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After two weeks had passed, Isabella's life had stabilized, but everyone noticed that she became a lot smiling and fugitive, and that she sometimes spoke to herself as if there was someone in front of her talking to her.
Also, her dealings have become severe, as if this transaction is causing people to alienate her and turn away from her, and she has already succeeded in that. The company’s employees have mistakenly thought about her and started avoiding her and dealing with her with caution, which is what impressed her and ignited her confidence again ,,,
She wants to push everyone away from her
To remain in hiding from view until she conceals herself in her imaginary, delusional shell
Even John suddenly became so impatient, as if he had turned into an enemy to her after he was her best friend
Everyone was surprised by her sudden change, but they did not know that she had entered a new phase of her illness
Only David deduced that because he was observing her closely without anyone knowing, he did not specify exactly what her illness was
He consulted more than one psychiatrist, but they did not help him with anything
Does she suffer from double personality?
Or a psychological disorder !?
Is it an intense fear? What phobia !?
What is her problem?
He is afraid of a setback, and he does not know what exactly is wrong with her
He lifted his office stethoscope and asked to attend
He turned around and waited for her
When she went in and closed the door behind her, he closed the curtains by pressing a button in his seat, and then got up to stand behind his desk
"You asked for me ?!"
But he quickly picked up his keys and then walked towards them, pulling them by the arm behind him, to get out of his office and from the entire company after he took the elevator and she was still trapped by his fist, which she did not leave until after he pushed it in his car and drove towards a destination unknown to her
Notice her fear, which she could not control, of her body shaking, as she was shivering and with her attempts to prevent this from happening, she failed
She parked the car to find herself in front of a psychiatric clinic for mental illnesses
He forced her to walk inside with him to the doctor, who was aware of his presence, to look at her closely.
"Please sit down"
David sat and saw that she did not intend to sit down, throwing a sharp warning look that made her sit submissively.
Tell me, Miss Isabella
Why are you trying to push people away from you ?!
And before she answers, trust that no word you say will go outside the confines of this room
And Mr. David already knows about your psychological disorder and has always been in touch with me about your behavior.
She turned her eyes to David in shock, then curled, slowly nodding her head, her eyes not budging from David who was staring at her waiting in turn.
"I hate you so badly"
The doctor answered with a question
"who do you mean?!"
She turned her eyes away from David to look at the doctor with burning eyes, after the grim feelings for her reverent chest and miserable indignant fires.
You human beings are a bunch of fallen naked animals.
Doctor Liam narrowly swallowed him amid his strangeness at her unprecedented condition
You talk as if you are not one of those people.
"I am a special case and I have another world that I love, where people can understand and support me
You are only those with limited intellect and horizon, and I am disgusted with you, and I wish to disappear into my world. "
"Do you want to hide inside your unreal imaginary world ?!"
"This is better than integrating into your filthy world from which I have only gotten misery, frustration, disappointment, sadness and crying day and night. I have no place in a world like this."
Seems you've suffered enough to have these strange thoughts.
She smiled sadly
"Believe me, I was not like this, I was natural and on my own instinct, but with time I realized that this instinct does not suit people. I have been cruelly rejected, and I have been unable to adapt and adapt."
"And how were you ostracized !?"
She looked at him with cloudy eyes of pure hatred and rancor, to shudder in a painful tone
"I had a teacher in the kindergarten who hated my excessive activity, so I was riot at times to punish me with beating and insulting and she used to tell my father about false things about me, and this only made my father more hate for me. Her insulting treatment, and there was no one to defend me, for she was claiming that she was raising me in this strict way, forgetting that I was just a little helpless child
She did not allow me anything
She prevented me from mixing with my friends, but with everyone, and she scared me about everything until she threatened to burn me more than once. She was ashamed to misbehave.
You messed up my shape. "
Does this mean that your mother is the cause of your turmoil !?
"No, she is not alone in this, she was only part of what I have suffered."
She paused, looking at David, whose jaw was suddenly strained, knowing that he was a party to her destruction, and she resumed her conversation with bright, wet eyes.
"In my childhood, I remember one time I used to play with myself in one of the rooms of the house, so I innocently wanted to change my room to another room, so I took my things out of their places in preparation to move them to the other room, and it happened that my uncle Jonathan and his two sons David and Rudolph visited us.
And when my uncle saw me, he didn't like what I was doing to make fun of me in front of my parents and call me crazy
You may think that I am silly to be influenced by this, but at the time I was a child suffering from a lack of confidence enough to be affected by anything, and what made it worse was the constant circulation of that word, especially from David, who was calling me only that contemptible word, even my parents and friends, everyone thought I was crazy and crazy because of my gullibility Excess in my childhood ,,,
Nevertheless, I appeared in front of them indifferent and disinterested, but they did not see me when I became alone and alone in my bed in the darkness of the night and my tears sank my pillow every night until I became dehydrated and my eyes sore from excessive crying ,,,
They called me crazy, eccentric for my innocent behavior, while I met them with a smile and a claim of strength
Until I became unsure of any word I was saying, even if it was correct, so that I would not encounter those looks of ridicule and contempt
So I decided to stay silent and get as far as possible
I lost faith in all human beings until I became terribly afraid of them. "
"You are very sensitive."
She smiled sarcastically, slacking in her seat and waving red eyes after trapping with tears
“And in my first class in school
She became calm, introverted, and antisocial
I avoid everyone
But I was very shocked when I accidentally heard a teacher's talk about me and called her “the patient”
She also thought I was crazy or mentally ill
To feel she was right, she guessed it without realizing the reason for my isolation, and over time they called me devoid of feelings so that I would be bullied by everyone, even my family, which was supposed to defend me
Even this bastard David used to insult me in front of everyone to the point where he agreed with his friends once to prank me to make me frightened to lock me in the abandoned school store at the end of the hallway amid the bats and then he left, forgetting about my command ,,,
The problem is that I am unable to forget these situations, as if they were dug deep into my damned memory that refuses to forget until I hated life and all the paths were blackened in my face to think of suicide
And to death, I failed it
After I swallowed many pills, I was saved to stay in bed for a while, and no one saved me from my father's constant screaming and hitting me under the pretext that I could have really died, causing a scandal for the family because I had committed suicide, and this of course will affect his successors in prominent circles ,,,
After that incident, his treatment of me worsened to the point that he used to buy me toys and then angrily destroy them in front of my eyes amid my crying and panic the next day,
I had a tragic childhood that refuses to leave my memory
A miserable, sad life pushed me to flee into an illusory world of the fabric of my troubled mind
And the funny thing is that people used to interpret my introvert as being arrogant and arrogant, and that my parents had spoiled me with pampering and luxury ,,,
I think that's enough for the day, doctor. "
He nodded to her softly
While a sense of remorse and guilt squeezed David's heart, he felt a burning lump in his throat that almost prevented him from breathing ,,,
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