man” judging and the rest congratulated William.

I stood there speechless but not a bit surprised, it’s not that I wanted them to know he was with me but I never thought he would talk about women that way. Abel and I stood there about to leave when William turned around and noticed me standing there, and by the look on my face he could tell that I heard everything he just said. Without saying anything I walked away.

At lunch Abel and I sat in our usual spot, I was angry at myself for letting Williams words hurt me. I felt so stupid but also glad I had had my guard up.

Out of nowhere I blurted out, “you know it’s not that I care that he didn’t tell them he was with me, but it’s just that I thought it was …… something and clearly it wasn’t. I just feel stupid, I’m not who I used to be I’m just plain Jane now and I get that it’s just..”

Before I could finish Abel jumped in with a slightly annoyed tone “I’m glad you’re not who you used to be, because we wouldn’t be friends. You’re beautiful, and strong and if any guy can’t see that the f**k them. It’s time you start living again Nat. It’s been a year and as much as I support your new found solitude I also think it’s time you enjoyed your life again, no more hiding and no more thinking you’re not good enough.” In hugged Abel without even replying, he hugged me back, hard”

I decided to skip my last class which was Biology, Abel had made me feel better and the last thing I wanted was to see William and get angry again, instead I opted to walking home and enjoying the afternoon. I was home sitting on the front porch with my book when I heard footsteps walking up the steps. I looked up and saw William walking towards me. He looked nervous but on a mission.

“What are you doing here?” I asked him in a short tone, I stood up instinctively walking towards the front door as of to run away from him.

“Nat just wait I..” I didn’t even let him finish the sentence. He followed me inside and turned to him with confidence “You know what I’m not even angry, I’m just confused. I tried keeping my distance but it was you who did t want to and then you lie to your friends, I actually appreciate you didn’t tell them you were with me but the way you made it out like it was some cheap hook up”. I felt so out of breath yelling at him, my chest was rising and falling hard, William stepped towards me as tears started falling down my checks. I hadn’t cried in a long time, and I felt like I had just released and abundance of feelings. “I didn’t tell them I was with you because I know you like privacy, and frankly I wanted to keep it for myself, those guys know way too much about me and they can be jerks. In regards to what I did say, I know it was shitty, and for that I am sorry. I don’t want to keep my distance from you, I like you” I looked in his eyes which looked nothing but sincere and just asked him “why?” Which made him laugh, we looked at each other for a few moments before we both started to lean into each other without breaking eye contact. We kissed. Our lips met, our kisses were soft at first, William gripped my face with both hands, my hands moved down his back the back up his neck. The kisses intensified out tongues crashing together in intense passion, Williams hands moved down my back and to my backside cupping them before lifting me, I wrapped my legs around his waist and intertwined my fingers through his hair. He carried me through to the living room never breaking out kiss, he lowered me to the couch, he broke away from me and looked into my eyes before moving his mouth to my neck, I let out a small moan and could feel him smiling against my neck. I went to wrap my hands around his neck but he grabbed both my hands and held them firmly above my head with his left hand while his right hand moved down my body. He kissed me all the may down to my tummy, he pulled up my shirt exposing my stomach planting soft kisses along the line of my shirt, he looked at me through his lashes “should I stop” I shock my head and he unbuttoned my shorts using both his hands he pulled my shorts and underwear off, he lifted me leg and began kissing me from my toes to my inner thigh he slowly worked his way to my middle, the sensation intensifying making me arch my back, he then parted me with his mouth and began flicking his tongue against me, making me moan. I looked down and met Williams eyes, he was watching me and my reaction and he sucked and flicked his tongue against me. I could feel my orgasm building and before I knew it I was digging my hands into the couch and screaming through my orgasm, I heard William giggle as he made his way back up to me kissing me softly. He lay on top of me looking into my eyes. My breathing started to even out, William was still watching me closely, Are you ok?” He softly asked me, “yeah I’m ok, I just haven’t done anything like this in a long time.”