The Laxstar

New mindset

Persephone's p.o.v

 “you’re a beautiful person, I’m not talking about your looks. I’m talking about the way you are, your soul is so calm and peaceful. I saw you yesterday calm as could be while people laughed at you. I could never do that, so that's why I stuck up for you, because there’s not that many people like you left.” I didn’t say anything but I liked how he stood up for me, I trust in his word that maybe I could find that something in him. I just hope that I don’t ruin this one, he walked me home. We talked about his family, his dad working to help big companies expand their brand. Like advertisement, his dad has to move a lot, and since he didn’t want to leave his family he moves them with. They never really stayed in a town more than four months. He told me how he never made friends or tried to, because he always ended up leaving them behind. It made me sad thinking about Julius leaving, I didn’t like the thought of him starting over with someone new. He did mention that he was a virgin, so that means he’s not after s*x. But what if he meets the one, what if he moves miles away and finds some other girl worth fighting for. I hate being in my head

I walk into my kitchen for a snack. My mother is passed out on the couch, she’s being nice today. She gave me money and told me to get myself something nice. But I ended up putting it back in her pocket, these moments never last long. She will be waking up accusing me of stealing from her, then I’ll go back to the daughter she hates. 

My bedroom, a place where I am safe. A place I can be me, there is no comfortability outside these walls. I think about Julius, he’s the first thing that comes to my mind. He’s not even mine and he is already the first thing that pops into my head. I take out my phone and search for his name. But nothing comes up that is him. I checked i********: and one account came up but nothing was posted. I didn’t want to come off strong so I left it be. I’ll ask him in the meantime. 

I try to do my homework but the events from today keep playing in my mind. I can’t get the thought of how Julius stood up for me. I started to feel a tingle in my core. Something that's only happened one time, with Demetri. The way he spoke in a low growl barely loud enough for the crowd to hear his warning. Loud enough for me to get turned on. My core starts at the thought of Julius on me. I bet he’s nice in firm in all the right places, I want to snuggle close to feel his member on my backside. I try to focus on my school work, but I catch myself daydreaming about the things Julius can do. 

When I get done with my school work it’s almost ten, it was hard trying to focus on school work. But the more I thought about it the lower the probability of him dating is slim to none. He said he never had friends or try to make any because he would leave after his dad was done with work. If he did leave I want to give him something he can take with him, and he leaves something with me. I know that I just met him, but he’s done more for me than the people I chose to get to know.

I plan to give him my virginity, something we can both share. Something we can both experience, I know it's far fetch but I think he’s worth it. 

I pull out my phone and go back to the i********: page and follow the account. I hope it is him, otherwise I’m gonna have to awkwardly ask for his phone number. I think too much of it. I try to go to sleep, but the thoughts in my head won’t let me. I just think that maybe my liquid courage isn’t out of my system yet.