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It happened way back in 2010, when f*******: is not yet widely used across the globe, we don't own smartphones and basic Nokia phones are one of the best phones that you could ever have. Imagine a life back then when you need to open your own computer just to log-in on your social media accounts such as f*******: or going to an internet cafe. Teenagers nowadays, don't even know how it feels like chatting to your boyfriend inside an internet cafe where other people seeing your conversation and you don't have your own privacy at all. Well.. guess what, I experienced that. And you don't know how it feels hiding something to other people who's secretly sneaking on your f*******: account. I still remember those days where I had to budget my daily allowances at school just to save money, so I can pay a PC to rent for an hour in an internet cafe. Those memories makes me laugh whenever I remember those times. Like, did I really did that? Imagine not eating at recess or breaktime just to save money is aweful, really. Are you asking why am I not eating during break just to save money? Well.. first of all, we are not rich, and that's for sure. Second of all, our house is just a few blocks away from our school so my parents are only giving me enough to buy foods at the cafeteria as I don't have to ride a public transportation just to go to school and back home. Imagine how poor our lives back then. Not to mention, saving my allowance daily was still not enough to rent a PC in a cafeteria for a day. It will always takes me 2-3 days of saving just to get enough money. And because of that, I can only get online twice a week. I'm just kinda lucky if we have some visitors or we're celebrating a birthday of a family member because, those visitors gives me money and of course, I always used that to rent a PC. But, that seldom to happen. We are only 4 in the family and our birthdays only comes every 3 months. So, imagine all of that? People nowadays are lucky to have a good smartphones to use on their social media accounts. Truly, the technology nowadays is incomparable if we're going to compare it with our technology over a decade ago. I was in my last year of high school back then. Unfortunately, the registrar or whoever is engage in puting students to their sections put me in the last section without considering my grades. Sure, I'm not smart enough to demand but I'm also not that dumb to be part of that section but, regardless of being part of the last section or not, I still felt kinda happy as some of the heartthrobs in our school are also part of that section. So, it's still a kind of a "Win-Win" situation for me. Though, my classmates are bullies and are always bullying me, I still had a good time and memories with them especially during our Graduation Ball. We didn't experienced Prom Night that year which is kinda disappointing in my case as I didn't had a chance to join in the previous year. So, you can tease me for not experiencing Prom Night as I had never experienced it at all. But, our batch was still lucky for being the first batch to experience graduation ball at our school. I still feel how the previous batches are kinda jealous of our batch as they never experienced it before they graduated high school. That graduation ball is one of the best part of my highschool as I never felt bullied by my classmates, it was just full of happiness and bonding as we're about to start a whole new life in college with different and new people from different towns or cities. I'm not going to talk about what happened in that event in detail yet but you have to make sure to continue reading as I'm going to write it on the later part of this book. I'm not an outgoing type of person. I'm very introvert and don't really talk that much. For me, being silent is the best way to focus on things that I really love to do. I'm kind of a nerdy type of student as I really want to focus in studying rather than cutting classes like what my other classmates normally do. I guess, that might be the reason why they always bullying me despite of having a huge body. I'm obese back then weighing more than 100kg I think. I'm too fat and I guess that's the reason why I'm sweaty all the time. And studying at a public school with no aircondition and proper ventilation makes me more sweaty most of the time and because of that, I smells really bad due to my body odor also. But I no longer smell this bad today as of this writing as I know how important proper hygiene now. Speaking of proper hygiene, one of the reason why I guess my smell is terribly bad, aside from we have no proper ventilation, nor aircondition or electric fan was, I really don't know the "love yourself" thingy back then. Like, I only brush my teeth before going to school which is only once a day but, imagine during our rest days or even during summer breaks or what we call as semestral break that lasts for at least 2 months? It's really gross, right? And I'm okay with it because no one dares to tell me how bad my breath smells like because I got no real friends. Due to that behavior, I finally got a lesson to learn. Even though I brushes my teeth twice or thrice a day and gargles with a mouthwash right after brushing, I will never remove the fact that my teeth looks like terribly damage. A dentist even told me before, after having my first ever dental checkup, that I have a gingivitis (gum disease) due to not having a proper tooth hygiene during my younger days plus, I have a lot of gaps in between my front teeth. This might be one of the reason why I still had no boyfriend since birth as whenever I dated someone and they saw my teeth, they always have an impression that I don't have a proper oral hygiene. Like what they always say, first impression lasts. I also have a bad hairstyle plus, I think, 50% of my hair are whites. I don't know what they call it but it's something on my genes I guess. I also have vitiligo which is a rare skin condition where your body builds white spots throughout your body due to lack or low melanin. It's more of a genes thingy. A doctor said that it's common every third generation of your family. I'm just unlucky as out of all people in my family, I'm the only one to win the spot. But, kidding aside, it isn't harmful and it will never pass on to you so you don't need to step back or stay away if you ever experience seeing people with this condition. Instead of disliking them, you should support them because people with this condition needs friends, real friends as they often gets bullied or tease by people. Enough with the drama, I already told you a lot of things about me. Let's start the real story in reading the next chapter.